tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-207694542012-01-29T13:19:48.356+08:00lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.comBlogger4981100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-4856157669988403332012-01-29T13:15:00.002+08:002012-01-29T13:19:48.375+08:00lost dairy chpt 408:<br /><br />have been busy with work..the busy i mean...<br />is really super busy. sometimes, i dont even have time to rest.<br />life totally sucks....<br />if only life can be......<br /><br />you say that i'm still the same...<br />as hardworking as usual...<br />but in the first place...<br />i'm nvr hardworking...<br />have you ever understand me??<br />things that i do is not because i'm hardworking...<br />just that i know what are the things that i should do...<br /><br />anyway,<br />getting old le...<br />yesterday girl bought a back rester.<br />den i sat on it.<br />after standing up i can totally feel the pain from my back...<br />cause when the pain is there for very long,<br />you'll get used to the pain. and it actually dont really brings any harm to my back..<br />but den...<br />because the back rester is meant to relieve your back pain...<br />so, when i get up..i totally dont feel like moving..<br />cause i when i move i can feel the pain...<br />haiz...<br />really old le....<br />life just sucks yea?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-485615766998840333?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-91941087956913244702011-12-19T10:01:00.002+08:002011-12-19T10:20:33.749+08:00lost dairy chpt 407:<br /><br />like what i've always say.<br />life is never wonderful...<br />everyone have their own problem...<br />some choose to show it out,<br />some choose to say it out,<br />some choose to keep within themselves.<br />and some....choose to remember only the good stuffs in their life...<br />for the 1st one and 2nd one, ppl will label them as "attracting attention".<br />for the 3rd one, ppl will label them as " unwilling to share"<br />and for the the last one, ppl will just think that, "your life is wonderful already, what are you not happy with??"<br /><br />have you ever encounter these types of ppl?<br /><br />i guess, the 1st and 2nd are more common..<br />someitmes, i just thought that, maybe they need a way to let themselves out...<br />since, everyone's stress thereshold is different...<br /><br />and i also realize that, as we grow up...we tend to be cynical....<br />isn't it?<br />-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------<br /><br />oh wells...<br />it's coming to the end of 2011..<br />and guess what??<br />sometimes, i really hope that 20121221 do exist...<br />haha...<br /><br />anyway, matt is coming back!!!<br />hahahaha...actually i feel quite guilty for not meeting him previously before he left to aust...<br />that time was busy with LPA performance...<br />alomost everyday have to stay in school till midnight...<br />even on that day of his departure...<br />i didnt go and see him off...<br />only send him a text message...<br />now he's coming back for a few weeks...<br />i hope i can get to meet him..haha...<br />if not..i'll be super duper guilty!<br /><br />anyway, have been working for almost a month...<br />everyday have to do the boring job...<br />really sian ttm...<br />what can i say??<br />life suck ttm...<br />HAHAHAHAAHAH<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-9194108795691324470?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-11593069618462068022011-11-26T21:58:00.002+08:002011-11-26T22:08:37.119+08:00lost dairy chpt 406:<br /><br /><div>人生的意义是什么？</div><div>为什么当你快乐的在享受快乐的时候，</div><div>噩耗会降临。</div><div>为什么老天爷给予的幸福，</div><div>那么容易就被收回？</div><div><br /></div><div>不知道为什么会想起 <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; ">陳綺貞 - 旅行的意義。</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1159306961846206802?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-33836646754219733572011-10-31T11:39:00.002+08:002011-10-31T12:04:08.718+08:00lost dairy chpt 405:<div><br /></div><div>舍得舍得，不舍不得。。。</div><div><br /></div><div>in the midst of looking for my "path"....</div><div>i cant remember if i've mention that i went to look for this so call "fortune teller"...</div><div>haha... superstitious? i have no idea at all...</div><div>but what i know is that...</div><div>whatever she say about my cousins and sister are all so accurate...</div><div>only mine....is not accurate at all....</div><div>haha..maybe it's just the decision that i've made at every moment...</div><div>with different decision you've made, you'll be able to receive different outcome...</div><div>that's what i always believe...</div><div><br /></div><div>but sometimes, decision aren't so easily made...</div><div>to make a choice between "give up" or "i believe that i can do it. i just have to go through this. challenge accepted."</div><div>do you have this kind of pressure??</div><div>things will come out differently if you push yourself to the max.</div><div>however, there are times whereby i just want to slack at one corner.</div><div>give up and unwilling to put in more effort...</div><div>and whenever this thought comes in...</div><div>another thought will follow...</div><div>"how can i give up so easily? without putting in any effort?? i'm a loser if i did that"</div><div>denial in progress...</div><div>and...i'm stuck...</div><div>no improvement....nothing i can do....</div><div>unless i get myself out of this thinking process...</div><div><br /></div><div><img class="rg_hi" id="rg_hi" alt="" width="259" height="194" width="259" height="194" style="width:259px;height:194px" src="http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQn0D8o3hSQO-16wZ6AXe72dAvB2U3LsrTvpGSUtB2Gqgfhyrac" /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3383664675421973357?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-42939769012316247812011-09-23T23:11:00.002+08:002011-09-23T23:23:45.062+08:00lost dairy chpt 404:<div><br /></div><div>11.11....</div><div>this few days have to go to grandma house everyday...</div><div>cause uncle they all are not at home...</div><div>left grandma and grandpa...</div><div>grandma old already...</div><div>so, sometimes, she's a little bit blur..</div><div>so have to go over to look after grandpa..</div><div>although we thinks that hiring a nurse to stay at their house will be better...</div><div>but...</div><div>grandpa is very stubborn...</div><div>he says that he feels alright..</div><div>so he don't need anyone to help...</div><div>we know the consequences..</div><div>just that no one dares to tell him the truth...</div><div><br /></div><div>the malay uncle's son that's staying next to grandpa when he's admitted to hospital said that...</div><div>grandpa looks alright...</div><div>maybe it's because of use...</div><div>going down everyday to accompany him...</div><div>talking to him...</div><div>cheering him up...</div><div>it's just that he's not around the first few days...</div><div>the morphine that the doc prescribe for him make him sleep the whole day...</div><div>i remember saying that i don't like to go hospital..</div><div>because it's troublesome...</div><div>but now, even it's troublesome...</div><div>i'll still go down everyday...</div><div>because we know grandpa feels better seeing us...</div><div>he'll be happy seeing us quarreling...arguing...and complaining...</div><div><br /></div><div>人生最大的改变就是变了</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4293976901231624781?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-36712705464683907272011-09-20T21:45:00.003+08:002011-09-21T22:45:40.896+08:00lost dairy chpt 403:<div><br /></div><div>why must you people start concerning about other people when you all know that things are serious?</div><div>even if it's not serious...</div><div>don't you think that it's part of your duty??</div><div>if this continues...</div><div>one day...you all will regret....</div><div><br /></div><div>had a dream last night...</div><div>inside the dream..i saw a few familiar faces...</div><div>so....</div><div>i went to look through my primary school class photo..</div><div>guess what??</div><div>there's a alot of ppl that i cant rmb their name...</div><div>some i don't even remember their existence..</div><div>i feel so bad...</div><div>maybe because what i always recall is only part of the memory i have...</div><div>the things that you remembered...</div><div>may not be the facts...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3671270546468390727?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-82234915646032961052011-09-14T00:22:00.002+08:002011-09-14T00:33:00.467+08:00lost dairy chpt 402:<div><br /></div><div>well~</div><div>somehow...i think that i rejected the show for this week is correct...</div><div>too many things going on...</div><div>my sis and i was so tired that we fall asleep on each other during the journey back home today...</div><div>每天就像是赚了一天</div><div><br /></div><div>有时候，真的觉得自己太傻了</div><div>这个世界上是没有谁没了谁就不行</div><div>太习惯赚牛角尖</div><div>所以才会活得那么辛苦吧</div><div><br /></div><div>sometimes, i wonder when will he realize his mistake...</div><div>whenever i thought that he realize his mistake..and thought that he's going to change..</div><div>everything went back to normal...</div><div>is not that everyone has high hopes on him...</div><div>he's the eldest among us...</div><div>but he's the one that grandpa worried the most...</div><div>when he came to visit grandpa the past few days...</div><div>is like he's totally a different person...</div><div>but...i guess...this won't last long...just like the previous time...</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">我有多希望你能在这边。</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">至少，陪在我身边。</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">听我发发牢骚我也会很开心。</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8223491564603296105?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-3719572699181902352011-09-10T23:50:00.003+08:002011-09-11T00:11:28.373+08:00lost dairy chpt 401:<div><br /></div><div>i've realized that i got SGH blk 1-7 map right inside me head...</div><div>and i don't like this feeling...</div><div>at all...</div><div>i would rather get lost inside than knowing where i should walk to get to the place that i want to go...</div><div><br /></div><div>life is full of surprises...</div><div>one minute you may think that every good thing in the world had happen in your life..</div><div>and the very next minute, you'll realized there's a price to pay for every good thing that you've encounter...</div><div>oh well...</div><div>if that's the case, i would rather use 'shock' than 'surprise'</div><div><br /></div><div>最近感触很深。</div><div>有人，喜欢把爱情比喻成食物。</div><div>看到，会想要吃。</div><div>有人，喜欢把爱情当做泥沼。</div><div>会越陷越深。</div><div>有人，喜欢把爱情比喻成水。</div><div>不是有情饮水饱。</div><div>而是，你一跌进水里， 你肯定会湿。</div><div>如果你想离开“水”，你得等到自己全身干了才会离开。</div><div>就像是失恋的人，要忘记爱情带给自己的伤，只能靠时间来癒合。</div><div>而我呢？</div><div>我想了很久。</div><div>还是得不到答案。</div><div>所以我翻了翻以前我曾经写过的东西。</div><div>连我自己也给忘了。</div><div>我曾经比喻爱情为 “路”。</div><div>为什么呢？</div><div>因为，在爱情里总有人的步伐比较快，比较慢。</div><div>有的人，会希望自己能加快自己的步伐，赶得上自己在意的人。</div><div>有的人，会想放慢步伐，让自己在意的人赶上。在放慢的同时，看见对方的努力。</div><div>而有的人，会选着和自己步伐相近的人一起走。舒舒服服的享受沿途的风景。</div><div>每个人都有不一样的见解。</div><div>你的是什么呢？</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-371957269918190235?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-2910571434374834772011-09-01T00:29:00.005+08:002011-09-01T00:42:39.595+08:00lost dairy chpt 400:<div> <br /></div><div>was reading my dairy just now...</div><div>haha...</div><div>reminds me of alot of things...</div><div>primary school and secondary...</div><div>every details that i've written down to remember...</div><div> <br /></div><div>haha..the most funny thing is..</div><div>i cant remember where i kept my keys...</div><div>i have to search high and low to find it...</div><div>haha...</div><div>i used to keep it at a place whereby i won't have a chance to remind myself..</div><div>but now...</div><div>reading it....</div><div>makes me wonder..</div><div>how are the ppl that used to fill up every single page of my dairy??</div><div>are they happy??</div><div>do they still remember me??</div><div> <br /></div><div>was looking through my past status on fb...</div><div>and also the comments that my friends commented...</div><div>i felt that...</div><div>i was so fortunate...</div><div>there's always this person to cheer me up...</div><div>haha...although the person is no longer there for me...</div><div>but, while i'm reading...</div><div>i still feel very grateful to that person...</div><div>know that person through attachment...</div><div>because that person is always there...</div><div>and i know is wrong to keep that person by my side...</div><div>so, i've used to wrong method to push him away...</div><div>i throw temper on him...</div><div>try not to reply his message very quickly till i forgot to reply him...</div><div>i'm really feel very sorry towards him...</div><div>but...luckily, he's attach now...</div><div>and i can see how happy he is...</div><div>as a friend...i'll be there for him like he how he treated me..</div><div>just like his previous relationship is not good...</div><div>i feel so heart wrenching...</div><div>is not that i'm in love with him or what...</div><div>is just that..i know how good he is...</div><div>and i feel that he deserve a better person to be with him...</div><div>and now, having some one he really likes to be with him...</div><div>i feel really very happy for him...</div><div> <br /></div><div>maybe it's because the way i treated him last time...</div><div>i felt guilt towards him...</div><div>so, i guess...no matter what happen to him..</div><div>i'll always be there for him...</div><div>it's a promise...</div><div> <br /></div><div><img src="http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lqqnbfErb11qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="Photo Courtesy: soprettyfhabzie" /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-291057143437483477?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-62234590952112375602011-08-23T00:32:00.002+08:002011-08-23T00:37:58.624+08:00lost dairy chpt 399:<div> <br /></div><div><img src="http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lq4tvmf9rN1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="Photo Courtesy: sierracheyenner" /></div><div>no matter how hard i try...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6223459095211237560?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-34064121966060358462011-08-14T23:14:00.003+08:002011-08-14T23:31:54.603+08:00lost dairy chpt 398:<div> <br /></div><div>你有多久没看着月亮兴奋的笑了？</div><div>人，往往忘记最单纯的快乐。。</div><div>而有一些人，却因为环境的关系而被迫成长。。。</div><div> <br /></div><div>these few days grandpa temper isn't that good..</div><div>have been scolding people...</div><div>yesterday was lele..</div><div>today...he didn't really scold actually...</div><div>is just that he does not know the words that he say out is too harsh for them to take it...</div><div> <br /></div><div>what i've realize today is that...</div><div>you can't do anything wrong...</div><div>because no wonder how much you wanted to prove that you've changed...</div><div>the damage is done...</div><div>and the more you do, it does not change anything..</div><div>i totally agree that everyone deserve a second chance...</div><div>especially your family members...</div><div> <br /></div><div>however, some people just don't deserve it...</div><div>because they don't learn from their mistake..</div><div>if you want a second chance...</div><div>you should really do something...</div><div>things that won't disappoint others that have high hopes on you...</div><div><img src="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lppl67FRsq1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="Photo Courtesy: libera-animositas" /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3406412196606035846?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-50789824614859326592011-08-10T01:09:00.004+08:002011-08-10T01:35:33.459+08:00lost dairy chpt 397:<div> <br /></div><div>was reading the letters that my friends wrote to me the past few years...</div><div>things really change...</div><div>especially these few years...</div><div> <br /></div><div>i mean...</div><div>everyone tends to be more mature than last...</div><div>the way they handle stuffs will no longer be the same...</div><div> <br /></div><div>but somehow...</div><div>i miss the old days...</div><div>whereby, everything is simple as it is....</div><div> <br /></div><div>for me..</div><div>i love my family...</div><div>although there will be some disagreement...</div><div>but i love them...and they are the ones that will love me forever too...</div><div>in the past...</div><div>i would rather spend more time outside with my friends than spending with my family...</div><div>it's true that i used to feel more secure with my friends...</div><div>i find that there's alot of things that i can say to them compared to my family...</div><div>this wouldn't change at all...</div><div>there are stuffs whereby i won't share with my family...</div><div>but now, i rather keep it to myself...</div><div>i've learnt one thing throughout the years...</div><div>i don't have to let you know what changes me...</div><div>if you don't like the change...fine...</div><div>just leave me alone...</div><div>but if you accept me as who i am...</div><div>i know that...you'll always be there....</div><div> <br /></div><div>in the letters...everyone wrote that i've been a wonderful friend...blah blah blah...</div><div>but now, i have no idea if i am still the person you guys thought i am...</div><div>if only things are still so simple...</div><div> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5078982461485932659?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-27365049262610252502011-08-07T00:25:00.003+08:002011-08-07T01:43:13.476+08:00lost dairy chpt 396:<div><br /></div><div>looking through the pictures....</div><div>people do change....</div><div>don't you think so???</div><div><br /></div><div>picture do speak a thousand words...</div><div>but,what's the story behind every picture?</div><div>only the people inside the picture know..</div><div>but some pictures are taken so long ago that i totally don't remember...</div><div>and grandpa is so young and energetic...</div><div><br /></div><div>the thing that i regret now is that...</div><div>i didn't apply for uni for this year...</div><div>all i think about is myself and what i want...</div><div>may be i've said that i'll forfeit the thinking of going overseas to study...</div><div>i still hope that there's a small percentage of chance that i can i go...</div><div>but now, to think of it....</div><div>it's kinda selfish in a way...</div><div><br /></div><div>grandpa wanted to see me to get into uni so badly...</div><div>and i just keep pushing and pushing...</div><div>even now, he's getting weaker and weaker...</div><div>he's getting skinner and skinner...</div><div>all he left is bones....</div><div>the first thing that he spoke to me is to remind me to go and study uni...</div><div>heart wrenching.....</div><div>the pain that he's going through now is making him so weak..</div><div>but all he can think of is my studies...</div><div><br /></div><div>i still remember how happy he is when i gave him one of my grad pic...</div><div>he's so happy that he walked to the living room and find a place to put the photo frame...</div><div>he even ask lele if she can recognize who's the person in the photo...</div><div>that's the last time i saw him smile until so happy...</div><div>after that...the pain is so unbearable that we have to send him to the hospital...</div><div>while everyone is panicking taking out wheelchair...</div><div>getting the car ready...</div><div>grandpa told me that the pain is so unbearable that he's going to die...</div><div>my heart sink and went out to see if they are ready to get grandpa to the hospital..</div><div>on the way to the hospital...</div><div>everyone was so quiet...</div><div><br /></div><div>after he came back from the hospital...</div><div>he seldom come out from his room anymore...</div><div>he comes out only for lunch,dinner and his medication...</div><div>other than that...he'll be lying on the bed...</div><div><br /></div><div>yesterday...he look at me...</div><div>asking me to remember to apply for uni...</div><div>even though he cant see me attending uni...</div><div>i was so stunt at that moment...</div><div>i have no idea how to i console him...</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2736504926261025250?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-66278050253692777152011-08-02T23:49:00.002+08:002011-08-03T00:15:36.835+08:00lost dairy chpt 395:<div><br /></div><div>it's a brand new start for me...</div><div>i have to get used to it...</div><div>have to express my gratitude to some of my friends...</div><div><br /></div><div>gina: she's the first person i'll talk to...but she's always busy with some other stuff...</div><div>so i try not to pester her everytime...but i know that she'll listen to me and give me very good advice...=D LOVE YOU!!! haha...although everythime like to di siao you...but still, you're the best person i've ever met....know that you'll always lend me your shoulder to cry....=))</div><div><br /></div><div>Grace: even she's curious...but she never asked me about anything...she knows that i'll tell her when i want to tell her...that's why she never force me on saying the things that i don't wish to say...</div><div><br /></div><div>aloy: haha....even he went to tekong already..i still like to pester him some times...</div><div>maybe to cheer him up?? or maybe to cheer myself up??</div><div>but, is really very nice of him to listen to all my stupid stuffs...although he give me stupid advice as well...but...he knows what i want....=)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>although i've been very stress last sem due to LPA...</div><div>but, i'm glad that i took that elective at the last sem...</div><div>i'm happy with the production...although there's some angry moments...</div><div>but overall is fine=D</div><div>the most important thing is that i get to know a few nice friends....</div><div>yp,max,gy and adeline...</div><div>haha...although adeline seldom come out with us...</div><div>but, when she comes, we got lots of things to say...</div><div>yp....she's a very funny person...guess wad??she and adeline wants to matchmake me with another guy name hock leng...haha....funny girl with lots of stupid ideas...</div><div>never fail to make me laugh like a idiot....=)</div><div>max....haha...he's the first guy that i ever know that really give me a big bro impression...</div><div>i everytime go out with him like i got a bro beside me like tt...</div><div>he'll offer to send me out of the ktv because that place quite wulu and it's damn late already....</div><div>with him around..like he can settle everything for us...haha...a great guy=) a humorous guy too...send me a super long message just to tell me that he's going to protect us when we're sleeping...HAHA!!! funny guy!</div><div>gy....stupid guy...maybe because of his past experience he's who he is now...and some ppl may not like the way he act..and also...a da shao ye...don't like to take public transport...at all! he's always with his bike or car...but, he's really a great guy too..</div><div><br /></div><div>if there's chance i really want to intro my girl friends to gy and max...both of them will be a good boyfriend=) maybe it's because of their age...they give ppl the sense of secure when they are around...</div><div><br /></div><div>p.s: gy!i won't buy you a cap after you go tekong! i want to see you botak!LOL!!!you want ask your gf buy for you...=p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6627805025369277715?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-78588721032361179942011-07-03T01:08:00.002+08:002011-07-03T01:18:42.596+08:00lost dairy chpt 394:<br /><br />"life wasn't good for me...but i just learn to be content..."<br />that's what i told tommy yesterday when we're chatting like usual..<br /><br />i've never been able to do things that i wanted to do...<br />maybe i'm just a coward that refuse changes in my life...<br />or it's just that i cant find the courage to change things in my life...<br />u never know what you did is right or wrong...<br /><br />there are many kinds of people in this world.<br />i may not like you, but at least i don't hate you.<br />so, i'm still okay to work with you.<br />as long as, nothing irritate me..<br />that's life...<br />and it'll never change...<br /><br />Joe offered me a full-time job.<br />but, i declined it.<br />i understand what you guys are trying to let me understand...<br />but, there are things that i don't wish to do..<br />don't wish to make choices..<br /><br />this week has been a crazy week for me...<br />tried so hard to focus on work...<br />try so hard to get myself to sleep...<br />but, it seems that, i'm not trying hard enough...<br />maybe it should not happen it like this...<br />has been one week...<br />and i still can't get over with it...<br />you'll never understand how i feel..<br />cause you're no longer the person i knew long ago..<br />now, you never try to understand what i was trying to say at that moment of time...<br />cause you don't care anymore...<br />things will not be the same...<br />i should get this clear....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7858872103236117994?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-73088867340457926272011-06-24T00:42:00.003+08:002011-07-10T01:34:19.663+08:00lost dairy chpt 393:<br /><br />haha...wanted to record down this moment...<br />there are a few friends that you'll encounter...<br />one...backstabs you and never let them enter your world ever again...<br />one word: hate<br />second, people that u don't really like...but you don't mind then being around u...<br />third...friends that you just get to know after a few meetings...<br />forth...friends that you like them and treasure them...<br />lastly...friends that you love them as much as you do...<br />and no matter what they've done and what you've done...<br />they'll never leave you...because they are there for u...<br />no matter what...<br />two words: true friends<br />i got a few for the first...<br />some for the second...<br />many for third..<br />tons for the forth...as most of my friends...i like them for who they are...<br />but lastly...i'm happy that i got at least 12 of them....<br />6 from my secondary school...<br />and 6 from my poly...<br /><br />secondary school:<br />Matt, Cindy, Grace, CT, kitty and WC...from my sec school life...<br />each of them plays different roles...<br />some,we've gone through many things together...mostly hard times...<br />some, is because they've brighten my life during the miserable time...<br />some, they're like shelter to me...<br />some one who i can escape to and leave everything behind me for a moment...<br /><br /><br />Poly:<br />Yennting is the first person i know from my poly...and i love her for who she is...<br />some ppl may not like her...<br />but, once u know her well...u'll love her...because u'll understand her very well very fast...<br />she's not a fake person...<br />and she know's me well not long after we know each other...<br /><br />Gina...haha...a person that looks like she can take care of herself very well<br />including relationships with ppl around her..but..honestly...she fail...<br />haha...but, a wonderful friend=D gone through many things with her...<br />and i believe that things will get better for the two of us...<br /><br />Chenchian...haha...no one knows that we're that close...haha..<br />actually we start to get close during the last sem...<br />things have been though for her...<br />and i like her attitude towards some things...<br />like me...stubborn...haha...<br />but also..another one who don't know how to handle relationships with ppl...<br />haha..some how i understand ppl who don't know how to handle relationship...haha...<br />and i hope that she'll be the one of the most xin fu person that i've ever know...<br /><br />wardah and erza: let's sum them together...things are good during the start...but turns sour in the middle...but during attachment...we get closer...because of some stuff that they did...<br />i've been sad for a period..<br />however, after some talking...things are getting better...<br />and i love them for who they are...no faking here...<div><br /></div><div>last but not least...Aloy!:what can i say...sometimes, i feel much better talking to him...so, some times, when i don't feel good. i'll like to pester him alot...haha...i used to say that he cant be trusted...because he'll tell other ppl abt your things...but, now den i know is that...he know what he should say and what he should not...and...i'm really happy that i get to know him...a friend that i can tell him anything..and i'm willing to listen to him about everything...even it's some random talks when he need to has to be awake during standbys....</div><div><br />most of my poly and sec schoold friends are under the forth...<br />to me...i love them all..<br />haha...just like what i used to tell a old friend of mine...<br />friends don't need to stay contact to each other everyday...<br />even once for a while, you'll still find warmth from them...<br />i'm lucky because i don't really HATE some one for no reasons...<br />so, i still find warmth among friends...<br />and i also love my family!!!!</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7308886734045792627?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-32763732265356955912011-06-22T00:08:00.002+08:002011-06-22T00:25:04.962+08:00lost dairy chpt 392:<div><br /></div><div>suddenly, there's this urge to write down something..</div><div>haha...oh wells~..</div><div>yesterday dad mention his name...</div><div>and somehow...</div><div>i just change the topic and don't want to hear what's going to cont...</div><div>i regret introducing him to my dad...</div><div>even to my family...</div><div>although my mum and sis stop talking abt him for ages...</div><div>but my dad....</div><div>haiz....</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm a aimless person now...</div><div>i had no idea what i want to do...</div><div>all this while i only wanted to do one thing...</div><div>but, now, it's hard for me to fulfill..</div><div><br /></div><div>last sat was chatting with my uncle...</div><div>he mention that studying overseas is actually not a bad idea..</div><div>which i totally agree with him...</div><div>is a kind of training...</div><div>i'm not those kind of ppl that have to cling to my parents...</div><div>cling to my country because my country is safer den others...</div><div>my grandpa just walk past and i can sense that he's upset abt it...</div><div>maybe partly to my uncle too..</div><div>as no one dares to mention this topic infront of my grandpa...</div><div>everyone knows that grandpa don't like me going overseas and study..</div><div>he even told me a story abt his friend's grandson not coming back to singapore after his studies..</div><div>i know and understand from my grandpa's point of view...</div><div>and i promise him i won't go anywhere else..</div><div>and my grandpa is so afraid that i'll brea my promise that he keep on asking me to go apply for a uni...</div><div>that's very stress as i have no idea what i want to do...</div><div><br /></div><div>ppl may think why must i listen to my grandpa??</div><div>because..he's the one that brought me up...</div><div>he's the one that accompanied me when my parents are working...</div><div>after my mum stop working because of me...</div><div>he stopped coming to my hse and look after me..</div><div>but in my memories, is all about him...</div><div><br /></div><div>talking abt this...i'm also quite sorry towards my mum...</div><div>she gave up her job because of me...</div><div>if not, maybe she'll be like my aunt??</div><div>become her boss best helper??</div><div>haha!!! gina they all say that i'm not rebellious enough..</div><div>but guess what??</div><div>i'm quite rebellious when i'm young..haha...</div><div>when ever my mum wants to bring me to school...</div><div>i'll keep crying and crying...because i don't want my mum to go to work...</div><div>i'll not eat during breaks until my mum came back and ask me eat...hahaha!!!</div><div>den i'll pon school during k2...haha! cause i don't like school...</div><div>LOL!!! because my kindergarden is just 5 stories away from my house...</div><div>haha...den i went to hide inside my neighbour house...</div><div>cause i know if i went home my mum will hit me...haha...</div><div>i had all my dramas when i'm young...</div><div>that's why no more dramas for me now...</div><div>old already ar....haha....</div><div>life is full of dramas...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3276373226535695591?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-4732377390870442682011-06-16T19:43:00.003+08:002011-06-16T19:45:44.701+08:00lost dairy chpt 391:<div><br /></div><div>dreamt abt you yesterday...</div><div>haha...i think that i'm crazy....</div><div>dreamt that i'm messaging you...</div><div>just like last time....</div><div><br /></div><div>i missed my classmates nonsense so much!!!</div><div>omg...when can we meet up again??</div><div>next month will be a happening month..</div><div>going to work for water week...haha...</div><div>interesting....</div><div>hopefully my back will recover...</div><div>going to see bone specialist next month too...</div><div>mummy say after seeing the bone specialist den decide if i should do part time anot...</div><div>haix....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-473237739087044268?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-19487620987150181122011-06-11T23:57:00.002+08:002011-06-12T00:02:16.083+08:00lost dairy chpt 390:<br /><br />to work or not to work???<br />haiz....<br />my back pain is not getting better...<br />and i don't feel like turning down the job offers...<br />everytime i reject one event means i've lost hundred plus...<br />omg....my heart pains when i see they money waving goodbye to me...<br />ppl ard me ask me not to be stubborn..don't force myself...<br />but, they dont understand...<br />what should i do??<br />omg!!!!!<br /><br />anyway...<br />haiz...<br />i'm so lost right now...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1948762098715018112?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-76911307914345161942011-05-21T13:50:00.003+08:002011-05-21T14:02:58.424+08:00lost dairy chpt 389:<div><br /></div><div>say hello to my back ache again~</div><div>things aren't getting better right???</div><div>haha..</div><div>well~ nvm den...</div><div><br /></div><div>have been wondering about the same topic after graduation...</div><div>wells...</div><div>don't feel like talking abt it again...haha..</div><div><br /></div><div>life is never wonderful to me...</div><div>i just learn how to be satisfied with what i have and had...</div><div>life maybe good during secondary schools...</div><div>i got friends that really understand me...</div><div>but distance and time drift us apart...</div><div>i got teachers that dote on me...</div><div>reminding me that i need to eat lunch and don't overwork myself...</div><div>but..i didn't have a chance to "waste" my time with my family...</div><div>that's what i used to think...</div><div><br /></div><div>as time goes by, maybe it's because i'm getting older=x</div><div>i realized that i need to spend more time with my family...</div><div>i'll put them infront of anything...</div><div>within my limits...</div><div>i realized that i didn't have enough time to accompany my friends...</div><div>didn't have time to spend with my teachers...</div><div>and when i realized it...</div><div>they're no longer there...</div><div>some part of me was sad...</div><div>but when i realized that who's still there for me..</div><div>waiting for me to realized that they will always be there for me...</div><div>i'm happy for my friends "betrayal"...</div><div>okay...it seems to harsh to use betray...</div><div>they left me...</div><div>they made me realized that no matter how much you've put in to build the relationship..</div><div>once you've stop putting in effort..there's nothing left for you...</div><div>because..."MUMMY!!IT'S OVER~"</div><div>haha....</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7691130791434516194?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-42148355466295055882011-05-15T12:24:00.009+08:002011-05-15T12:58:24.899+08:00lost dairy chpt 388:<div><br /></div><div>i'm having backaches again...</div><div>so, next time, have to sleep properly..</div><div>but what can i do??</div><div>how can i sleep properly??</div><div><br /></div><div>haiz...</div><div>missed aloy's birthday...</div><div>don't wanna talk abt it le...</div><div>feel so bad for not attending...=(</div><div><br /></div><div>spent most of my time with my family since graduation...</div><div>haha..</div><div>is some how fun...</div><div>my grandparents are so cute..</div><div>even some times, they might make things difficult for us...</div><div>but i still love them...</div><div>my cousins are funny too...</div><div>whenever we are together every week...</div><div>the laughter inside the house will never end..</div><div>and that's the reason why we make a effort to go to my grandparents house every week...</div><div><br /></div><div>although things are different this few weeks...</div><div>grandpa's mood is not very good...</div><div>everyone is scared abt it...</div><div>but, some how, when grandpa see how good we're, he will still smile...</div><div><br /></div><div>i did mention before that very long ago...</div><div>the relationship between the cousins are not that good...</div><div>but after grandpa is sick...</div><div>we gets better and better...</div><div>we'll help each other solve problem...</div><div>we'll listen to each other...</div><div>i like this change...</div><div>and i believe that grandpa love this change too...</div><div>things may change...but i believe that his love towards us will never change...</div><div>so no matter what...</div><div>i just want to spend more time with him...</div><div><br /></div><div>and i'm sorry to my friends...</div><div>haha...i've been putting them pigeon(direct translation...haha...) recently to spend more time with my family...i'm really sorry...</div><div><br /></div><div>especially yipei and flo....haha...</div><div>really very sorry...</div><div>ps them alot of times...</div><div>cause of the dvd thing...i ps them one time...</div><div>haha...so sorry abt it...=p</div><div><br /></div><div>feel so tired recently....</div><div>i really want to go overseas!</div><div>i need to have some "escape" trip...</div><div><br /></div><div><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;">life is precious....i hope you'll understand it...none of us wants you to leave us....</span></i></div><div><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 宋体, Verdana, Geneva, Arial, sans-serif; font-style: normal; font-size: 13px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); line-height: 22px; ">你永远不懂我伤悲<br />像白天不懂夜的黑<br />像永恒燃烧的太阳<br />不懂那月亮的盈缺<br />你永远不懂我伤悲<br />像白天不懂夜的黑<br />不懂那星星为何会坠跌</span></span></i></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4214835546629505588?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-57064218540688122752011-04-08T15:39:00.002+08:002011-04-08T15:49:15.658+08:00lost dairy chpt 387:<div><br /></div><div>have been working for a event company called 9 comm recently...</div><div>good thing is, the hardwork that i've put in paid off...</div><div>but still, humans are not perfect...</div><div>there are some ppl that you cant work with...</div><div>but, i choose to let it go...</div><div>since, he's old...</div><div>so...nvm...what he want to say and do is none of my problem...</div><div>i just have to do what i'm asked to do...</div><div><br /></div><div>the delicates that i've met so far are nice...</div><div>even though they are not, i can understand...</div><div>anyway, i'm so sad!!!</div><div>haha...joe say that i'm a traitor!!!</div><div>LOL...cause i've been rejecting his job offer...</div><div>but i'm not!!LOL..who ask me to work first den i just work..</div><div>although he's kidding...but, i still feel bad...</div><div>haiz...</div><div><br /></div><div>the problem now is...i'm so sick and tired of working in this line...</div><div>but, i have no idea what i want to do..</div><div>sian to the max!!</div><div><br /></div><div>so many problems waiting for me to solve it...</div><div>family is the biggest problem...</div><div>some times, i just pity my aunt...</div><div>it seems like..no matter how much i try to make her feel better...</div><div>her broken heart will never be mend...</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5706421854068812275?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-62098193215862226732011-03-20T15:26:00.001+08:002011-03-20T15:26:57.321+08:00lost dairy chpt 386:<br /><img style="padding-right: 30px; padding-top: 8px; padding-bottom: 8px; width: 281px; height: 186px;" src="http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRB85pBqv5fc-73Hx9xlmYAbJj1EJRaW8zj1mYe5A5nSWr9nQ0_" id="il_fi" /><br /><img style="cursor: -moz-zoom-in; width: 380px; height: 274px;" alt="http://imgs.home666.cn/allimg/091203/24_091203134446_1.jpg" src="http://imgs.home666.cn/allimg/091203/24_091203134446_1.jpg" /><br /><br /><img style="width: 375px; height: 252px;" alt="http://www.hi-qq.net/hiqq/UploadPic/2009-7/2009731103743176.jpg" src="http://www.hi-qq.net/hiqq/UploadPic/2009-7/2009731103743176.jpg" /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6209819321586222673?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-34981705795136729702011-03-13T10:50:00.002+08:002011-03-13T10:57:01.246+08:00lost dairy chpt 385:<div><br /></div><div>hmmm....</div><div>wad can i say??</div><div>talking to some one really feels better....</div><div>haha...</div><div>although you won't exactly do what that person advice you,</div><div>but still, it feels so good to talk to some one...</div><div><br /></div><div>had some issues previously..</div><div>but, i don't want to think about it anymore...</div><div>just want to move on with my life....</div><div><br /></div><div>how do you know you care about that person much??</div><div>is when you are super duper down...</div><div>the first person you think of is the person you cared the most...</div><div>but, the most funniest thing is that...</div><div>he or she will never be the person that you want to share your problems with...</div><div>to me personally, i will....</div><div>but now, i doubt i can...and i never can...</div><div><br /></div><div>anyway, i'm still able to find some one...</div><div>haha...thanks to YOU...</div><div>i'm able to have a good night...</div><div>love ya!!!! meet up when you're free...=D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3498170579513672970?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-3237447889004680572011-03-06T00:51:00.002+08:002011-03-06T01:00:57.142+08:00lost dairy chpt 384:<br /><br />lalalalalalalalalalala~~~<br />finallt finish with my last paper!!!<br />wooohooooo~~~<br />but there's still projects to finish up...<br />haiz....<br /><br />but before that...<br />it's celebration time!!!<br />haha....<br />alot of stuffs happen this few weeks..<br />which i don't know where to start with...<br /><br />now...the only problem that i'm facing now is....<br />what shall i do??<br />seriously, i have no idea at all....<br />i start to think what is possible for me to do...<br />you know how it feels???<br />it's like you're drifting somewhere in the middle of the sea..<br />don't know where to head...<br />aimless...<br />i wanted to set a aim...<br />but, if you know that that's not the one that you want...<br />i doubt you'll want to plan it...<br /><br />i don't need someone to tell me what to do..<br />i need someone to let me do the things i want to do...<br /><br />sometimes, i felt betrayed...<br />i don't know where i get the feeling...<br />suddenly, you don't know who you can trust anymore...<br />maybe it's because everything is over...<br />everything is set..<br />and, at the same moment, everyone is equivalently lost as me...<br />haiz...<br />i don't know what i'm talking about...<br />forget it~<br />oh wells~<br />just do the things that need to be done first...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-323744788900468057?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-79754156857741361592011-02-08T14:15:00.002+08:002011-02-08T14:40:19.556+08:00lost dairy chpt 383:<div><br /></div><div>you know how it feel when you've tried very best to achieve something...</div><div>ppl around you won't want to co-operate...</div><div>you felt devastated...</div><div>but den...</div><div>when someone compliment a small thing out of so many things you've done...</div><div>the happiness...i cant describe it...haha....</div><div>at least something that i've done is being recognize right??</div><div><br /></div><div>anyway....i'm have VCSG lect now...</div><div>if not i wont have time to type blog...</div><div>i'm so damn busy till i've lost track of time...</div><div>wake up at 6/7 am for school...</div><div>after lesson still got rehearsal....</div><div>rehearsal everytime end till very late...</div><div>ended up cabbing home...=(</div><div>the daily routine is like tt...</div><div>i haven even studied for my test tmr...</div><div>and have rehearsal afterwards...</div><div>OMG!!!please kill me now....</div><div><br /></div><div>when we're having dinner yesterday...</div><div>mr danny suggest me to take up event management degree...</div><div>people who do event management should take up the stress work and organize everything nicely....</div><div>well~i've thought of it...but i dun think i can take up the job...</div><div>is really very stress...</div><div>you guys cant imagine the stress that i'm handling now...</div><div>have been dragging myself from bed to school..from classroom to rehearsal...</div><div><br /></div><div>shall list down the things i need to do now:</div><div>- rehearsal for drama</div><div>- rehearsal for dance</div><div>- rehearsal for technical part</div><div>- cut music</div><div>- full dress rehearsal</div><div>- actual show</div><div>- one report to do</div><div>- MTV</div><div>- DVD portfolio</div><div>- 2 written exam</div><div>- 3 written test</div><div>- tutorials</div><div>- labs</div><div><br /></div><div>but...i think that i still can handle it...</div><div>it's a challenge...</div><div>i've to face it...</div><div>never turn yourself away from challenges...</div><div>god bless me!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7975415685774136159?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-82754157725358292382011-02-06T15:17:00.001+08:002011-02-06T15:17:49.976+08:00lost dairy chot 382:<br /><br />好像离开。。。<br />待在这个家。。。<br />好辛苦啊。。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8275415772535829238?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-41031000782930927022011-01-25T14:48:00.002+08:002011-01-25T15:03:14.358+08:00lost dairy chpt 381:<br /><br /><img style="padding-right: 8px; padding-top: 8px; padding-bottom: 8px;" src="http://pica.nipic.com/2008-07-17/2008717175311992_2.jpg" id="il_fi" height="410" width="492" /><br />想要飞走，却没办法放下心中的牵挂。。<br />我是很自私。。<br />因为， 我希望在我身边的人都能很幸福，很快乐。。。<br />但，有可能吗？？<br />事与愿违。。<br />我有一个很要好的朋友。。<br />她曾经问过我，为了帮人，把自己弄的那么狼狈。。。值得吗？<br />我也不知道值不值得。我只能一笑而之。。。<br />谁真的能分辨什么是值得什么是不值得？<br />我只知道，什么是该做什么是不该做。。。<br />所以，每次搞的两头不到岸。。。<br />姐姐每次骂我说为什么朋友比家人重要？<br />但是，朋友却觉得我把家人看的比较重要。。<br />对我来说，没有谁比谁重要。。。<br />我是会分轻重。。。<br />只是，是用我心中的尺在量的。。。<br />我知道谁比较需要我。。。<br />我知道的。。。<br /><br />因为爷爷对我说的一句话。。。<br />我放弃了自己的梦想。。。<br />“不要走， 你要是走了，爷爷就看不到你了”<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4103100078293092702?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-36331041821141657742011-01-09T01:15:00.000+08:002011-01-09T01:17:53.564+08:00<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lent4fQ6xs1qbpwzeo1_400.gif" alt="Photo Courtesy: kyoetseeksteen" /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3633104182114165774?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-76726595054318133732011-01-02T20:53:00.002+08:002011-01-02T21:04:01.556+08:00lost dairy chpt 380:<div><br /></div><div>it's the begining of year 2011...</div><div>it's a mix feeling...</div><div>duno how to explain...</div><div><br /></div><div>do you know how it feels like when u know that he and u is impossible...</div><div>but, sometimes, what he do really touched you right inside your heart...</div><div>but, u still have to convince yourself that, it's impossible because of blah blah blah...</div><div>and you realised you start to think about the bad point of his...</div><div>can a thousand bad point write off one good thing that he've done to me?</div><div><br /></div><div><div>do you know how it feels whereby finally u thought that u've gotten over some one..</div><div>but, in actual fact, just a small thing can change this "gotten over" stuff...</div></div><div>when u start to recall the memories, you'll smile at it..</div><div>but soon after that, what is left is a sad face...</div><div>because that person have broken what he have promise...</div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://www.lm808.com/upimg/100116/1_003056_11.jpg" id="il_fi" height="358" width="500" style="padding-right: 8px; padding-top: 8px; padding-bottom: 8px; " /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7672659505431813373?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-40082188286916827852010-12-21T20:31:00.002+08:002010-12-30T15:42:17.075+08:00lost dairy chpt 379:<div><br /></div><div>i'm done with my projects...</div><div>but seriously...</div><div>i'm packed with my holidays..</div><div>need to go back school for recording...</div><div>first week of holiday is saying goodbye to me...</div><div><br /></div><div>haiz...so tiring....</div><div>is gonna be end of the year...</div><div>seriously, i'm still lost with what i suppose to do grad....</div><div><img style="padding-right: 8px; padding-top: 8px; padding-bottom: 8px; width: 382px; height: 231px;" src="http://bbs.wtojob.com/user/upimage/20085910510998.jpg" id="il_fi" /><br />好累啊！<br />累到想要憋住呼吸。。。<br />就这样睡着。。<br />有时候真的不知道自己活在这个世界来干吗。。<br />好累好累。。<br />累到觉得呼吸也辛苦。。<br /><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4008218828691682785?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-29290303295889151432010-12-13T19:33:00.002+08:002010-12-13T19:46:26.919+08:00lost dairy chpt 378:<br /><br />stressed up with workload and exams this few months...<br />3rd yr is not fun at all...<br />cant get anything into my head...<br />everything i've studied seems to have drop down into a endless hole..<br />cant find them back...<br /><br />however, with all the tedious stuff there's always happy stuff around me..=)<br /><br />last thu end school early..<br />so, gina, chenchian, grace, js. chengzhia and soonheng celebrated my birthday with me in sakae...<br />haha...<br />love the surprise....<br />but, somehow, well...<br />things changes and human change too...<br />drop the topic first...<br />thank you them for celebrating my bd!!<br />haha...actually just wanted to go out and eat..<br />but afterall, they still celebrate my birthday!!=D<br /><br />haha...had this "mei ren" joke with gina a few days ago...<br />haha..although this joke i joke till like nothing already...<br />but gina laugh like hell...LOL....<br /><br />well~<br />like what i've said...<br />tmr is exam...and..NOTHING IS GETTING INTO MY HEAD!!!<br />super stressed...<br /><br />met one of my "long time no see" friend on bus when i'm on my way back home from airport..<br />haha..actually is just one yr...<br />haha...but everytime we met each other is on the bus...<br />funny right??<br />sometimes, i keep wondering..<br />why is him but not you??<br />i thought i'm over with it...<br />actually i am...<br />i'm really over with it...seriously...<br />but, to a certain point of time, i just don't feel so...<br />i've moved on...<br /><br />you know right??<br />certain times, you just misunderstood some one...<br />and hate him/her...<br />but after really talk to that person and see things from that person point of view...<br />everything changes...<br />you don't hate him/her anymore...<br />and actually, u can be friends with him/her....<br />things are like that..unexpected...=)<br /><br />anyway,<br />2012 is around the corner...haha!!!<br />just live the life as u want...=D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2929030329588915143?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-9997095200563814472010-11-15T21:00:00.002+08:002010-11-15T21:29:46.380+08:00lost dairy chpt 377:<br /><br />i love my family...<br />i treasure my family more than usual.<br />i love talking to my cousins..<br />i love my weekends when i hang out with them..<br />some how, everything change within one short year.<br /><br />ah yi and my mum is talking about how we've changed.<br />in the past, when we came to visit grandpa, we'll be seperated.<br />but now, after talking to grandpa together..<br />we have some chat...talking abt ting's wedding...<br />den play monopoly deal or scrabble...<br />haha!!!weekends are fun!<br />and the supper after dinner...<br />whereby kelvin will drive us around to eat...LOL!<br /><br />kept telling myself to put my focus on my family and studies...<br />before anything happens and i cant do anything to change it..<br />but, somehow, i've drifted away from my friends...<br />weekends cant work and go out because have to go grandpa house.<br />so, i left my weekdays to accompany my friends. but, everyday end so late.<br />well, friends will be there when i need them. vice versa, if they need me, i'll be there too...<br />just a call or a sms will do=)<br /><br />i'm super happy today. cause i realized my friend is attach...<br />LOL!! as usual, seeing how they describe the relationship and how it change them..<br />i feel so happy for them...<br />kept smiliing to the com during lesson..i guess my teacher thinks i'm crazy...<br />cause we're discussing about racial discrimination. and i'm smilling to my com..<br />LOL!!!<br /><br />"朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑<br />但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃<br />在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑<br />愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪<br />太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕<br />我太笨 明知道你是錯的人<br />明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身"<br /><br />"People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges"<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-999709520056381447?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-29155595564090341672010-11-11T22:13:00.002+08:002010-11-11T22:24:28.976+08:00lost dairy chot 376:<br /><br />hohoho~~....<br />very long never blast myself with loud music...<br />ever since half yr ago??<br />well...blasting music cools my mind...<br />thus, i can think better...weird right??<br />well~~ i'm not like gina, i can multitask!!<br />LOL!!! dun kill me if u see this gina...LOL<br /><br />well...<br />third week of schooll...<br />getting used to everything...<br />happen to be that, after attachment, i keep on giving attitude ar??<br />LOL...to teachers i mean...<br />but i dun care...last sem already...<br />u'll only get less than half a year to hate me...haha...<br /><br />went to suan ming last monday...<br />well, result= my name is not gd...thus i'm going to change my name<br />haha...are u excited??LOL<br />actually i'm not..<br />if i can, i dun want to change too...<br />but my mum is worried...<br />what to do...<br />haiz...<br /><br />well..<br />trying to enjoy every moment in school..<br />haha...<br />so, ya...trying very hard...<br />most of us cant get used to studying after attachment..<br />i guess, thing will get better...<br />oh wells, have been thinking what should i do after grad...<br />should i study or go work for 1 year first??<br />working is gd, cause u'll know what u want first...<br />but, after that, u'll not have the interest in studying already...haiz...<br />life is hard...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2915559556409034167?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-48832334000284063292010-11-01T23:06:00.002+08:002010-11-01T23:23:43.795+08:00lost chpt 375:<br /><br />well~<br />2nd week of school...<div>finally managed to get used with this thing.</div><div>however, when i see the work load ahead of me..</div><div>i wanted to go back to work again...</div><div>the work load is so heavy...</div><div>and i'm sorry cindy!</div><div>i haven got time to go to singapore post to send out your present.</div><div>i'm so sorry...</div><div><br /></div><div>hmmm...</div><div>this weekend relatives will be coming to singapore to visit grandpa.</div><div>he looks excited cause he climbed up the stairs to see le's room.</div><div>this is somthing he won't do.</div><div>everyone know that he's happy, no matter how troublesome this weekend can be...</div><div>we're still working on it...</div><div>have been rejecting jobs to accompany him.</div><div>but, some how, the time is always not enough.</div><div>it cant be helped right??</div><div>there's only 24hrs in one day.</div><div>you cant expect god to give you more than 24hrs because you wanted to more time to do things.</div><div><br /></div><div>life is so different now...</div><div>everything changed since last year...</div><div>everyone is getting more and more sensible...</div><div>but, there are always this particular person who will always disappoint ppl...</div><div><br /></div><div>deleting the memories with you while making more memories with others...</div><div>life seems getting better...</div><div>because of one sentence from a outsider..</div><div>i finally pictured it that you and i will no longer get together again...</div><div>it is for real...this time round...</div><div>and i'm looking forward to my mum's prize!!LOL...</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4883233400028406329?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-6109938139586822182010-09-17T18:49:00.004+08:002010-09-17T18:59:58.272+08:00lost dairy chpt 374:<br /><br />just now grandma suddenly talk to me abt grandpa's will...<br />she told me that grandpa scared that he cant get to see me turn 21st yr old...<br />ask told grandma what to buy for me for my 21st birthday...<br />at that moment...<br />i feel like crying...<br />and grandma cried too...<br />alothough she didn't admit it...<br />but i saw her wipping her tears off...<br />no matter how i tell grandma that this won't happen...<br />she just shake her head and watch her tv...<br />may be it's like what the show say....<br />you may get used to alot of things in life...<br />can get use of thinking someone, loving someone...<br />get use to being strong and even heartbreak...<br />but the only thing that you cant get used is the lost of the loved ones...<br /><br />it's true...<br />1yr ago...<br />outside the hospital ward...<br />everyone cant stop crying...<br />but no matter how much we cried...<br />once we get into the ward, we still need to put up the happy face in order for grandpa to be happy....<br />that time when aunt went overseas, she called back...<br />my mum don't want to let aunt know that she's crying...she pass me the phone...<br />aunt just asked me one qn "is ur mummy crying?"<br />although i said no...aunt is crying on the other end of the phone...<br /><br />everyone may be very busy with their own life...<br />but we make the effort to come down every weekend to visit grandpa...<br />i cant imagine what will happen next...<br />everyone has this fear and no one dare to voice it out...<br />everyone is acting like nothing is going to happen...<br />but does that mean the day that we fear the most will never come??<br />“永远不习惯”<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-610993813958682218?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-28349059216817656742010-09-15T16:08:00.003+08:002010-09-15T16:23:07.646+08:00lost dairy chpt 373:<div><br /></div><div>total number of 6....actually somehow i expected more...</div><div>but, won't it be better to have lesser??</div><div>i hope so~</div><div><br /></div><div>well~~</div><div>holidays seems fulfilling...</div><div>outings, slacking, celebrations.</div><div>the number of times is getting lesser...</div><div>it's a gd sign right??</div><div>as the numberings decrease...</div><div>it means that i've not been thinking too much about the past...</div><div>a few days ago...</div><div>gl's fb status is " Past, Present and Future. which is important?"</div><div>the first ans that comes to my mind is Present and Future.</div><div>if it's a few months ago, i think i'll give another ans.</div><div>However, to me. What matters the most is Present and Future.</div><div>i'm looking forward to school re-open.</div><div>although i have no idea where should i head to after graduation.</div><div>or maybe i don't dare to think too much.</div><div>but, finishing that last sem with my friends....sounds great...=)</div><div><img src="http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7w4pf2UQY1qa5wxqo1_500.jpg" alt="" /></div><div>there's a old friend of mine ask me this stupid question long long ago.</div><div>she said something like this to me "i'll miss every single part of this school. It sounds so good to graduate with those dearest friends that you've spend most of your schooling days with. would you?"</div><div>the first reaction i gave her is laugh. cause to me, at that point of time, there's nothing good about graduating with people like i always hang out. most of them are wearing a mask including me. recalling back, there's really nothing to be happy with.</div><div>however now, graduation sounds fun. excluding the fact that we have to seperate our ways after graduation. but working hard together to the end. seems great.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2834905921681765674?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-57375750711325367092010-08-31T20:38:00.002+08:002010-08-31T20:46:09.203+08:00lost dairy chpt 371:<div><br /></div><div>found a few cool quotes from http://lovequotesrus.tumblr.com</div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7zy3qffhU1qbpwzeo1_500.png" alt="&#8220;I hate you, and then I love you. It&#8217;s like I want to throw you off a cliff, then rush to the bottom to catch you.&#8221;" /><img src="http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yp9u34DC1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;If you treat me right, I&#8217;ll treat you better.&#8221;" /></div><div><img src="http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yp58AJHE1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;Love doesn&#8217;t need to be perfect. It just needs to be true.&#8221;" /></div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yotbuzXY1qbpwzeo1_500.png" alt="&#8220;Make your move, before I&#8221;m gone. Because people change, and hearts move on.&#8221;" /></div><div><img src="http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yor8Flt91qbpwzeo1_500.png" alt="&#8220;If we could sum up all the causes of hurt, pain, and hatred in one word, it would be &#8220;expectations.&#8221;" /><img src="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yoh7Nzyj1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;Ha, it&#8217;s funny how when I think I&#8217;ve finally gotten over you I talk to you again and the feelings come back.&#8221;" /></div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yg9vnA441qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;This is the way you left me, i&#8217;m not pretending. No love. No hope. No happy ending.&#8221; " /><img src="http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7ya6bCrBA1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;Maybe one day it will be ok again. That&#8217;s all I want. I don&#8217;t care what it takes. I just want to be ok again.&#8221;" /><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yiqqiaOu1qbpwzeo1_500.png" alt="“Maybe you should stop liking him. You’re only hurting yourself.”" /><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7yg14LJM81qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;I am someone else when I&#8217;m with you someone more like myself.&#8221;" /><img src="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l7y9jhpSds1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg" alt="&#8220;Decisions are the hardest thing to make especially when it&#8217;s a choice between where you should be and where you want to be.&#8221;" /></div><div><br /></div><div>haha...omg...</div><div>all these are all so true...</div><div>if u've time, go and browse the website...</div><div>u may find some I-N-S-P-I-R-A-T-I-O-N....</div><div>LOL..</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5737575071132536709?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-18066087879417203102010-08-27T18:56:00.002+08:002010-08-27T19:08:10.576+08:00lost dairy chpt 370:<div><br /></div><div>went through alot this few months...</div><div>well~ good and bad...</div><div><br /></div><div>have been busy with reports, brainstorming...</div><div>i really cant wait for next week to come...</div><div>so that i can really relax...</div><div>everyday has been stress abt reports..</div><div>reports reports and reports...</div><div><br /></div><div>sometimes, wanted to give up so much..</div><div>anyway, there won't be any difference if i anyhow do or put in a lot of effort and do..</div><div>but den, whenever come to this point, i'll give in again...</div><div>ya...i can anyhow do and submit it...</div><div>but i'll let down the ppl ard me...</div><div>i want to get gd grades...for my grandpa...</div><div>it's my ultimate aim...</div><div>i want to bring my grandpa to my grad ceremony...</div><div>and let him see....</div><div>no matter what, i'll still work hard...</div><div>i'll make sure every single thing that i need to do is done...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>many things have changed...</div><div>some ppl that are close seems not that close any longer...</div><div>ppl used to be that close because of some reasons, you'll get closer to them...</div><div>is not wad "最佳女主角" but because of what we went through together and become more honest to each other..</div><div>there are times maybe i hate them or even dislike the way they do their own stuff...</div><div>but, it's them because they don't want to act like some one other people like...</div><div>on the other hand, ppl who are close to you may be the very next person to backstab or harm you.</div><div>when you found out the truth, you'll no longer understand and don't know who to trust...</div><div>it may sound ridiculous. </div><div>however, that's how i feel...</div><div>when i don't know who to trust, i turn to the ppl who i don't really like.</div><div>it's not being fake or what, because deep down inside me....</div><div>i know, they won't lie to me.</div><div>maybe, someday you'll understand...</div><div>but i hope you wun understand, because you've to go through what i've went through.</div><div>it's not a gd learning process...</div><div>maybe is a escape to turn to them, but at least, i feel better.</div><div>and when it's time for me to solve the problem, i'll have to courage and energy to solve it.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1806608787941720310?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-74701809400187143692010-07-31T23:55:00.002+08:002010-08-09T19:58:35.772+08:00lost dairy chpt 368:<div><br /></div><div>well~</div><div>i've ended my attachment already...</div><div>*a round of applause"</div><div>time flies, really flies.</div><div><br /></div><div>within these few months, i really thinks that i've change alot.</div><div>maybe because i've been with erza and wardah too long le...</div><div>haha...too many crazy stuff happen...</div><div>too many things that i have to really let it go...</div><div>too many things for me to handle.</div><div>yup...the place where i go is much better to others.</div><div>but, the people there, to say it in a bad way are all cynical. </div><div>everybody is wrong only they are right.</div><div>most of them will have this kind of thinking and they will want you to go with their own way.</div><div>there's no other choice for you. cause you're just a intern.</div><div>well, that's something that i accept and i shall not give any complaints.</div><div>because, when u work at one place so long that, you'll think that nobody knows as well as you do.</div><div>so, yuppp...</div><div><br /></div><div>everything change. and i really really accept for who they are.</div><div>i may have complaints, but, soon after that, i'll just cont to work what i've asked to do.</div><div><br /></div><div>gordon teached me one thing" i cant give in to everyone but as long as i think that it's alright and i can still do it, den it's fine. if it's too hard for me, i shall say no"</div><div><br /></div><div>i know that everyone around me change too.</div><div>i wanted to close my ears and eyes to ignore this fact.</div><div>however, the more i don't want to see it, the more it appear in front of me...</div><div><br /></div><div>everyone is immature and mature in their own ways.</div><div>what we can do is to accept the immature side of theirs and to talk to the mature side of theirs.</div><div>if you cant accept any side of it, it's very difficult to maintain the friendship.</div><div>human beings are just so funny.</div><div>they just wanted everyone in the world to accomodate them, and forgotten how to accomodate each other to maintain the relationship.</div><div><br /></div><div>had my last day of internship in a happy and angry manner.</div><div>happy because treated the guys eat and played some stupid stuff with erza and wardah.</div><div>sort of quickly ended the game at around 12plus after matthew interrupted our game.</div><div>haha...</div><div>angry...i really cant stand that stupid fellow that thinks that he's so damn smart.</div><div>HAVE SOME COMMON SENSE!!!</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7470180940018714369?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-89021481979418891382010-07-07T21:04:00.003+08:002010-07-07T21:26:19.728+08:00lost dairy chpt 367:<br /><br />well~<br />it's world cup fever, and is super busy...<br />okay...the busy have no link with world cup...<br />just wanted to highlight that, it world cup season yea?<br /><br />well, things have changed.<br />during the attachment, i've changed.<br />i start to put my family in front of everything, influence by the guys in suntec??<br />well, i'm not sure, but all i want now is to be with my family.<br />especailly my grandpa.<br /><br />just now after work went to my grandpa house.<br />when i sit down beside him, he asked me this" you want to look at the pics you've taken when you're young?"<br />i thought, that's what he wants to do at that very moment, so my grandpa and i sat down at one corner, looking through the pictures. he told me that his eyes could no longer see who is inside the picture anymore.<br />i went through every single picture and told him who's inside the picture.<br />joking with him and tell him what i remember about the picture.<br />while talking to him, there's alot came into my mind.<br />relationship.<br />we, cousins, used to be so good. we took pictures together, play together.<br />now, when we grown up, we seldom speaks. and at that moment, i know my grandpa wanted to see the bond we used to have last time. he keep on asking me to look for the picture whereby me and bro took together. but, i cant find the picture.<br /><br />pictures are indication that you've once lived.<br />the happy moments.<br />looking at the old pictures, i wanted to buy a DSLR so badly.<br />so that i can take picture during every gathering and make every event a memory.<br />however, to think of it, i don't know if it's really okay to buy a DSLR cam.<br /><br /><img alt="http://www.bb.ustc.edu.cn/ocw/NR/rdonlyres/Global/1/113CCDFF-A22E-4179-A71B-228754EFF241/0/chp_pen_film1.jpg" src="http://www.bb.ustc.edu.cn/ocw/NR/rdonlyres/Global/1/113CCDFF-A22E-4179-A71B-228754EFF241/0/chp_pen_film1.jpg" /><br /><br />started to miss my friends and classmates.<br />although internship is going to be over.<br />but, i know everything will be different.<br />frec and ronney is no longer in our class.<br />everything will be different.<br />frec will not be there keep on disturbing me and tell me which korean band is gd.<br />ronney will not be there for me to disturb whenever he needs something from me.<br />the 2 will not be there to share the laughs with us during lesson time or when we are out.<br />maybe that's the reason why i started to miss them.<br />cause after internship, once everything back to 'normal'.<br />it is no longer normal anymore.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/TDR_pc3bn_I/AAAAAAAAB1A/PuOh8PcxSaE/s1600/P1011396.JPG"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/TDR_pc3bn_I/AAAAAAAAB1A/PuOh8PcxSaE/s320/P1011396.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491154195771531250" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8902148197941889138?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-54969830534556857862010-06-08T22:59:00.003+08:002010-06-08T23:03:18.777+08:00lost dairy chpt 366:<br /><br />Last sunday is the only wedding that i love in pearl river after doing thrice. Why??because of the smile that's on the bride's face. I'm actually smiling while i'm doing the show. And i love their wedding pics. Maybe it's how the photographer portray everything. The previous 2 wedding don't give me any blissful feelings. however, this time round, the way the photographer took the smile on the newlyweds, is really very beautiful.<br /><br />have so many things wanted to say...<br />but i have to idea how to start...<br />so...forget it bah...<br />cause you know what i'm talking if we're close..<br />so...you know...=D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5496983053455685786?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-14463839453378543832010-05-16T23:12:00.002+08:002010-05-16T23:34:19.072+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 365:<br /><br />HOHOHO!!!<br />hey guys!!!<br />anyone miss me???<br />haha...being siao again...<br />jsut try to ignore....<br />HAHA....<br /><br />have been very very very very busy this few weeks...<br />didn't really have enough time to rest...<br />have only less den 3day rest the past few weeks...<br />well..<br />i know is bad for health...<br />but, because of my blur and everything bad inside me...<br />i cant stop myself for doing all those work...<br />if not, i'll get slower, slower and slower...<br /><br />okay...so...<br />first of all...<br />i'm so sorry to lee cheng teck, grace and matt...haha..<br />i keep on pushing back the dates that we've agreed on...<br />i'm really very sorry...<br /><br />secondly...<br />sorry to kitty, gl,lwc,nelson,yan sinee...<br />i really cant meet up with you guys...<br />is either i'm not free and some one else is not free...<br />i'm so sorry abt it..<br /><br />thirdly...<br />sorry to all the ppl who are tolerating my slow and blur during work...<br />i'm really sorry...<br />i'll try my very best to catch up...<br /><br />lastly...<br />of course...<br />i'm sorry to my family...<br />they always wait till i reach home den they'll go and sleep...<br />i'm sorry to return home so late...<br />and also i didn't manage to go for the family gathering because of work...<br />i'm really very sorry...<br /><br />i'll find time..really...<br /><br />AND!!!<br />wad's wrong with the uncles now a days???<br />if you guys thinks that you are so good at what i'm doing...<br />i'm okay to throw you everything and let you set, let you troubleshoot...<br />if you can do it...<br />i'l cmf give u a round of applause...<br /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1446383945337854383?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-43665352409521808702010-04-14T13:35:00.002+08:002010-04-14T13:42:00.139+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 364:<br /><br />well~~<br />have been busy doing attachment...<br />counting down to 4 more months...<br />seriously, i'm suffocating...<br /><br />today is OFF DAY!!!<br />haha..so, i had a very gd rest, cause yesterday work till super duper late....<br />okay, is not really very late...<br />just around 9 plus...<br />the journey back home is fun...<br />haha...<br /><br />attachment made my life super busy...<br />didn't really have time to keep track my friends birthday..<br />but, i still manage to wish wc after 12midnight the next day...haha...<br />confuse???nvm...<br />dun need to understand...<br /><br />tmr is going to celebrate ct's birthday...<br />haha...i feel so sorry to wc...<br />didn't celebrate his bd and didn't give him any PRESENT!!<br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4366535240952180870?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-48258754034959448232010-03-27T14:45:00.002+08:002010-03-27T14:53:13.816+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 363:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmmm...welll...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it's going to end my 2nd week of attachment...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">getting used to everything here...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and...it seems that everything is getting better...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just stay like this..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i won't ask for more...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">job ends at ard 1145 the past 2 days.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...how to say??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is quite 'fun'...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">well...everywhere gt ghost stories right??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so...just let it be...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just like wad danny say, if our conscience is clear...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">there's nth to be afraid of...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so i went to set up a room alone at 11plus..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the roon is super quiet...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den i though noor will come in and check if i've set up correctly...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">although is only just 2 4-way...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt i just sit there and wait for him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den i gt a miss call...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">from duno where...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt i guess is from av7...so i called erza...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...i'm so smart!!haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt the dumb thing is that..noor didn't say he will come and check...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so ps...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so..i went back and realise everyone is waiting for me to close the door...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAHA...omg....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i so dumb...LOL...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">well~</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">next few days will be damn busy...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so, wish me luck...=)</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and...i miss everyone!!!</span><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4825875403495944823?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-67474696565118206122010-03-09T12:28:00.002+08:002010-03-09T12:44:22.751+08:00<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:130%;" >lost dairy chpt 362:<br /><br />hmm...<br />yesterday went back to school for internship briefing...<br />saw pearlyn at co-op...<br />haha...she reminded me wad stupid stuffs we've done in pri sch...<br />haha...weird right??<br />i seldom talk abt my pri sch life...<br />hmmm...wad to say...<br />is not tt i'm not close with them, i still keep in contact with some people..<br />but, as u guys know, there's some people that i'll never want to contact anymore...<br />first, maybe they don't even remember ur presence..<br />secondly, it's pri sch!!!everyone have their own childish act...<br />and sometimes, hurt ppl not knowing it...<br />i've hurt ppl and ppl have hurt me..<br />so, why bother stay contact right??<br />is just keep on reminding you abt wad wrongs u've did when u're childish...<br /><br />okay...<br />and thanks to FLO!!<br />feel like killing you..haha...<br />less den one more week of freedom...<br />there's nothing much to do...<br />just that i'll miss my classmates...which we'll be parted for 5/6mths...<br />and of course ronney tan!!!haha....will not be seeing him for one year...<br />but at least before you going to california, must contact us...<br />haha...we can give u a list of wad we want you to buy back!!!!<br />HAHA!!!no la...kidding la...<br />just meet up=)<br />cause after that, you'll be going for ur internship...<br />so...dun miss us too much...<br />haha...omg...i sound like flo...cannot cannot!!<br />LOL....<br /><br />haha...yea..let's get back to the internship briefing...<br />haha...i tink..most of us go back just to meet up and chat...<br />sometimes i really pity doc wang...<br />haha...whenever he talk, we never listen de...<br />i'm sorry...i'm one of them...=p<br />oh ya...<br />while ronney and naz going to the other class, soon heng join our class...<br />haha...he looks bored when we're talking...<br />haha...cause, he's not that close with our class ppl...only with gina...<br />haha...but shld be fun having him to join us...<br />haha....and...i guess he and gina and fight for being late...<br />LOL!!!see the 2 of them, who will win...haha...<br /><br /><img style="cursor: -moz-zoom-in; width: 338px; height: 250px;" alt="http://prophecyblur.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/01/DAY0036-Wish-Upon-a-Star.jpg" src="http://prophecyblur.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/01/DAY0036-Wish-Upon-a-Star.jpg" /><br />hope that everyone will be having fun...<br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6747469656511820612?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-18091322657823201912010-03-05T21:01:00.003+08:002010-03-05T21:15:19.309+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 361:<br /><br />haha...had a weird dream last night...<br />dreamt that a friend that i haven get in touch with came to look for me..<br />haha...den something weird happen...<br />haha...<br />which i cant rmb...<br />wad i rmb is the first word that came to my mind is weird...<br />but i cant rmb it...<br />LOL...<br />okay..i'm a weirdo~<br /><br />but, the weirdest thing happen...<br />last time, no matter wad he post on his facebook...will never ever be at my top hit..<br />haha...but the first top hit on my page is about him...<br />LOL...<br />weird right??<br />haha..<br /><br />haha...<br />duno why, maybe i'm getting older or wad...<br />i keep on thinking about the past...<br />LOL...<br />maybe it's the side effect of gossiping with kitty...<br />LOL...we're talking about many many things that happen for the sec life...<br />conclusion: our life is so drama<br />haha...<br />our drama is like ongoing kind...<br />one problem not solved, another come out...<br />LOL...<br />and maybe it's because of all this drama i have during sec life...<br />i find my poly life kinda boring...LOL<br />although there's still some childish act...<br />but is different...haha..<br />duno how to say..LOL..<br />i cant stop laughing and smiling when i read through all the entries i wrote on my dairy..<br /><br />what can i say???everything is gonna be different...<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1809132265782320191?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-30059782566342759632010-03-05T20:26:00.002+08:002010-03-05T20:48:05.041+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 360:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">之前读到一篇文章，</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">详细内容是记不清楚了。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">是一个关于“爱”的问题。</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">柏拉圖有一天問老師蘇格拉底什麼是愛情？</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">蘇格拉底叫他到麥田走一次，要不回頭地走，</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">在途中要摘一棵最大最好的麥穗，但只可以摘一次。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">柏拉圖覺得很容易，充滿信心地出去，</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">誰知過了半天他仍沒有回去。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">最後，他垂頭喪氣出現在老師面前訴說空手而回的原因：</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">" 很難得看見一株看似不錯的，卻不知是不是最好，</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">不得已，因為只可以摘一次，只好放棄，再看看有沒有更好的，</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">到發現已經走到盡頭時，才發覺手上一棵麥穗也沒有。 "</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;">這時，蘇格拉底告訴他： "那就是愛情"</span><br /><br /></span><img src="http://pic.nipic.com/2007-12-25/200712252117392_2.jpg" alt="麦穗" title="麦穗" onclick="MM_showHideLayers('Layer1','','show')" onload="DrawImage(this);" style="width: 296px; height: 377px;" border="0" /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">但，如果在摘下那一棵眼前最好时，</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">伤害到自己， 值得吗？</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">你们不觉得人生很矛盾吗？</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">有人为了能够拥有爱情，不惜任何代价都要爱</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: georgia;"></span><span style="font-family: georgia;">即使自己已经受伤。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">也有人，为了保护自己，而不想去爱。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">这两种人都没错。。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">前者不想错过眼前的最爱，没有错。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">毕竟人都时自我保护高的动物。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">所以，后者也没错。</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">很多人都时凭着冲动去做事，</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">但，很多事后，冷静或许才能解决问题。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">我们必须，冷静的想， 我们到底要的是什么。。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">明白吗？</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3005978256634275963?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-31821008444016944982010-03-01T19:33:00.002+08:002010-03-01T19:46:02.533+08:00<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:130%;" >lost dairy chpt 359:<br /><br />hmm...<br />finally finish my paper le...<br />haha..last tue finish my last paper...<br />haha...den went out for celebration with gina,flo,hx,ronney and js...<br />haha...going for attachment le..<br />means, wun be seeing them for 6mths...<br />hmmm...gonna miss them...<br />and ronney!!!!<br />wun be the same class anymore...<br />gonna miss him and his spongebob pencil case...<br />haha...and miss js calling him stupid boy!!!LOL...<br /><br />not a great week afterall...<br />my back pain like hell...<br />haiz...<br />idiot...haiz...<br /><br />tmr going to sign contract...<br />hmmm..sometimes i wonder, am i really going to do wad i'm learning nw?<br />cause, it may seems interesting...<br />but, can this last??<br /><br />wanted to write lots of stuff...<br />but....duno where to start, so...<br />forget it...<br />anyway, nothing is gonna change...<br /><br /></span><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4823386&amp;id=760264224" id="myphotolink"><img style="width: 458px; height: 344px;" src="http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash1/hs444.ash1/24471_369977069224_760264224_4823385_2134155_n.jpg" id="myphoto" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3182100844401694498?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-34416870291856436052010-02-21T19:24:00.002+08:002010-02-21T19:41:27.650+08:00lost dairy chpt 358:<br /><br />phew...<br />em3a finally finish...<br />left with ATE....god bless me...<br /><br />i realise that i've really changed..<br />i've once discuss this with fiona...<br />she asked me why people change so much...<br />i cant tell her anything cause different ppl change for different reason...<br />so, i told her some of my past...<br />i told her that...facing different kind of people, my attitude varies...<br />facing my primary school friends...i stay very quiet because wad happen in pri6...<br />facing my sec2 friends, is very different when i hang around with my sec4 friends...<br />cause we've gone through many many different things which brings us somewhere closer to each other...<br />facing my poly friends...hmmm...<br />probably most of them thinks that i'm a crazy person??who knows??<br />haha...we've never really sit down and talk about it...HAHA...<br />although attitude is different, but is still me...<br />cause as we gone through different hardship together...<br />sometimes we can really play crazily or we can even scream at each other but deep inside, we know that we're not angry with each other...<br /><br />but the problem i'm having now is...<br />am i the one that you're talking abt??<br />haha...<br />things are different now...<br />we're in different social circles...<br />maybe i've change, bt facing you, i'm just the person that you'll never trust again...<br />maybe you've changed, facing me, you're still the person that....<br /><br />if only i still understand you as well as the past...<br /><br />haha...this post is not for one person only...<br />there's so many changes in my life...<br />partly is my fault...<br />choosing to escape from the reality...<br />choosing to study at NP...<br />cause it's the furthest i can go..since i cant go overseas to study...<br /><br />people who i've told before should know...<br />there's too much things for me to face in the past...<br />for that very moment...<br />i wanted everyone to get out of my life...<br />but slowly, as time goes by,<br />i really don't care that much anymore...<br />i just want to enjoy my life with the people that i want to enjoy...<br />it's only when there's no choice den i'll choose to see those people that i don't want to face...<br />the past, maybe it's something that i would never want to talk about...<br />cause i no longer know whose fault it is...<br />with no one to blame, i can only blame myself for everything...<br /><br /><img style="width: 294px; height: 217px;" src="http://webpages.scu.edu/ftp/kmarume/images/blame.jpg" /><br /><br />or maybe is no one fault??<br />haha...who knows??<br />maybe as time goes by, i'll get my own answer...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3441687029185643605?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-58588255549199133282010-02-11T20:54:00.002+08:002010-02-11T21:07:07.208+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 357:<br /><br />there's no class today!!!!<br />haha....actually was so damn happy dun need to leave hse..<br />can slack at home the whole day...<br />however, i gt a very cute mum and sis...<br />they manage to drag me out of home to go buy new year goods...<br /><br />bought my chu yi dress...FINALLY!!!<br />haha...<br />den bought many many stuff...<br />my hand is so pain!!!<br />haha...<br />oh ya...when we're on our way walking out of tm...saw 2 person waving to me...<br />trust me...i'm so damn tired that i didn't react instantly...<br />haha...den i was like..OH HI!!! after a few seconds...<br />haha...i saw grace and her bf...<br />so happy to see her!!!<br />haha...although just saw her 2wks ago...<br />LOL...i'm happy to see her being happy too....<br />P.S.:gal...stay happy=))<br />dun get upset abt some stuff....<br />anything can talk to me=))<br />i'm always there for you...<br />opps..i should not steal this job from ur bf...<br />HAHA!!!<br />just stay happy as you can when e person u love is beside you...;)<br /><br />oh ya...<br />everyone has been talking abt attachment...<br />since yr2 is ending...=(<br />quite saddening...<br />tmr going for interview in suntec...<br />bt..somehow...i'm nt tt happy...<br />cause my friends are not with me...<br />we're gonna seperate for half a months...=(<br />and...there's this guy...i duno if he's lucky or wad...<br />he got a chance to go California 2wks during june....<br />bt..if he choose to go California, he's gonna go to another class...<br />so the whole year2 we'll not be seeing each other...<br />hmmm...that guy is RONNEY TAN AKA STUPID BOY(that's wad js and marcus call him...haha...since he call me ppl i call him stupid boy..=p)<br /><br />hmmm...is a good chance like wad fiona said...<br />bt...we'll gonna miss him...haha...<br />so...we decided to go out after our last paper...<br />haha...gao bie wan can...haha...<br /><br /><br />anyway...it's a busy month...<br />test,quiz,prac test,presentation...<br />some more CNY is ard the corner...<br />so....<br />TAKE GOOD CARE!!!DON'T FALL SICK EASILY WOR!!!!<br />haha...<br /><img alt="http://hipmountainmamablog.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/12/three-bird-smiley-face.jpg" src="http://hipmountainmamablog.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/12/three-bird-smiley-face.jpg" /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5858825554919913328?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-35664883629033505202010-02-09T21:34:00.002+08:002010-02-09T21:54:15.276+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 356:<br /><br />phew~!!<br />finally finish my MMP presentation and PCN mini proj...<br />pcn really kill my brain cell...<br />kana stuck for super long...<br />haha...<br /><br />luckily finish with the help by Nelson=) and fahmi...<br />haha....<br />i'm so tired!!!<br />haha<br /><br />last sun was yan's concert...<br />haha...den kitty and i was talking abt the handsome guy siting infront of the instructor...<br />haha...<br />left during the interval cause need to go back to school...<br />after tt....<br />went to eat with them...<br />OMG!!!<br />i'm super suai...<br />when we're walking towards the busstop..<br />my slippers broke!!!=(<br />so sad!!!<br /><br />so,after eating<br />gina accompanied me to go ard the 7-11 and cheers to find slippers...<br />thank you gina!!!<br />haha...and she'd good enough to let me wear her slippers..haha<br />den she walk without her slippers...<br />i'm so sorry!!!<br /><br />den went back school to do some work...<br />haha..<br />when we started doing..victor came in...den we chatted for "a" while den cont with our work...<br />haha!!!the guys started to play PSP using the projector screen in the studio...<br />guys are crazy when it comes to soccer...<br />haha...<br />den while gina and i doing work seiously in the recording room<br />js is sleeping at one corner...<br />and the other guys are playing soccer...haha<br />gina say "this is demorialising"...haha...<br />so, while waiting for the next day to come, we didn't sleep..<br />we watch MOVIE!!!<br />to be more detail, is a HORROR MOVIE!!!<br /><br />starting of the movie is ok...<br />den i realise i leaning myself towards the screen den slowly close my eyes with my hands...<br />haha...watching horror movie with my class guys is so damn funny!!!<br />there's shout,laughs and teasing!!<br />LOL...<br />oh..not to mention...that's my 2nd movie tt i watch inside the studio...<br />the 1st movie is "case 39" on friday!!!=D<br /><br />haha...when it's early in the morning, every left except gina,victor,marcus and me...<br />haha<br />we played card games to kill time...<br />HAHA!!!<br />so funny...<br /><br />went home ard 11...<br />so tired after tonning the whole night...<br />haha...<br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">那天，没办法睡的原因是因为想起了你。。。<br />有时候，觉得自己好容易被你骗。。<br />是因为太相信你了吗？<br />以前的你，曾经答应过我。。<br />但，现在，全都忘了。。<br />到我再次的提醒你时，<br />你才恍然大悟。。<br />忙着说对不起和解释给我听。。。<br />我那个时候，也选着相信你。。<br />但，现在，我已经找不回那种信任了。。</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3566488362903350520?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-70843992729782714972010-02-02T21:54:00.000+08:002010-02-02T21:55:12.054+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 355:<br /><br /><img style="width: 277px; height: 185px;" src="http://www.t135.com/upload/article/pic/0901/200792812202260977801.jpg" id="imgb" /><br /><br />cindy is flying to hk nw...<br />many things happen when she come back...<br />some may thinks that, it has been so long...<br />why bother to rack up the past??<br />i understand that point very well...<br />and i understand cindy well too...<br />if she's not gonna get the ans she wants...<br />she'll not be happy...<br />tt's not wad i want to see...<br />seeing my best friend getting sad over this thing...<br /><br /><img src="http://image.songtaste.com/images/upload/multipic1/12195880411.gif" id="imgb" height="300" width="300" /><br /><br />the past few days...<br />i realize something...<br />everyone changed...<br />matt have become more mature...<br />haha...which cindy disagree when she first saw matt...<br />but i really must say...<br />matt change alot...<br />indeed...NS can change alot of ppl...<br />HAHA!!!<br />although he's still very irritating...<br />i can feel his warmth that night..<br />making sure that cindy get's back to her hotel safely...<br />haha...should see how concern he is...<br />when cindy and i still strolling behind him..<br />he quickly go rush and hail a cab for cindy...<br />HAHA...maybe he's in a rush or wad i dunno la..<br />bt...if it's the matt that i know 4 yrs ago, he'll definately not going to do that...<br />if he's in a rush, he'll just leave...<br />steal wad cindy say to ct..."i'm so proud of you...matt...=D"<br />and i really must sat that...<br />the gathering is damn awkward...<br />HAHA!!!keep on joking around...try not to be so awkward...<br />haha...why awkward??<br />cause it's been 2 yrs...<br />some more...azillah, shazana,grace and ct not around...<br />omg...the whole gathering i just keep on talking to matt,cindy and james...<br />haha...cause they are nearer to me...=p<br /><br /><img src="http://www.ntu-bbs.com/home/attachment/200905/17/12548_1242549751E44E.jpg" id="imgb" height="400" width="280" /><br /><br /><br />cindy ask me "what's the different with you n him?"<br />the only different is that, i rather choose to stay silence...<br />may be he's just being brave to voice out...<br />but i just don't like it...<br />cause it does not make the situation better...<br />so...wad's the point??<br />anyway...<br />although it's a terrible month...<br />being able to see cindy again...<br />it's not that bad afterall...<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=3177303&amp;id=512253445" id="myphotolink"><img src="http://photos-b.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc3/hs142.snc3/16976_281745533445_512253445_3350196_6890830_n.jpg" id="myphoto" height="265" width="356" /></a><br />ct,cindy and me=D<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:78%;">shit!!!i did it again!</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7084399272978271497?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-77170094542501673792010-01-26T17:11:00.002+08:002010-01-26T17:21:31.216+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 354:<br /><br /><br /></span><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><img style="cursor: -moz-zoom-in; width: 352px; height: 254px;" alt="http://mehreenkasana.files.wordpress.com/2009/11/angela_bacon-kidwell_untitled2_big.jpg" src="http://mehreenkasana.files.wordpress.com/2009/11/angela_bacon-kidwell_untitled2_big.jpg" /><br /></span></div><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />seriously...<br />i'm going crazy...<br />yesterday night when i was waken up by my mum's ringtone...<br />the first thing that comes to my mind is not to pick up that phone...<br />the first thing that comes to my mind is melodyne...<br />shit man...<br />all my mind is abt MMP...<br /><br />didn't really have enough sleep today...<br />haha...<br />slept for ard 2hr or less den 3hr??<br />e first thing when lx step into the class and saw me is "wha,wad time u sleep yst?"<br />i'm so freaking tired...<br /><br />and....i saw kwang hui on bus today...<br />stupid kwang hui keep on commenting on my hair...<br />idiot...<br />is like only 4 bus stop and 85% is talking abt my short hair...<br />thanks ar...<br /><br />anyway...<br />no matter how hard i tried...<br />i just cant change certain things...<br /><br /></span><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><img alt="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_kWjkArInkWk/SD56htcBLKI/AAAAAAAAAjE/r9RbzdzjA04/s320/Image048(1).jpg" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_kWjkArInkWk/SD56htcBLKI/AAAAAAAAAjE/r9RbzdzjA04/s320/Image048%281%29.jpg" /><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:78%;">trying to reach out for the sky....</span><br /></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7717009454250167379?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-10447798238166962522010-01-22T16:59:00.002+08:002010-01-22T17:04:29.829+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 353:<br /><br /><br />phew...<br />i'm so screwed!!!<br />yesterday stayed in school for mixing till 10.40...<br />haiz...so tired...<br />den morning 7.50 reach school to do the mixing again...<br /><br />sometimes i wonder...<br />wad's so good abt our course??<br />need to do so many stuffs..<br />and sometimes...<br />u'll get played by the com...<br /><br />haiz...<br />ok..i should stop complaining...<br />cause victor and fahmi they all stayed till 12...<br />den nw..they are still in school doing the mixing...<br />why am i at home??<br />haha..cause gt piano lesson...=(<br />i rather stayed in school...<br /><br />so...i'm not the ke lian one...haha...<br />looking on the bright side...<br />although mixing is tiring..<br />but there's alot of fun stuffs during the process....<br />so funny that i cant stop laughing...<br />HAHA!!!<br /><br />counting down to...<br />1 week...=D<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1044779823816696252?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-42758911792370649392010-01-19T21:32:00.002+08:002010-01-19T21:45:09.087+08:00lost dairy chpt 352:<br /><br />life seriously sucks...<br />homeworks...<br />projects...<br />problems..<br />targets...<br />future...<br />all sucks till the core....<br /><br />guess wad??<br />the more i want to hold my temper...<br />the more i cant control it...<br /><br />the more i want to get rid of it...<br />the more it stick to my mind and wont let it go...<br /><br />the more i want to act like everything will be fine..<br />the more things pop up and messing up my life...<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><img alt="http://www.com128.com/face/com128%2F67%2F%B1%A6%B1%B4%CC%BE%C6%F8.jpg" src="http://www.com128.com/face/com128%2F67%2F%B1%A6%B1%B4%CC%BE%C6%F8.jpg" /><br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" title="点击试听" href="http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/349809ht.htm" target="haotingmusiclisten" onclick="cc();" class="gqtj">原谅我就是这样的女生</a><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" ><strong>-</strong><a style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" href="http://www.haoting.com/special/msp_453.htm">戴佩妮</a></span><br /><br />我不够认份所以怕再为谁作出牺牲<br />爱要有天份所以我始终学不会放任<br />我不够天真不允许我傻傻的等<br />对自己残忍多残忍我要有分寸<br /><br />我太过认真所以才相信所谓的永恒<br />爱让人恍神所以止不住不小心沉沦<br />我太负责任不允许有太多悔恨<br />对自己坦诚多坦诚我自有分寸<br />我只是无辜的人很需要叹气声<br />有一些文字的吻只留给伤过的人<br />明知道有些问题没有答案还是要问<br />原谅我因为我就是这样的女生</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4275891179237064939?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-39410584089179546282010-01-19T18:49:00.002+08:002010-01-19T19:12:30.697+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 351:<br /><br /><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; width: 295px; height: 343px;" alt="" src="http://118.img.pp.sohu.com/images/blog/2007/9/2/15/22/1155f421aeb.jpg" border="0" /><br />haiz...<br />why am i like this???<br />seriously..i hate this sem...<br />making me stress up with so many things..<br />cant things come out one by one bt nt in one go?<br /><br />wanted to hack so much...<br />bt den...part of me is like telling me that...<br />i cant be irresponsible like them...<br />so...i'm trying very hard to work for wad i'm suppose to do...<br />bt...seems that...<br />no matter how hard you try...<br />nothings gonna change the situation...<br />because the people are not changing...<br />i agree that most of the times, i don't know wad i want...<br />cause...i always go with my feeling...<br />hence, you may listen to 2 sides of the story...<br />bt...it dosen't mean that i'm saying a big fat lie...<br />i just say wad i feel at that very moment...<br /><br />trust me...<br />some people is just not gonna change...<br />but...i really hope that someone will change....for good....<br /><br />the only thing that i'm looking forward to is next week...<br />please....<br />don't pop up any nonsense next week...<br />i'm so going to enjoy myself next week...<br />don't spoil my mood...<br />ok...mood is already spoiled...<br />just don't give any more nonsense...<br /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3941058408917954628?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-20958635729675447342010-01-15T20:55:00.002+08:002010-01-15T21:03:42.279+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 350:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm nw a stretch rubber band...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">nt enough sleep...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cant catch up with my school work...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">duno how to do my stupid MMP and PCN project...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everything is pilling up...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i cant handle my own problem..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yet still need to worry for others...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ice cream cant help anymore...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">all i do is...hai...hia...hai...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i cant control myself anymore...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">this sem is terrible...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i duno how am i going to survive through everything...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">wad i want nw is to find a way to relax...MY MIND!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun need to care anything...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun need to do anything...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">duno why...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i really have the urge of giving up...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">these is bringing me to nowhere...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what i want to do now...is to escape...<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">is too tiring to live like this...</span></span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2095863572967544734?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-53737369143889801842010-01-07T20:59:00.003+08:002010-01-15T20:55:43.570+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 349:<br /><br />haha...today so many funny stuffs happen..LOL<br /><br />1st:<br />today went to lib to watch movie for the 3hr break...HAHA!!<br />the 2 guys sitting horizontally beside us is watching a horror film...<br />i'm some how attracted to one of the scene...<br />den i ask gina to look...haha...<br />den the very next moment...i laugh out...<br />guess wad???<br />HAHA...one of the guy is so afraid that he use his hp to block his view!!haha...<br />den the other guy sitting very far...trying to act cool by putting his hand infront of his face!!!<br />omg....so damn funny la that scene...<br />gina and i cant stop laughing...<br />although the movie that we're suppose to concentrate and watch is a sad film...HAHA...<br />omg...i still cant stop laughing whenever i recall that scene..<br />and they did more than one time!!!<br /><br />2nd:<br />was on my way back home today...<br />den suddenly receive ct's call...<br />ask me wanna watch 'fourth child' with him and his friends...<br />den he told me to watch cause his friends wanna book couple seat..<br />den he's the odd one out...haha<br />ask me to accompany him..LOL!!!<br />he dun wan to ask his class girl cause of some reason...<br />i was laughing like hell in the bus...haha...<br />so damn funny...<br />actually wanna go with him...<br />bt den..his lesson ends at 6 and they want to watch at AMK...<br />hello~...<br />my lesson ends at 12 and i live in the east side...<br />HAHA!!!<br />who wants to go AMK at the late evening??<br />LOL...<br /><br />and...i'm really super tired...i wanna go sleep le...<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5373736914388980184?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-83692332126796421292010-01-06T21:46:00.002+08:002010-01-06T22:03:22.470+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 348:<br /><br />haiz...<br />i'm so tired...<br />i duno why...<br />seems that i'm getting v tired nw adays...<br />haiz...<br />anyway...<br />finally the first week is going to over le...<br />and nw...just have to wait for the end of this month=)<br /><br />did i mention that my new house here...<br />the ge yin nt very gd...<br />haha....<br />den last month during christmas...i can hear my neighbour practicing his christmas carol...<br />damn funny...<br />den nw...<br />i tink he might be thinking that i'm a rocker!!!<br />haha...<br />cz this few days i keep on repeating listening to xiao gui and zhang zhen yue's song!!!<br />haha...<br /><br />ok...i just wanna blog abt smth...haha<br />cz...i still cant solve my stupid em3a using sn...<br />shit...dateline is this coming fri..<br /><br />I WANNA WATCH BREAKOUT!!!<br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8369233212679642129?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-72300779755094652212010-01-04T17:46:00.002+08:002010-01-04T17:56:08.183+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 347:<br /><br />haha...was reading wc's blog just nw...<br />thanks ar...<br />bt..i dun tink dec babies love to live in their own world...<br />haha...maybe e problem just lies on me and ur friends...haha!!!<br />and...a<br />i'll try to remind you everything when we're 26...<br />bt...hmm..somehow...i tink that i'll be reminding u everytime we meet each other!<br />haha....dun nd to wait till 26...<br />HAHA...<br />anyway....cheer up yea??<br />just like wad i said in my previous post...<br />you'll need only a few best friends...<br />so...dun b too sad...<br />those who make u sad...just treat them as passerby A and B!!!<br /><br />haha...i'm going to smash my laptop...<br />cause of the stupid EM3A qn....<br />freaking difficult...<br />still need to use SN to solve it...<br />hate it men....<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">AND!!!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">AVT PHOTO EXHITIBTION!!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">6th Jan-19th Jan!!!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">do drop down to NP library if you guys are free=D</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">there will be photos taken by me and of course my classmates!!!!</span><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7230077975509465221?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-78827621385065581512009-12-31T16:51:00.003+08:002009-12-31T16:58:35.005+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 346:<br /><br />got this feeling suddenly...<br />reading through friends blog...<br />i'm so happy for them when i see that they're living well...<br />with their love ones..<br />bt..when i read that...friends are disappointed or sad with stuffs...<br />somehow...<br />i feel so sad...for them or wad??i have no idea...<br />maybe i know how it feels bah...<br />is just nt a good feeling...<br />no matter is abt death or wad...<br />haiz...<br />gan chu liang duo...<br />an it's the last day of 2009..<br />somehow...<br />i miss my secondary school life...<br />whereby everyone is together...<br />playing...<br />cracking jokes...<br />sayingsome sarcastic stuffs to each other...<br />standing outside the corridor...<br />bt nw..<br />is so difficult to meet everyone up...<br />haha...<br />and slowly...time drifts us apart...<br />so...at this very day...the last day of 2009...<br />catch up with ur friends...<br />dun let time drift you guys apart..xD<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7882762138506558151?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-823967703800103542009-12-31T15:51:00.002+08:002009-12-31T16:10:55.708+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 345:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">have been busy this holiday...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">finish my recording project..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">meet up with some friends..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">help up with some exhitbition stuff...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...actually is really very little...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..cause really very busy...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">grandpa is admitted into hospital again..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so..have to go hospital everyday to accompany him...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">actually...during this holiday...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i've realize something...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">there are some people that i'll hate forever...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt..there's still people that i'm still able to forgive...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">thanks to someone...haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that person enlighten me some stuffs that i've totally forgotten...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">forgive and forget...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's what i use to say and i've now forgotten how to do it....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">from now on...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'll try my very best to be the person that i used to be...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">forget wad ppl do to me...forgive them...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and..that's wad i'm doing now...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">trying my best to amend the friendship...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everyone's perspective is different...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i cant change anyone's thinking...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the only thing that i can change is myself...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe some ppl may think tt i'm different nw..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt the only different i want ppl to think is that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm better than who i was...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no matter is 6yrs ago or even this few months...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everyone change due to certain things...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt i'm still a friend that will support wad ever decision u make...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's wad friends are for...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">my dad used to tell me this "friends you can have as many as you want, but true friends you'll only need a few...a few that understands u well..know wad to do when u're down...and will always be there for you"</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i've always think that this sentence is redundant...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt nw...i really agree with it...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no matter how many friends you have in ur phonebook,facebook or friendster...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">if there's no1 you can talk to or no1 to be there with you when u needed someone to be there...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den...everything is just fake...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is just a show to let ppl know that u're living well...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">you got alot of 'friends'</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so wad?!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is there anyone that is really there for you??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">think properly...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so going to get out of this game...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is useless and childish...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">you want play??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">play all you want...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm not going to tag along anymore...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause i dun hate you anymore...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and i dun need to prove anything to you anymore...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-82396770380010354?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-86309894323545632572009-12-20T21:00:00.003+08:002009-12-20T21:18:59.084+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 344:<br /><br />i've cut my hair...HAHA!!!short....<br /><br />so sick n tired of the past...<br />since everything is getting new here..<br />so i might as well go and cut my hair...<br />haha...have a new start...=)<br /><br />know wad??<br />the feeling nw is...mixed...<br />i'm so happy that exams are over...<br />happy that is having break right nw..whereby i can relax and meet and catch up with some friends...<br />but i'm not that happy...<br />duno how to say...<br />is not abt the marks for my paper...<br />haiz....<br />just duno wad to say...<br />i'm so 'mixed' nw...<br />sad=(<br /><br />i'm so going to faint...<br />have a very bad feeling abt it...<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8630989432354563257?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-52789703317855472132009-12-09T20:08:00.002+08:002009-12-09T20:15:19.652+08:00lost dairy chpt 343:<br /><br />friends or family..<br />my sis everytime says that, i care for my friends more den i care for my family...<br />i cant deny it...it's true...<br /><br />but recently...<br />i realise that i'm wrong...<br />totally wrong..<br />friends can betray you...<br />friends can act one side infront of u...and another side behind ur back...<br />bt family wun...<br /><br />i know that i wrong..and wanted to change so badly...<br />trying very hard to change...<br />bt..it seems useless...<br />they didn't see anything...<br /><br />that moment...<br />i really don't know why should i stay here...<br />that moment...<br />i really want to leave...<br />bt where can i go??<br />go to that "place" that i've thought for so long??<br />everything is so useless...<br /><br />my life is such a failure...<br />the saddest part is that...<br />no matter how much you've helped others...<br />you cant find anyone there for you...<br />maybe it's my fault..<br />i cant really open my heart to everyone...<br />i'm seriously so lost right nw..<br />what i wanna do is just.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5278970331785547213?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-49736022040857382362009-12-08T18:59:00.003+08:002009-12-08T19:14:09.211+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 342:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i totally have no mood for tomorrow's test...thu and fri's test...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">totally have no interest..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">recently have been seeing flo asking herself wad she's going to do after poly...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">same qn stuck to my mind too...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">somehow...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i find that i'm nt suitable in this course..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it may be fun in other ppl's view...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt at least to me, i dun find it fun at all</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">learning things that are not interesting at all kills my brain cell..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">tmr there's this PC networking quiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">from the 1st week...i've nvr listen to wad the lecturer is talking abt...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">nw..looking at the notes...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i know i'm wrong..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i should have listen...=(</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">reading through my friends blog...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seems like everyone have their own trouble yea??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">mainly because of studies???</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha....</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">oh ya...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yesterday went out to with grace to celebrate my birthday...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it's fun..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">going round the duno wad hill...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">went to the duno wad hill to eat ben's and jerry ice cream...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yummy!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">before that we still went to eat mahattan fish market...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so sinful!!!eat too much...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and the HEARTLESS lct...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">nw i wherever i see curry...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it reminds me of him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">curry more impt than me...HAHA...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">you gd!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...anyway...going to meet up with matt tmr..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and...i guess i'll be late!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt who cares??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">he's always late...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and i'm always the one who waits for him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so..i dun care..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">must have my revenge before he go NS...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">lalalalalalalalalalal</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i dun wanna study PCN~~~~</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">和你一起走过最不快乐的时光的人，才是真正的朋友，。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">不管他有多讨人厌！</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">你还是会和他做永远的朋友。。＝）</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">最好的例子？</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">matthew tong...haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">虽然有时很讨人厌，但，永远会是我的朋友。。。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">亲爱的朋友们，我爱你！</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">但，我也学到， 那些没有真心和你交朋友的人。。</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">不要把他们看的太重！</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">不值得！</span><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4973602204085738236?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-1640223194929527242009-12-02T21:40:00.002+08:002009-12-02T22:24:54.775+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 341:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so depressed nw!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">shit...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so hate moving house so much!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">freak...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and...i'm sorry to misunderstand u...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">u're not blind at all...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt wad's e point of doing all these nw??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...e only thing tt i'm right is...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i dun understand u tt much as i though i am...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and, you dun understand me tt well too...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it's useless...<br />please dun do anything to disturb my life.. <br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-164022319492952724?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-31079654819017785272009-12-02T17:44:00.003+08:002009-12-02T18:05:14.237+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">lost dairy chpt 340:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">hehe=D</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">finally 18...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">like wad hjw say...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">i can do alot of things...haha!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">of course i must thanks all those who wish me happy birthday...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">THANKS=))</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">most of all...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">of course is my sis la...1st one to wish me...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha...den still pull my hair...-_-</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">den..i didn't expect nelson to wish me so 'early'..which is like midnight like tt...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha...cause his birthday i didn't wish him tt early...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">thanks you...haha...shall meet up to eat again...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">and....CINDY!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha...although she didn't called me...cause she fell asleep while waiting...haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt she still manage to msg me...haha...LOVE YOU!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">so funny...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">today the most unexpected wish is from khairul...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">he give me that 'innocent' look...den ask me today my birthday isit?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha....den i was stunt...den i say ya...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">den he smile and wish me happy birthday...HAHA....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">so funny...bt i appreciate it...haha..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">and lastly...fiona...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">thanks for helping me to tell everyone that today is my birthday...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">make me so ps...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha...bt i know she's hao xin...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">i appreciate it also...haha...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">sick and tests...cant go out and celebrate...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">18th birthday is nt fun at all...haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">study study...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">study till i die..haha..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">must get well soon...cause fri going out...=D</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">like wad i expected...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">although is expected,</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">although 'i' don't hope anything...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">but some part of me...wanted so badly...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">and maybe that's e reason for me being disappointed...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">you know the feeling??<br />hoping that u'll be there bt u never were....<br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">knowing that u know everything...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">yet, u did nt make any effort to do anything...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">i've known u for like 5yrs...and nth have change...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">sometimes, i regretted knowing you...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">i duno how to explain the feeling..</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">today, i've been asking myself the same question over and over again...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">and maybe..i just don't seem to understand you that well...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">can you don't understand me at all...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">somehow..i think that...e decision i've made..</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:78%;">maybe right...</span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="font-size:78%;">staying far away from you...maybe right too...<br />i just hope that..in the future...i dun have to see u again...<br />at least nt nw...i don't want to regret saying all these again...</span><br /></span></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3107965481901778527?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-26356563608165845062009-12-01T18:18:00.003+08:002009-12-01T18:32:49.413+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 389:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">phew..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">today's test..still okay~..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt my temper...hmmm...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">not that gd~...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...why??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">wad can i say??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">last time i still can tolerate all the stupid face and irritating comments...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt...today..i really feel like slapping him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun like me??i dun care...i also dun like you...BLEH!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...sounds childish...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt den...tt's wad my OS when i'm walking out of blk23 with gina...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">wondering who's tt stupid guy that make me angry??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">DUN TELL U...BLEH=P</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...omg...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm also very childish today...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">florence can prove it...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause today keep on di siao her...haha..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i have been wondering the same question for the past few months...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">to me, at least is still long...there's still hope...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i still can dream abt it...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt, this few weeks...i realise that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">nothing have change at all...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">all the hopes are just lies...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">all the dream that i dream about is just wishful thinking..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...so funny...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i told people not to lose faith and hope...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">nw...i blogging abt me losing my faith...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">or maybe it's because this 'faith' dosen't really exist in my life...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...at least not between us...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is not like having faith and hope...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">u'll know wad i'm thinking...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...u used to know...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt nt nw..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">whatever is the only word inside my brain...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ATE test tmr??whatever~</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">PCN test next week??WHATEVER~</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">MMP test next week??W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i dun really want to care anything nw...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">oh....or maybe u dun like me because u think tt i'm very...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmmm....wad's the word??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">K-P-O?!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">W-H-A-T-E-V-ER!!!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...today is really nt a gd day to me...AT ALL...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe to some body else too...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">DALALALALA...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">BLEH!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">counting down to.....58days...=)</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">at least there's something gd that i know will happen..</span><br /><br />maybe it's time to really forget the past..and try to accept ppl that u cant accept...<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2635656360816584506?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-35484159687697087992009-11-30T23:47:00.002+08:002009-11-30T23:56:43.551+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 388:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..i on mc today again...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sick sick sick...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so suai...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">there's test tmr and i'm blogging nw...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hahaha</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seriously...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">when you're sick..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">u seriously duno how to make yourself to study...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">you just want to sleep...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">S-L-E-E-P...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so hungry nw....=[</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i want to drink cold drinks!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i want eat fried food!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i want eat tidbits!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">=[</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hungry hungry hungry....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's the only thing i can think of nw...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">have no mood to think EM3A or ATE...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so many things happen...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but cant rmb anything...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and duno how to start writing...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">once again...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm brain dead again...</span><br /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3548415968769708799?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-53369491755458174202009-11-23T10:11:00.002+08:002009-11-23T10:18:36.421+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 387:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">now having POM...super boring....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..so long nvr post pic le...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">let me introduce you guys...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">AVT STUDIO!!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...this is where we recored our MMP project(music and music production)</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cool right~?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">let's have a tour...haha</span><br /><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv00tUhVI/AAAAAAAAB04/SWHeMaPuviU/s1600/15140_1257377230159_1101474137_30793715_451537_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv00tUhVI/AAAAAAAAB04/SWHeMaPuviU/s320/15140_1257377230159_1101474137_30793715_451537_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116518415959378" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the control room....</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv0jtlAAI/AAAAAAAAB0w/OkaKn6RLYlI/s1600/15140_1257377310161_1101474137_30793717_3042571_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv0jtlAAI/AAAAAAAAB0w/OkaKn6RLYlI/s320/15140_1257377310161_1101474137_30793717_3042571_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116513853636610" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the mixing board...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv0dih2NI/AAAAAAAAB0o/ujkB4lOTFKU/s1600/15140_1257377390163_1101474137_30793719_2421399_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv0dih2NI/AAAAAAAAB0o/ujkB4lOTFKU/s320/15140_1257377390163_1101474137_30793719_2421399_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116512196679890" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the recording room...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv0AOaOXI/AAAAAAAAB0g/DToVzh0ONwA/s1600/15140_1257377590168_1101474137_30793724_716255_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnv0AOaOXI/AAAAAAAAB0g/DToVzh0ONwA/s320/15140_1257377590168_1101474137_30793724_716255_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116504327666034" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">gina is inside the recording room...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnvo2jjLWI/AAAAAAAAB0Y/YVEyrLfTBrM/s1600/15140_1257378230184_1101474137_30793740_849563_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnvo2jjLWI/AAAAAAAAB0Y/YVEyrLfTBrM/s320/15140_1257378230184_1101474137_30793740_849563_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116312753417570" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...gina kiss me...i shy...LOL...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SwnvoVvhPAI/AAAAAAAAB0Q/evGczxqwLQk/s1600/15140_1257378270185_1101474137_30793741_4219244_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SwnvoVvhPAI/AAAAAAAAB0Q/evGczxqwLQk/s320/15140_1257378270185_1101474137_30793741_4219244_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116303945251842" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">omg...she beat me..=(haha...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SwnvoFjZN1I/AAAAAAAAB0I/IOOuMwzt4Aw/s1600/15140_1257378310186_1101474137_30793742_4357318_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SwnvoFjZN1I/AAAAAAAAB0I/IOOuMwzt4Aw/s320/15140_1257378310186_1101474137_30793742_4357318_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116299599427410" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">gina~no violence in studio...haha...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnvn3ssSBI/AAAAAAAAB0A/nYT3vhAeDWk/s1600/15140_1257378350187_1101474137_30793743_7363340_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/Swnvn3ssSBI/AAAAAAAAB0A/nYT3vhAeDWk/s320/15140_1257378350187_1101474137_30793743_7363340_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116295880329234" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..."scary" and the blue "ghost" at the back is yamuna...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">playing with the drum set...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SwnvniKAovI/AAAAAAAABz4/e9B8ekOnYYc/s1600/15140_1257378470190_1101474137_30793746_5125884_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SwnvniKAovI/AAAAAAAABz4/e9B8ekOnYYc/s320/15140_1257378470190_1101474137_30793746_5125884_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407116290097718002" border="0" /></a><br />oh ya oh ya..<br />the coolest part of this studio is that we gt thumb print access...<br />which means, other den AVT students that have their thumb print saved in the system,<br />no one can get in!!!!HAHA...<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5336949175545817420?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-24611655133370500882009-11-20T22:03:00.003+08:002009-11-23T10:11:07.230+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:arial;">lost dairy chpt 386:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">i'm getting better...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">wed didn't go to school...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">stayed at home to rest...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">haha..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">the story goes like this:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">wed when i reach home...i'm having fever..</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">but next day i'm ok...so, i decided to go to school...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">cause i need to meet my IS grp mate to discuss project...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">thu started to cough and one of my grp mate late for 1 hr!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">make me angry...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den fri i cont to go to school even though i'm still not feeling well...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">why??because need to meet mr lau to update him about the photo exhitbition thing</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">sat, i finally lost my voice...haha..</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">there's piano lesson, so wake up early without any good rest and went for lesson...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">sun, stayed up late do compile my POM report cause my grp mate send me his part at 1.30...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">mon, i went to school again...haha..with no voice...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">gt test, need to submit report, need to take individual photos....</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">tue, i still went to school...haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">cause thanks to the em3a teacher run like bullet train..very diff to catch up...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">i cant effort to miss 2hr lect...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">after school...FINALLY went to see doc...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">haha..and guess wad??</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">when my doc see my throat</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">she immediately ask my parents why so late den bring me see her..</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">haha...she say my throat is super red...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">so...i took 2 day mc to rest at home..bt...i only rest for 1 day..=p</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">cause thu gt MMP...is a MUST go subject...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">haha...den marcus is so damn funny...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">we ask him to wear the headphone in the studio so that he hear us...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">he went to take the headphone beside him...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">BUT!!!there's a headphone around his neck already...HAHA!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den when he realise about why we're laughing at him...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">his face is so priceless...HAHA!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">anyway...our MMP batch is so funny...haha..right??</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">HAHA!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">and the FUNNY part is here...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">after e 4hr MMP lesson, we went for our break...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">outside is rainning heavily...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">and when we reach atrium, the drain is splashing out water...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den my slippers float at the "drain" water...i quickly go back and take it..haha..</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den the whole atrium is flood with water..</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">even campus deli is filled with water...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den e aunty still say "aiyo...really flood sia..."</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">gina and i was queeing to buy lunch box...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den a DEAD dragonfly float into campus deli...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">OMG!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den, rice is sold out...so i skip my lunch...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">while waiting for wardah to buy her food...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">gina, fiona and me is taking pics and video...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">HAHA!!!den every1 is playing with the water...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den jiesheng came...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">HAHA!!!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">he told us when he gt down the bus, his slippers slip out...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">den there goes his newly bought slippers...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">flowing down the slope outside school with the water flow...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">HAHA!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">whao...yesterday is so funny...LOL..</span><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2461165513337050088?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-32489548247158726572009-11-11T20:52:00.003+08:002009-11-11T21:15:33.091+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">lost dairy chpt 385:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">phew...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">busy busy busy....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">how busy i can??</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">hmm...i'm sick, having fever, and i have to finish my tutorial...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">because i'm still at tut 1 while teacher finish topic 2!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt i'm healthy..haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">cause i'm getting better...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">without taking any medicine...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">SEE!!!who says my immune system is not gd??</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">go back and study again...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">u cant b a doc...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">HAHA!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">well~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">gt portfolio need to do...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha..den gt assignment 2&amp;3..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">just finish my assignment 1..and teacher tells us that we need to pass up our assignment 2...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">SHOCK!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">hope i can survive this week...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">hmmm..today is a fun day...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">HAHA...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">went in for ATE class...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">den we started gossiping abt ronney is in a relationship...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">HAHA!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt den he deny it...he says is one of the prank made by our class ppl...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">cause yesterday...when he left the classroom, he forget to log off his acct...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">HAHA!!!den some1 from tue MMP's group change his status to "in a relationship"..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">LOL!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt...gina,fiona flo and me keep on di siao him..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">say wad he jia jia...go di xia qing...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">den during PCN lesson...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">HAHA!!the fun just started...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">while acting listening in class..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">erza,wardah,fiona,ronney and me is on facebook...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">started to do all those interview and stuffs...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">den tag each other...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">HAHA!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">so funny...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">we keep on laughing...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">luckily teacher nvr ask us any qn..LOL...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">yea~~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">very tired...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt still cant slp yet..=(</span><br /><br />it's quite funny...<br />sometimes, being a good person...<br />you'll have to be very responsible..<br />however, being a bad person...<br />you'll not have such burden...<br />and those ppl who are gd, are always the one who are very tired...<br />haha...<br />i also duno wad i'm talking abt...<br />somehow..my brain is dead again..<br />ok...i know wad wardah will say when she see this part<br />she will say "when does ur brain is alive??is dead almost everytime"<br />haha...so, fever plus everything make things worse...<br />HAHA!!!i shall stop here...if not more and more crap will come out...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">我一直都认为， 坚强不是一件坏事。。。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">但，我好想你。。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">我并没有想像中坚强。。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">不要以为，我一个人就可以。。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">从我口中出来的话， 不是要骗任何人。。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">而是想要说服自己，欺骗自己。。</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">如果可以。。。我很想你在我身边陪我。。。</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3248954824715872657?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-83812311782685296102009-11-09T09:25:00.003+08:002009-11-09T09:29:44.995+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 384:<br /><br />LALALALALA~~~~~~<br />i'm so tired that i'm turning crazy...<br />I WANNA SLEEP!!!<br /><br />last week...<br />quite busy...<br />haha...doing template for the portfolio...<br />chasing ppl for caption....<br />doing stupid em3a tut...<br />doing stupid POM assignment 1....<br />oh ya!haha...<br />last fri we accompanied jiesheng to do his piercing...<br />HAHA...fiona and i was like.."wha...so fast?!"<br />haha...super funny...<br /><br />seriously...<br />anyone want to exchange brain with me??<br />i dun like to be brain dead...<br />haha...<br />duno how to tink...<br />cant make any decision..<br />and i even can ans qn..<br />idiot!<br /><br />maybe it's because i'm so tired all these years..<br />and finally..it's time for me to get a rest...<br />mentally dead...<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8381231178268529610?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-49949380104873929952009-11-03T18:57:00.004+08:002009-11-03T21:51:14.622+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 383:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPHONY3DI/AAAAAAAABzw/xiTS8eSMEto/s1600-h/b43e9f6445a4ad82d1fe9afd3e9a9693.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 210px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPHONY3DI/AAAAAAAABzw/xiTS8eSMEto/s320/b43e9f6445a4ad82d1fe9afd3e9a9693.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399832569964977202" border="0" /></a><br /><br />i</span><span style="font-size:130%;">'m so tired this few days...<br />fall asleep on the chair when i watching show...<br />so tired...<br />eating ice-cream does not help at all...</span><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPGzigthI/AAAAAAAABzo/z-J7y2B1Qug/s1600-h/1141099555585885522.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPGzigthI/AAAAAAAABzo/z-J7y2B1Qug/s320/1141099555585885522.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399832562805814802" border="0" /></a><br />“照片能留下美好的记忆。。”<br />我现在只想把所有的照片删掉。。。<br />虽然早知道一切。。<br />但努力想回到过去的只有我一个。。<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPGlgEkNI/AAAAAAAABzg/NNiRWmR-Sio/s1600-h/5d46ac945f75ce9b139b9299cb519cab.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 235px; height: 320px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPGlgEkNI/AAAAAAAABzg/NNiRWmR-Sio/s320/5d46ac945f75ce9b139b9299cb519cab.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399832559037485266" border="0" /></a><br />不知道对自己说了上百次了。<br />却没有办法。。。<br />真的真的真的真的很讨厌自己。。。<br />所以，我不在乎谁讨厌我。。<br />一个恋自己也讨厌的人，还会有人喜欢吗？？<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPGf_lMkI/AAAAAAAABzY/msUb48ntT6o/s1600-h/3a982df934f235dc54b957db7c8cfacc.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 243px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SvAPGf_lMkI/AAAAAAAABzY/msUb48ntT6o/s320/3a982df934f235dc54b957db7c8cfacc.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399832557559034434" border="0" /></a><br />事实终究是事实。。<br />这次，真的真的真的该放手了。。<br />毕竟，不管什么，都回不到过去。。<br />因为，我没有时光机。。。<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">sometimes, i feel so pathetic...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">there's no1 there for me..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">or maybe there is..but i just don't wanna ask for it...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">is always like this...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">i just want to be alone..but i cant stop myself thinking..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">i'm more pathetic den her...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">at least she gt someone there...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">it seems that i have more things den her..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">bt in the end..i still lose to her...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4994938010487392995?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-81622880672847276932009-11-02T19:07:00.003+08:002009-11-02T19:21:47.493+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 382:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so tired!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">only slept for 3hrs!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun feel like waking up!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">finally after one a half years..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i have nothing to motivate me to school anymore...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">my laziness have overcome everything...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm now super duper tired!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">today had my role play...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmm...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">okok...nt bad...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause there's nothing i need to do...HAHA!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">actually meeting them at 7.30...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt...everyone is late...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">lol...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">after that...firdaus keep on disturbing me telling me that he can go home and sleep already...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">idiot right?</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">LOL...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause,by right, our monday class either starts from 8-12 or 1-5...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt because after my lesson which ends at 12, i have a tut lesson...=(</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den firdaus keep on saying he can go home and sleep..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what can i do??i can only stare at him...=(</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den took bus home after lesson...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">luckily kor kor came and fetch me at macpherson...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">LOL...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no need take bus home...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den kor kor drive me to bugis and buy dessert...YUMMY!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and i also gt my popcorn chicken and cheese fries...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and i'm so full nw!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">LOL...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">guess wad??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i ate 2 packet of chesse fries, one large popcorn chicken, dessert and kor kor's korean dish..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause his gum pain...cant bite..so i help him eat...HAHA!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmmm...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">well i guess i'll gain 3kg today...LOL</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so tired!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yet cant sleep yet...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause if nw i sleep, tonight comfirm plus gurantee chop i cant sleep..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no mood to do my tut qn...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe shall cont stare to my wall blankly...HAHA...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">2 more months...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">conuting down...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">86 more days to go...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">LOL...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8162288067284727693?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-26365385520133369132009-10-30T08:46:00.002+08:002009-10-30T08:52:35.633+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 381:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">YAWN!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so tired!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yesterday is a FUN day!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">went into the recording room at FMS blk because of MMP...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...naz and i stayed inside the room...very funny...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">should save the sound clip from the com...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sounds so funny!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">most of all...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yesterday...the whole 2 hours i keep on shooting the same person...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den after that..grace and i keep on badmouthing that person infront of fiona and flo...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAHA!!!so happy!!!LOL</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i still got stupid POM reflection need to be done...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sian...still got poster and portfolio need to rush out with fiona they all..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and we have not done anything...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">only ideas...dun have any actual stuff done...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">AH!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sooner or later..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'll be real dead...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">still gt 3 more months...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...looking forward...=))</span><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2636538552013336913?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-74636393197637630702009-10-26T09:43:00.001+08:002009-10-26T09:44:32.044+08:00<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:130%;" >lost dairy chpt 380:<br /><br />now having POM...<br />is boring..yawn...<br />i'm so tired and hungry!!!<br />i want to eat!!!<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7463639319763763070?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-68313181119841238952009-10-24T20:46:00.004+08:002009-10-24T20:52:39.466+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 379:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SuL4ce6gJ9I/AAAAAAAABzI/jWSGA4E9eNo/s1600-h/65981461.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 171px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SuL4ce6gJ9I/AAAAAAAABzI/jWSGA4E9eNo/s320/65981461.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5396148471761741778" border="0" /></a><br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;">原来 爱情从来没有离开过<br />只是我记得 你忘了<br />有些人的人生，是直达车 有些人却是慢车，中间总要经过许多站，经历许多人<br />有人总是下错站，坐过头，不是错失了窗外风景，就是错过了身旁的人 没有人知道，能陪自己坐到终点站的人，究竟会是谁. 相爱的人，真的就能一路到达人生的终点站吗?<br /><br />下一站， 幸福。。。<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6831318111984123895?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-31424491155706361032009-10-08T22:43:00.003+08:002009-10-08T22:58:07.773+08:00<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:130%;" >lost dairy chpt 378:<br /><br />just reach home...<br />went to meet sis,fiona and erza for lunch...<br />haha...<br /><br />after tt..<br />meet ct and grace to kbox...<br />haha...<br />so much fun..<br />haha...<br />disturbing ct with all the songs...<br />teasing him..<br />but the other hand is to help him...<br />haha...i'm very nice de...=))<br /><br /><br />haha...<br />today...saw mus when going up to the concourse...<br />haha...very surprise to see me and erza appear in esplanade...<br />haha...have a very small chat with him...<br />a very very small de...haha...<br />really wants to go back and work...<br />haha...so fun..<br />but seems that only our batch finds it fun...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-size:78%;">我又想起你了。。多么想找个理由打给你，却找不到勇气。。</span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3142449115570636103?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-35034093800492179702009-10-07T19:13:00.003+08:002009-10-07T19:21:40.301+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 377:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">okay...let's update...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">AND I'M TOTALLY BROKE NOW...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..i've used up all the money i've saved...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">why??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i wonder why too...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sun went to wardah's house which is near yew tee...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i really went there...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">from PASIR RIS TO YEW TEE!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..but i have fun gossiping...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...after that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">rush down to tamp to meet grace and lee cheng teck for dinner...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...chatted so much until i'm so tired...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">tired until i cant stop myself resting my head on my hand..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den the next day...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">went to sin ee house for steamboat..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">jy,sinee,yan and i was busy in the kitchen for preparing the food..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den waited for kitty to come to sinee house after her lesson...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">rested at home on tue..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and today went to esplanande to look for fiona...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den saw manthai...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">manthai:hey girl!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">me:hello</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">manthai:no school??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">me:holiday...haha</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">manthai:oh...holiday so come look for ur fren la...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">me:haha...ya...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yet, i nvr ask the qn that erza wanted to know since after attachment...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..tmr going to accompany fiona they all to have lunch..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and meeting grace and lct after that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">$$ says goodbye to me...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and ya...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">have been moodless now adays...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm sorry if i've offended anyone...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-3503409380049217970?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-20237093111419355462009-09-28T23:17:00.007+08:002009-09-28T23:45:41.613+08:00lost dairy chpt 376:<br /><br />NOTE!:THIS IS A BORING POST...<br /><br />hmmm...<br />i have nth better to do..<br />so...let's blog abt something...<br /><br />hmm...<br />i'm quite sad today...<br />cant get into the module that i wanted to study...<br />maybe just like what my mum said...<br />i'm just not fated to study psychology...<br />haiz...<br />sad...<br />sad..<br />sad.<br /><br /><br />this holiday is totally boring...<br />nth to do...<br />is just waiting for another day to pass...<br /><br />why am i living this kind of life?<br />useless..<br />aimless..<br />haiz...<br />depressed...<br /><br />haiz...<br />i'm so going to gain weight...<br />and in the end..<br />i'll become fatter and fatter...<br />HAHA!!!<br /><br />sometimes just get so tired of working so hard..<br />so tired that...i don't feel like waking up...<br />i'm so scared that i'm back to the 1 that i'm afraid of...<br />trying very hard to control..<br />but seems nothing can be done...<br />don't know how to explain this feeling...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />speechless..<br />no mood..<br />everything just come without any warning..<br />cant get to control my emotion...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51);font-size:78%;" ><br /></span><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:78%;" ><span style="font-style: italic;">心灵上的痛往往比身体上的痛还要难忍受。。。</span></span><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2023709311141935546?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-64547791319451110912009-09-26T23:12:00.002+08:002009-09-26T23:55:15.442+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 375:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hohoho~</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">to everyone...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm okay...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just wanted to vent my anger...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just like what i told someone today...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">"no matter what thing happen,it will be over soon right??"</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmmm..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">this week conclusion...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">"everyone changes"</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everyone change into someone that is no longer i knew...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and somehow...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i change too...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is just recently that i've finally realise that i've changed..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">good or bad....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just let the ppl around me to think abt it...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">looking at others...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seems like looking into a mirror...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">for me...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i realize that..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everyone always thinks that, others people live a better live than they do..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but,somehow,that's only what they think...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sometimes, i will have this kind of thinking too...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but, after a while, i will tell myself to be content with what i have now...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">don't be greedy to ask for more...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">if you're greedy, you'll lost something in return...</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" ><br />i no longer know how to decide what is right and what is wrong...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6454779131945111091?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-42637832417933657942009-09-21T21:09:00.002+08:002009-09-21T21:26:17.868+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 374:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I HATE YOU!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i wonder why i cant control my temper...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i have to urge to scold you like how you scold other people...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I'M SO PISSED OFF NOW!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">SHIT!!!!!!!</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everytime when i think that everything is over...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it's NOT!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just becoming worse...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cant it just get better so that i can live in peace?!?!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ARGH!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i feel like venting my anger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe it will be extremly fine if..............................................</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">if u know what i mean...</span></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">few weeks ago..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">someone ask me something...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">a thing that both of us have faced since duno when....</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe like what cindy said to me before...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no1 will really tell u how they feel if you ask "how are u?"</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but seems that...every1 just like to say this...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm just one of the normal people....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what i want him to know is that everything will be okay...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so,i hope everything will goes well for him too...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but for now...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i duno...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the hate is getting more and more...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i duno when...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i really cant hold myself and stand straight...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it's getting more and more complicated yea??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seriously i duno wad to say...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">speechless...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hopeless...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4263783241793365794?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-87327559753140173772009-09-19T23:24:00.003+08:002009-09-19T23:34:52.550+08:00<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:130%;" >lost dairy chpt 373:<br /><br />hmm...feels empty...<br />maybe because it's holiday...?<br /><br /><br />was talking to kwang hui few days ago...<br />the thing that we keep on arguing is that...<br />he thinks that i'm not who i am..<br />okay..is dumb...<br />but then...it reminds me the days that we used to argue together with jy,hy...<br />maybe just like what hy says...<br />it's so good to stay at that time...<br />when we argue with each other for fun...<br />talk to each other seriously when needed...<br />pointing out each others fault...<br />then start making fun of each other again...</span><br />.....<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:78%;" >.it's the first time i mention ur name ever since...</span><br /><br />i wonder why....<br />why cant i do it??<br />why cant i be that person...?<br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:78%;" ><br />i've push myself till here...<br />even though there may be regrets...<br />i also want to do it...<br />but...<br />i just i cant...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8732755975314017377?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-90488781409252802382009-09-13T22:30:00.000+08:002009-09-13T22:46:45.349+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 372:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmmm....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">went out with grace on tue...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...chat alot...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">also...we gossip alot as usual...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and...gossip the same thing over and over again..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yea...lct say he need to work...so nvr join us...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">lwc say he got chalet...so cannot join us...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but...without them...we chat even happy...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cause we gossip abt them also...HAHA..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den went out with sinee,jiayi,yan and kitty on fri...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">went to to eat...HAHA...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den did another round of gossiping...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">oh ya...b4 that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">we went to jiayi hse..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den we watch the last epi of qiu tian de tong hua...HAHA....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">lol...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den took 81 to novena...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">change bus to the place where we eat...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">as for today...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">went to jumbo to celebrate my sis bd...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">very full...^^happy...</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" ><br />can i really forget you...?</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-9048878140925280238?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-75747713815692269042009-09-04T13:48:00.001+08:002009-09-04T13:58:08.672+08:00lost dairy chpt 371:<br /><br />hmm...so long nvr update already...haha...<br />nth better to do recently because it's HOLIDAY!!!<br /><br />but..somehow, i don't have the mood...<br />why??<br />1st day of holiday...<br />u get to know something that u would nvr want to know...<br /><br />2nd day of holiday...<br />grandpa is admitted into hospital again...<br />i really hate hospital to the core now...<br /><br />3rd day of the holiday...<br />should be a wonderful day because went to watch cinderella on ice...<br />but...in the end...<br />i'm pissed off...<br /><br />get it??<br />the first few days already spoil my holiday mood...<br />and i cant get everyone together to celebrate frec's belated birthday...<br />headache^2...<br />haha...actually is okay to not celebrate together...<br />but...Fiona and i realise that we've never celebrate someone's birthday together...<br />that's why, wanted to get everyone together...<br />but...everyone seems to be very busy...<br /><br />hmm...<br />somehow...<br />i wish i'm at China with some of our classmates now...<br />studying and studying...<br />is better den u have nth better to do and stay at home...<br />haiz...<br /><br />hate 2009...<br /><br /><br />灰色的彩虹-范玮琪-F·ONE<br /><br />我从秋天等到安静的落叶<br />还不够时间倒带想念<br />就像电影情节最后完结篇<br />退色的画面没有想念<br />我的记忆摇晃着昨天<br />我还有感觉<br />一抬头什么都看不见<br />雨后的屋檐<br />红橙黄绿我都找不到的晴天<br />从此我们两个世界<br />在灰色季节渐渐忘记你的一切<br />过几年我在原点<br />彩虹出现而我再也找不到美丽的蝴蝶<br />偏偏飞不上天<br />对你的想念<br />再也寄不到你世界<br />地址是再见<br />我从秋天等到安静的落叶<br />还不够时间倒带想念<br />就像电影情节最后完结篇<br />退色的画面没有想念<br />我的记忆摇晃着昨天<br />我还有感觉<br />一抬头什么都看不见<br />雨后的屋檐<br />红橙黄绿我都找不到的晴天<br />从此我们两个世界<br />在灰色季节渐渐忘记你的一切<br />过几年我在原点<br />彩虹出现而我再也找不到美丽的蝴蝶<br />偏偏飞不上天<br />对你的想念<br />再也寄不到你世界<br />地址是再见<br />红橙黄绿我都找不到的晴天<br />从此我们两个世界<br />在灰色季节渐渐忘记你的一切<br />过几年我在原点<br />彩虹出现而我再也找不到美丽的蝴蝶<br />偏偏飞不上天<br />对你的想念<br />进不到你世界<br />地址是再见<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-7574771381569226904?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-214664490278056882009-08-06T20:49:00.001+08:002009-08-07T08:53:13.817+08:00<span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:130%;" >lost dairy chpt 370:<br /><br />phew...i've finish all the lab test...<br />hmmm...seems ok to me...haha...<br /><br />u don't want me to say anything right??<br />ok..fine...<br />the only thing i wanted to say is...<br />i'm so disappointed with u...<br /><br />suddenly, it felt like i've lost a friend...<br />a friend that used to be so clear minded...<br />seems that things changes so fast that i cant react to it...<br />reality is cruel...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-21466449027805688?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-20083659995501893972009-07-30T21:35:00.000+08:002009-07-30T22:04:25.269+08:00lost dairy chpt 369:<br /><br />have not been myself recently..<br />duno why...<br />tend to get irritated easily...<br />tend to get angry over small thing...<br />cant focus well in class...<br />letting my emotions control me...<br /><br />yesterday quarreled with my dad...<br />today went to school to avoid seeing him...<br /><br />i know it's not right...<br />but den...if u're in my shoes...<br />maybe...u guys will be worse...<br />HAHA..seriously...<br />i duno...<br />no matter what my dad do...it irritates me...<br />maybe somewhere deep inside my heart...<br />there's this memory that is sealed by myself...<br />i don't know what exactly happen...<br />argh...<br />duno how to put in words....<br /><br /><br /><br />i've been thinking of a qn recently...<br />passion...in other words...dream...<br />is that really important??<br />because..to me...<br />i sort of accept what people say and close my dream inside my heart...<br />maybe to me..it's not important compared to other people...<br />what i want is just peace..<br />i don't want people start arguing and make things difficult for each other...<br />that's why i choose to give up...<br />once i give up..<br />i would not want to go back...<br />tt's why, when ppl ask me...<br />will u want to do it again??<br />my ans would be NO...<br />so what if i say yes??<br />neither you or me can change anything...<br /><br />sometimes, to have a decision made,<br />u have to know what's the 1st place in ur heart and in the reality world...<br />passion is important...<br />but, in the end, what u'll have might not ur passion...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-2008365999550189397?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-57974953063736768152009-07-29T09:50:00.003+08:002009-07-29T09:58:00.331+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 368:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">well~</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i nw super stress up...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i got a very cute teacher..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yesterday told us that tmr there's quiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">every1 is like what the?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i think i'll be dead at the end of the week...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so many things need to be done...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i gt 2 lab test next week on the same day...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den...photography submission next week..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i still don't know what's my theme...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">totally have no mood...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what life is this??</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i have a super bad feeling abt my STM results..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i failed my 2nd paper..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">7 failures in the class...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAHA!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i tink..i'm one of them~</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that stupid pig...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seeing ppl who i don't like...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i guess...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the only way that will make my life easier is to forget...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but den...easy said den done...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">=(</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5797495306373676815?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-42065405732356570512009-07-21T14:33:00.002+08:002009-07-21T14:49:31.662+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 367:</span><br /><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmVh__cNiqI/AAAAAAAABy4/zm5x2qSDMaY/s1600-h/path"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmVh__cNiqI/AAAAAAAABy4/zm5x2qSDMaY/s320/path" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5360798683443858082" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">in life, there's a lot of things that we need to decide..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and to choose the path that we think is right...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but den...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">here comes the question...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what's the defination of right??</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everyone have different kinds of defination...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's the reason why...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i usually don't give too much comments..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">to say or not to say...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is a difficult question..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">if to ask my opinion...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">saying the truth...cant help much...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">if not saying can let grandpa stay happy..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i think it'll be better...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">like what my mum say...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">saying the truth...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">my grandpa will not b as happy as now..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what matter to us is that he can stay as happy as possible...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">if there's a choice..i want my grandpa to stay as long as possible and be happy everyday..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but seems that...life is like this...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">you cant change the fact...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-4206540573235657051?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-58983481048509796312009-07-20T22:49:00.003+08:002009-07-21T14:49:47.236+08:00<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">lost dairy chpt 366:</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i'm so scared...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i have no idea why..</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">when i saw u..</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i was like..shit...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">den my heart start beating faster and faster...haha..</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">is not him...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">is another person...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">maybe it's because...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">since graduation, have nvr meet up...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">den some more..only chat on msn some times...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i hope that i'm invisible at that moment...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">but i guess...didn't see me bah...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">phew...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i was walking to piano lesson...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">walking past the places i used to hang around...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">jus 1 yr...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">everything change so much...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">feel sad suddenly...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">because..what is left now...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">is only memories...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">yea...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">and was chatting with kitty just now...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">suddenly felt that...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">god just simply don't like me...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">' it's very rare that people have it on their arm..and it is more rare for people to have it on their legs'</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">when the doctor told me this...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">the only thing is in my mind i rmb clearly is 'thanks ar...i'm so 'blessed'...'</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">den now with the virus wart on my hand...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">have to go for treatment everytime it grow back...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">'it cant be cure..'.</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">that's what the doc say..'it will stay inside ur body...what u can do is to build up ur immune system'</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">at the very next moment, what comes to my mind is that 'whao...welcome and join the unfortunate gang'...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">for my skin...what can i do??</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">it cant be helped..</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">that's why i stopped applying medicine...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">for my virus wart...just leave it...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i cant do anything...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">what i can say is that...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">'thanks to god...'blessing' me with all this stuff...'</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">maybe without all these things...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i may be a different person...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">i rmb clearly what happen...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">tt's why i change...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">change to a person that i hope ppl would accept...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">but somehow, god don't think i'm right...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;">punish me with all this things....</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br />i'm not being negative...<br />i'm just stating the 'truth'...<br /><br />"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but we often look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us"<br />-Helen Keller<br /><br />i'm now starring at the closed door...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-5898348104850979631?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-69823447258147489432009-07-17T22:42:00.004+08:002009-07-17T23:05:50.683+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">lost dairy chpt 365:</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">went for my nitrogen spray...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"> get used to the pain...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"> actually, the pain nw is bearable...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">hmm...yesterday went to palm asia...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">yea...slack week..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt den..when i see my organiser,</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">WHAO!!!so many things to do...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">photography outing...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">projects,projects and projects...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">quiz...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">prac...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">test...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haiz...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">sian...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">was reading some1's blog...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">ya...is urs...haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">dun doubt it...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">worried is the only word...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">to 'whom it may conern'(haha):</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">although you didn't hurt urself,</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt when u have the thought which makes me worried...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">take care of urself...no matter wad...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">thanks to frec...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">i REALLY WANT TO WATCH THREADS OF DESTINY!!!!</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">pics that i've taken...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQaSH-myI/AAAAAAAAByw/BgMprCzuhgo/s1600-h/project-3.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQaSH-myI/AAAAAAAAByw/BgMprCzuhgo/s320/project-3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5359442337787190050" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">justice...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQaEFPRBI/AAAAAAAAByo/kKjy8otk0Lw/s1600-h/project-2.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQaEFPRBI/AAAAAAAAByo/kKjy8otk0Lw/s320/project-2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5359442334017602578" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">'the forgotten'</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">class photo took by mr lau...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQZ9gh5HI/AAAAAAAAByg/kgL7D8MrwUg/s1600-h/4943_1159457902237_1101474137_30468313_4906623_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQZ9gh5HI/AAAAAAAAByg/kgL7D8MrwUg/s320/4943_1159457902237_1101474137_30468313_4906623_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5359442332253021298" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">smile...</span><br /><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQZL4g60I/AAAAAAAAByY/hDCaq5kfPM4/s1600-h/4943_1159457782234_1101474137_30468310_5799581_n.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_--fmS8QTw9w/SmCQZL4g60I/AAAAAAAAByY/hDCaq5kfPM4/s320/4943_1159457782234_1101474137_30468310_5799581_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5359442318931848002" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">it's a great day...afterall...</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">sometimes...i wonder why...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">e moment i made the decision..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">i'm very sure that my decision is correct...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">after many yrs...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">i regret it..or shld i say...after a few days??</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">haha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">anyway...it's over..yea??</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">keep on using this to comfort myself..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">bt seems to be useless...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">the more i wanna comfort myself..</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">the more i'll feel miserable...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">ice-cream cant help me..<br />haiz...<br />how can i get rid if this feeling???<br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6982344725814748943?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-3076295554231188382009-07-14T15:09:00.002+08:002009-07-14T15:46:18.107+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 364:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">hmmm...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">gt nth better to do.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so...LET'S BLOG!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sometimes, friendship can be very strong..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and it can b very weak...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ppl that are used to be good friends...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they seems to hate each other or dun wanna talk to each other...</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">story 1:</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i rmb i've mention 2 friend of mine...let's name them f1&amp;f2</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">used to be 'brothers'...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">helping each other..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and suddenly, they just stop talking...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">once i mention the other, they seems to don't want to cont the topic...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">as a friend...wad can i do right??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">since, they dun wanna say anything..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den wait till next time,when they wanna say den say bah...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt den...nw i know the reason...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i sort of heard stories from both side...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">f1 is clear with his stand..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">f2,just trying to give me a stupid ans and change topic...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">from the clearer version..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what i tink that, although both is in wrong...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is just that f2 reacted overly...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">somehow deep inside my heart...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm bias...since i know f1 earlier...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i believe in him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and now, when i think back,</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seems that..i'm not being fair to f2...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but den...since he don't want to talk, i got nothing to believe him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">at least f1 have ppl to proof for him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt f2 have nth..only left negative comments...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">feel very sad...for both of them...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">just because a incident...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they choose to drift apart...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no matter whose fault it is...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">best friends are friends who accept who u are...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so, treasure your friends...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">story 2:</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i've mention this 2 friend also...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">let's call them...hmm...b1&amp;b2...HAHA...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">b1&amp;b2 used to hate each other because of some reason(which i find it stupid)....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but den, after they're in the same class...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they've become very good friends...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">sitting together...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">looking for job together..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">going everywhere together...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">suddenly one day, i realise they drift appart...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they no longer sit together during assembly...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they also no longer sit together in class...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">b1 start to hang out with some other guy in their class..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and b2 cont hang out with the same grp of ppl..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">same...whenever i ask..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they just wun tell me the real reason..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">until...one day...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">b1 told me that it's his fault...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt wun tell me why...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den...because i'm who i am...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i went to ask b2...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">b2 told me the story...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...what can i say??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">this time round...is another stupid incident...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">2 story...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">f1&amp;f2 find faults on each other and stop contacting...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">b1 know he's wrong...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">b2 already forgive him(i guess)...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">both just dun wan to contact each other...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe is because that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they think that after going poly...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">they will find new friends and make new best friend..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">maybe better one...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i duno...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and i dun have a stand to say anything...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">because i have the same problem...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">although knowing what's the problem is...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i choose to ignore it...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what inspire me to write all this shit...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">partially is because lesson is boring...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">another 1 is...because...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i was looking through my secondary school pics with mr friends...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">have many flash back..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">good one, bad one...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it just make me remember many things..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">what i've gone through and who went through all the stuffs with me...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">who are there for me when i need them...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">who will be there when i'm sad...sad until i cry...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">who are there with me when i'm not feeling well...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">who tires their best to make me smile again when i cry....</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm reading message that i've saved in my hp...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">it says that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">people who laugh when u're sad...is ur enemy...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ppl who laugh when u're happy is ur friend...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ppl who tires their best to make u smile again is ur good friends...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ppl who cry with u when u're sad are ur good friends...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm happy that i have so many good and best friends...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's why, i love my friends...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and i don't wish to see them quarrel...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">including f1,f2,b1&amp;b2...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i treasure the friendship with the 4 of them...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt den, if like this makes them happy and comfortable...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i have nth to say...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">as long as they dun regret...</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-307629555423118838?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-62359543792328149862009-07-12T10:52:00.002+08:002009-07-12T10:56:07.451+08:00lost dairy chpt 363:<br /><br />haiz...<br />super sian...<br />duno why dun have mood...<br /><br />next week...haiz....<br />need to see that pig again...<br />ok..nvm...2 more lesson left..i hope...<br />she dun anyhow anyhow...<br /><br />haiz....<br />next week going palm asia...<br />den still got camp in the weekend...<br />haiz...lazy bt feel like going...<br />if is at loft...i guess, wun tt sian le bah....<br /><br />7 days a week...<br />4days taken away...<br />haiz...<br /><br />next next week gt 2 presentation...<br />argh!!!!<br />start to hate school....<br />sian.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6235954379232814986?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-19396008979674080662009-07-10T23:04:00.003+08:002009-07-10T23:21:50.323+08:00lost dairy chpt 362:<br /><br />whao...today is a tiring day...<br /><br />have photography lesson in the morn...<br />den went to KAP for lunch...<br />same thing...gossip...HAHA...<br />den went to the duno where with fiona and erza...haha...<br /><br />den went to outram...<br />walk to china town to do survey on toy factory...<br />den after tt...walk to raffles place...haha...<br />to save $$..LOL<br /><br />den went to e-hub..<br />went there to have dinner with gl and nelson...<br />idiot..<br />they forever de leh..<br />keep on saying me stupid...<br />sad sia...<br />haha...but at the same time...<br />is gd to talk to them...although they everytime bully me...<br /><br />and nelson forever...<br />everytime bully me..<br />no matter how bad mood he is..<br />after bully me...he'll be so happy...<br />idiot....<br />come tt time face black like wad...<br />after i ask him wad happen...<br />den start to bully me le...<br />idiot...haha....<br />bt den...i dun mind....<br />as long as my friends are happy...is okay~<br />still force me to eat the chicken when i having gastric...<br />but den,i know wad he really meant...<br />so...i tried my best to eat that chicken...<br />and halfway...i give up...haha...<br /><br />6yrs of friendship...<br />suddenly,we are like...whao...so long le...<br />haha...den i keep on say 'eh...i know u for 6 yrs...dun bluf me la...tell me the truth' to gl..<br />haha...he den tell me the truth le...<br /><br />just like what i used to say....<br />if u treat that person as ur fren...<br />u wun get angry with them...<br />u wun mind if they're late...<br />so..today i enjoy my day...<br /><br />one group of ppl say i'm evil,silent killer and BADASS!!!haha...<br />bt den, another grp of people thinks i'm stupid and easy to bully...<br />so, i wonder, which is me???<br /><br />but den, once again...<br />i'm tired!!!!<br />sleepy...<br /><br />oh ya...<br />i'm so depressed!!!<br />with the stupid thing on my hand,<br />with the pictures i take...<br />find myself so useless...<br />haiz...<br />emo!!!<br />after seeing other ppl's pic and also SOME1'S photo..<br />i depress times 2...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1939600897967408066?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-949173091980932262009-07-04T15:14:00.002+08:002009-07-04T15:32:48.549+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 361:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...this week sux...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">totally...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">like wad my previous post say..i'm so totally pissed off with the pig...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">which is my STM teacher...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">irritating...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm so glad and happy that next week i dun have to see her...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i dun care anymore...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">if she so bo liao till she happen to pass by and read this blog...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">let me tell u...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I DUN CARE ABOUT UR MODULE AT ALL!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">anyway..is jus a elective that wun affect my GPA...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">so, i dun BOTHER!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yea...den unlucky day...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that day blk 23 lift spoil...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">we climb the stairs from 1st floor to 6th!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">idiot..</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yst went for my 2nd treatment..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">seriously...DO I HAVE TO TEACH U HOW TO PUT A PLASTER ON UR PATIENT'S FINGER?</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">SERIOUSLY I THINK U HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO TAKE OUT THE PLASTER!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ok...it goes like this...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i gt 2 virus wart on my finger,,</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">1 big 1 small...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">e big 1 they should use the spraying machine...(is nt like how u spray ur perfume to ur body..is like...spraying the pesticide to the drain...that kind of force)</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">e small 1 should use the stick to 'force' the nitrogen to my finger...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den this stupid nurse...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">use the stick for both big and small...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">which means...the pain for the big 1 is double the small 1...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">idiot...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">everything is okay to me..but he said something that make me feel irritated..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">he said"wha...ur tolerance quite good ar"</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">-_-</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">1st...what reaction u want me give u??shout out??cry out??</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">2nd..is none of ur business anyway..dun need to care so much...BLEH!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den when he help me bandage my wound...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">he like duno how to open the plaster like that...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den make my finger so pain...the numb pain plus the force he gave...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">feel like asking him to stop...i'll do the bandage myself...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">idiot...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den my 2nd finger..he say dun need plaster!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i asked him twice if he's sure that i dun need plaster...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and he said yes..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">when i reach home...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i found the wound is have blood inside...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">ltr gt infection i kill him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAHA...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den went to AMK to wait for sinee they all to reach..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">walk ard and gossip with kitty...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den after that...we went to sinee hse for STEAMBOAT!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...started to eat ard 8.50..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cz is we're waiting for jiayi..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">den in the end...jiayi came at 10...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...bt den we left lots of food for her...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">her plate is filled with food...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">oh ya...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">we went there to celebrate yan's bd...haha...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">AND THANKS TO LIM WI CEHN...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">actually today going to celebrate gl's bd...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">because of him forget to tell gl...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">we cancel it...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">WI CHEN...u be careful..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">me and kitty will kill u!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...BEWARE!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">LOL...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">anyway...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO TAN YAN JUN!!!(4th July)</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO TAN GUAN LEONG!!!(5th July)</span><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-94917309198093226?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-64618497028756342112009-07-01T09:45:00.001+08:002009-07-01T09:47:40.291+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 360:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">I'M SO ANGRY WITH THAT IRRITATING,IDIOTIC,SICKENING,UGLY AND FAT PIG!!!!!</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">pissed off..</span><br /></span><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-6461849702875634211?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-85988012157066168842009-06-28T22:31:00.003+08:002009-06-28T22:46:57.879+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">lost dairy chpt 359:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED FRIEND CINDY CHU QIAN YI!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">very touched right when matt and i called u..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha....somemore..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">u thought i was e 1 playing flute...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">haha...sorry...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i live in HDB...nt like matt...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun need to be considerate to ppl living near him...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i need wor...haha...ltr ppl call police and complain i die...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAHA...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">today...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">celebrated grandma's bd at her hse..</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">cz,grandpa cant really move...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">yea...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">anyway,they happy can le...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm anything de...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">HAHA...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">like wad i say just nw on the phone with cindy and matt...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">some ppl jus don't change...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt i realise, some ppl change as time goes by...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">but den, when it comes to close frens...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is diff case...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">is seems to be the same person few yrs ago...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no matter how far the distance is...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the feeling is still the same...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no matter how long we've nvr seen each other...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's what i meant by 'best friends'</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and that's wad i want...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun need to see each other everyday...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">dun need to contact each other everday...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">bt den, u'll still concern each other...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and the feelings inside will nvr change no matter how long...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">friends....</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">u'll be touched no matter how common the thing is...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">because is from he/her...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">u'll be concern if the final product is gd, because is for him/her...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">because is frens...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">that's why, u'll feel happy...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">even though what is done is just a small thing...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">looking at us...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">and looking back...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'm happy that i've met u 2...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">LOVE U 2...</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">waiting for the day to come...=D</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-8598801215706616884?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20769454.post-17929169041016046492009-06-25T22:24:00.001+08:002009-06-25T22:27:18.012+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">lost dairy chpt 358:</span><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ddDuNf03-f8&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1&amp;"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ddDuNf03-f8&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1&amp;" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">下雨天<br /><br />主唱：南拳媽媽 (梁心頤)<br />作詞：梁心頤 (Lara)<br />作曲：張傑<br />編曲：洪敬堯<br /><br />(Lara)<br />下雨天了 怎麼辦 我好想你<br />我不敢打給你 我找不到原因<br />為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉<br />沈默的場景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停<br /><br />期待讓人越來越沉溺 (疲憊)<br />誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰<br />愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味<br />一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累<br /><br />怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜<br />怎樣的我 能讓你更想念<br />雨要多大 天要多黑<br />才能夠有你的體貼<br /><br />(Lara+張傑)<br />其實沒有我你分不出哪些差別<br />結局還能多明顯<br />(Lara)<br />別說你會難過 別說你想改變<br />被愛的人不用道歉<br /><br />thanks to bro..i'm addicted to this song...<br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20769454-1792916904101604649?l=miss-ing-me.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lavenderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10949149203585226843noreply@blogger.com0