.Saturday, February 25, 2006 ' 2/25/2006 11:15:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LoST DaiRy CHpt 12:
hai....firstly wanted to say sorri to someone who i have said something hurting to him...i reali have no intention of it...so sorry...haiz...just say for the sake for saying maybe to make myself to feel less guilty as he will nvr cum n see my blog coz he duno my add...lol...but still feel like saying sorry abt the sms thing...if "u" came across here...so sorry abt it...have no meaning of saying it...plz forgive mi...[:(]
herm...finally DT week over n my test all over...but sure fail veri badly for a a maths as i give up de whole paper...so sad sia...bt better den sum of de 306 gals...dey cry just bcoz de paper is so diff...cry for wad...crazy ar...feeling so confused...duno wad i shld do...making lots of mistake...doing lots of silly tings...doing tings tt ppl will start hating mi...bt...making mi so confused with all these tings...will i still be de same old mi as time goes by??will i still the person that all my friends have known for many years??everyone need to rest at diff time of their life...n nw maybe is de time for mi to rest...at tis moment...i muz forget tings tt i need to forget...nt to make myself sad...remember de happi moments tt u all as my friends have gave mi...no matter wad...i will have to sort up tings together...n at tt right moment...i will come bck...but how long i shld let myself to rest...too tired le...tired of everyting...everyting tt have happen around mi...sick n tired of myself...hating myself more n more...no matter how i hate myself..i m still mi...n my principle of living is to be optimistic n smile as much as u can coz it is better to smile compared to be sad de whole day...making urself miserable...for wad rite...making ur own self sad n miserable...
The most hurting words that you can hear frm a friend of urs is not that your friend hate you or what...is just that they are telling the truth...letting you know...n at the same moment...hoping that you will understand but not being hurt by all the hurting words that ur friend have said... people have their own principle in living...but we also must remember that no matter what...true friends are always there n telling you things that no one will tell you...
.Wednesday, February 15, 2006 ' 2/15/2006 07:09:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LOsT dAIrY CHpT 11:
herm...2day went to de SDC as 2day was total defence day...yesterday is valentine cum frienship day...2day...so lame lor...de instructor der say those tings tt dey tink is funni bt i dun feel so lor...lol...den haiz...2day also veri boring...down der walk here walk der...den sit on de bus...den listening to music...den sheikh will make jess n as per normal...i will beat him...haha...-_-"...hehe...hai...nth to say much le lar...so bo liao...
.Sunday, February 12, 2006 ' 2/12/2006 08:34:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LOsT dAIrY cHPt 10:
hai...de whole of last week sux...i dun like it...n it will be locked up...n i wish nt to tok abt it again...learning to nt to treat sum1 good...as dey dun deserve it..learning to control myself...learning to 4get...learning to 4give...after all tis...i will be totally free...free frm everyting...free frm hatred...free frm troubles...n i will be juz like out in de sea...looking at de vast blue sea...looking at de broad n blue sky...n all tis...will be freedom...so...wen can i feel it??feel de happiness of freedom...i dun need to learn to be alone...coz i already get used to loneliness...n tis credit goes to...hai....nvm...4getting...4getting all the bad tings tt will make mi more happi...so...i muz lock up all those bad memory...n wen de box is filled wif unhappi tings n hatred...tis is wen i will start erasing everyting frm my brain...just to be happi...i will need to earse all de bad n painful memories frm my brain...but...can i reali do it??erasing all away??kitty say tis before...tings tt have happen...u cant 4get it for ur whole life...u will onli 4get it for a minute or 2...nwen sum1 or sumtings accidentally reminded u wif sum way...de memory will start to flow bck...how i wish tt i can lost my memory...no matter is good or bad...i just dun wan to remember anyting abt...................................hai.....
.Tuesday, February 07, 2006 ' 2/07/2006 08:40:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LosT DAIrY ChPt 9:
2day is a stupid day...duno why...cant concentrate also...tmr gt chinese test...sian diao...hai...2day mr tan come 2 our klaz...den priscilla question all ask him...den mr sehkar like veri happi abt tt ting...lol...hai...yesterday miss shanta spot check all de class...den every1 need bring books bck home...hai...so heavy...hai...y is my life so boring??hai...boring at klaz...boring at home...sian ar...
.Sunday, February 05, 2006 ' 2/05/2006 04:10:00 PM Y
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.Friday, February 03, 2006 ' 2/03/2006 10:20:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOst DAirY ChpT 8:
herm...2dae veri boring day...get bck test paper...stupid la...get until so low...haiz...so sad ar...sob sob...2dae go bai tai shui...hai...so angry!!!!haiz...bt...over over liao la...no point angry liao...hai...2day nth special...just...hai...duno how to start...stupid rite...haiz...why are my school life so sian now adays??i miz de lively klaz tt i have frm sec 1-2...miz dem so much...how i wish we are still de same klaz forever...but no matter wad...we still need to be seperated...haiz...life is like tt...full of seperation...hai...but wen ders seperation den u will know how much de matter stands in ur heart n life...agree??2day jia yi n hong yao went video tape de bkb competition...den our skool win again...hai...miz 205 so much...[:'(]...
everyone is escaping...no matter how strong a person is...dey will still have tings tt dey cant afford to handle and wants to escape...escape frm de truth of anyting...why is de world like tt??ppl although are nt perfect...but why muz every1 have tings to escape...sum ppl escape frm luv life...sum1 escape away frm stress...sumone trying hard to escape frm de reality of life...de cruel n reality life...just like i have said...no matter how strong de person is...dey will still feel sad n unhappi...dey also want a time to give demself a break frm being so strong...bcoz of de sick n tired stress dey give to demself...it will coz alot of tings to happen...so...if u want to give urself a break,wants to cry...just do it...no1 will laugh at you...bcoz...u have been holding up ur feelings for too long...maybe after crying...a brand new you will be born...
everyone have their own way of living...but wen de way tt u are living is making you feeling bad or wadever...give sum time n tink...maybe u can change ur living style...rite??
.Wednesday, February 01, 2006 ' 2/01/2006 08:21:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LoSt DaIrY ChPt 7:
haiz...sian diao...cannot tk bck test paper...hai...so curious if i do well in my xams...hai...hwhwhwhwhwhw...everydae gt hw...sian leh...herm...i gt a new name by a so call "gentleman"...he gave mi tis stupid name...wif no offence on him...pie seller...siao lor...haiz...how much i wish that dun need to tk exams...stupid teacher give stupid test paper...A maths mani ppl done badly...nt like sin ee...e n a maths get full marks...congrats sia...de onli person get full marks in 306...lets see if our klaz "maths wiz" which is welfrad...n tis name is name by Mr sekhar...lets see if he will get high marks on it nt...n de iur...get so high 4 maths...so diao lor...3 verticle lines drop down frm my head...she...get so high...even mi n jess have no confidence to do well...she also can get so well...dunno muz do wad...congrats her...which wen i m mad i will do...or m i jealous of her???herm...if tis is call jealous...herm...how to say??jealous is just a stupid ting to do lor...den de stupid gnaf uil!!!dun wan to tok abt her la...tok le i m de 1 angry...hmf...so angry wif her lor...hate her la...so boring...so tired...nth to do...
forgiving and forgetting...
forgive is very easy to said out but veri diff to do in action...am i doing action or am i just saying n give blank cheque??nvr do aniting...jus der...saying all tis reason??
forgetting...same as forgiving...veri easy to say but veri diff to do...just like my previous entries...u cant forget aniting tt have happen...u can onli use time to ease de pain...n as time goes by...de pain goes off and slowly de memory of all de bad tings will onli be at de bck of ur mind n bring lock up...onli wen ders sum stupid tings happen...de lock will unlock but der is no more pain anymore...n u will also forgive n forget easily...
But all i have said...am i doing in action or just am i just typing it out to let myself noe tt tis is de reason n i muz do it??lol....understand???
. ' 2/01/2006 07:22:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LoSt DaIrY ChpT 6:
herm...i muz wish my "fav" kor happi b'dae...den also to jeffrey a belated bd...herm...last few days nvr update coz cum bck veri late le...1st day of CNY go grand hse...den ply until 12-1 plus...also 4get liao...den also lost my $10...de 2nd day...went aunt hse...den ply wif de 4 "cousins"lol...den i keep winning money frm desmond...1 of de 4 cousins...den win bck my $10 also muz +i win another $7 frm him n his bro daniel...make mi so guilty sia...den wen i get bck hm already 2+ den 3+ den slp..so tired...nxt day...dey came to my hse...den i win daniel n roy money abt $8...so guilty...tis sat going their hse...hai...den 2day....veri tired...go do duty...end up running up n down...siao ar...den...herm...i tink nth to say liao bah...o ya...
PS: Mr Low Kai Jing(my "fav" kor...)...u still owe us hong bao hor...dun 4get it...k??muz b a good kor hor...:D
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