.Saturday, June 28, 2008 ' 6/28/2008 04:02:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 218:
sun rise...sun sets....
fiona..is e font size big enuf?lol..
haha...grace..i finally saw ming sheng online...haha...den talk to him for a while..told him e standard ans i'll give other ppl...HAHA...and..i nvr saw july online also..so,cant help u ask..sorry...
argh...shld i go for prps meeting??haha...i lazy go out...haha...
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY CINDY!!!!!
one year le...haha...so fast right??
amd that means...u are older den me again...
HAHA...
take care...
all e best...
matt and i will go mel one day to find u...
so,wait for us!!!
haha...
have a wonderful birthday...
^^
one year le...haha...so fast right??
amd that means...u are older den me again...
HAHA...
take care...
all e best...
matt and i will go mel one day to find u...
so,wait for us!!!
haha...
have a wonderful birthday...
^^
.Tuesday, June 24, 2008 ' 6/24/2008 09:19:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 217:
hmm...my chimpanzee friend said this when i complain something to him:
"Peilin is strong right?so..u can handle them"
haha...yaya...wad ever..he'll nvr understand anything...haha...cause..i'll nvr going to explain anything to him...waste my breath...
yup...started to view things from e other pt...maybe my IS grp members are "co-operative" enuf to make me angry..haha...bt...i found 1 gd pts in them...haha...i tink they will make a good fren...bcz..no matter how they quarrel...and how they humiliate each other infront of us,they are still so good and support each other...haha...and they are veri funny...their last min presentation in klaz is so damn funny...haha...i laugh like hell...i've nvr laugh like tis since i'm in NP...haha..bcz..all my classmates are so serious..they hardly joke...haha...ya...
hmm...maybe it's bcz i've get used to all e jokes said by my sec frens...and i'm used to laugh like hell...ya..so..haha...is good to laugh like hell once again..^^
yea...went out with grace,matt and quek...haha...went to eat long john for dinner..saw ebenzer pris and qiuling...den went to e arcade cz quek wanted to play...ya...as usual..i stand der and watch...haha...ya...den saw gloria...haha...TM i e most frequent hangout for all EV students...haha...maybe bcz...it's e nearest...haha...yea...den went to CS walk here and der..haha...cz..quek wanted to buy game...haha...yea...den accompanied grace to buy shoe..and i went home...haha...veri standard..LOL...
quek,me and grace...
grace and me...
matt and me...talking on e phone still wanna tk pic...haha..
yea...quek.matt,me and grace...haha...i'm nt leaning against to matt...haha...dun tink too much...
yea..another photo...
another photo...
haha...again....
ok...tt's quek finger....haha...
quek,me and grace...
me and grace...=D
quek,matt and grace..haha...GAY!!!quek's kissing matt!!!haha...jkjk..
.Sunday, June 22, 2008 ' 6/22/2008 03:20:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 216:
someone said this to me:
"once a clown,always a clown"...
yea...it seems tt...i'm still a clown...haha...hmm...maybe there's nth to be upset of...at least i'm a clown tt brings laughter..=D
很多事，慢慢的变成了过去。。现在。。此时此刻的我，至少，我可以笑着看过去。。=D
希望我将来也能笑着看现在的我。。。希望，我的朋友，都能开开心心的过他们的每一天。。=D
yesterday was reading my dairy...haha...many things i don't remember, reading it,makes me rmb alot of things...such as..who's e 1st person who help me tie my shoelace in school..who made me cry after scolding me and makes me feel guilty...ya...who accompanied me and encourage me during O lvl period..and who tried very hard to cheer me up everytime with diff types of methods...all this good memories...=D
i'll nvr forget=)
thanks to you..making my sec school life...happy and fun..=)
no matter if i'm looking back or looking forward...i'll smile...because wad i'll rmb is e good things..and all e bad things..i'll treat it as a learning experience...and...it's a good learning experience too=)
missing sec school life..=)
okay...today school re-open..nth much to say...ya...cz..veri tired...feel like slping...yea...dad came and fetch me home...bt...i reach home at ard 6..argh...i shld have went home my own..yea..*yawn*..
sian...tmr gt comt...haiz...tiring...
.Friday, June 20, 2008 ' 6/20/2008 08:54:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 215:
顺时针lyrics:
淋过雨的空气
疲倦了的伤心
静静收起的伞底
泪的痕迹渐渐退去
我一个人鼓起勇气
跟着时钟一格一格的前进
推开窗等待阳光
等待着清醒
我记忆里的童话
已经慢慢的溶化
爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间
曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强
时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风
慢慢顺时针遗忘
我一个人应该可以
想起爱过之前原来的自己
或许那样的天真我已经回不去
也许我懂得寂寞比相爱容易
我记忆里的童话
已经慢慢的溶化
爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间
曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强
时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风
慢慢顺时针遗忘
等到明天继续放晴
几乎忘记下过了雨
爱在心底留的签名
总会慢慢退去
疲倦了的伤心
静静收起的伞底
泪的痕迹渐渐退去
我一个人鼓起勇气
跟着时钟一格一格的前进
推开窗等待阳光
等待着清醒
我记忆里的童话
已经慢慢的溶化
爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间
曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强
时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风
慢慢顺时针遗忘
我一个人应该可以
想起爱过之前原来的自己
或许那样的天真我已经回不去
也许我懂得寂寞比相爱容易
我记忆里的童话
已经慢慢的溶化
爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间
曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强
时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风
慢慢顺时针遗忘
等到明天继续放晴
几乎忘记下过了雨
爱在心底留的签名
总会慢慢退去
yea...looking forward to ACJC'S band concert...haha...hmm...cause..i get to see my frens!!!haha...and i heard copyrights going too....haha...miss copyrights...haha...yea...cause they are always noisy...LOL..with kaijing and peijun...haha...and qiuling...yea...last time find them super noisy...bt nw...haha..miss all those noise...haha...cause..my klaz is so damn quiet...haha...i told sheikh tt my klaz is super quiet...den his 1st reaction is...den u sure miss me and jeevan right?haha...yea...i miss sheikh's lame and crazy jokes...haha...and i don't miss jeevan's jokes...cause he everytime call me clown...idiot...
online my old acct to check my mail...yea...den tt chimpanzee talk to me...haha...yea..i tink i no longer feel irritated when talking to him..only when he starts to talk abt e past..i starts to get irritated..because i really hate tt part...haha...yea..and he's still so lame...
he says"Peilin,you are not in court 1..you don't have to be so polite.."
i tink he've studied law until crazy already...haha...and...he's still e same...
maybe somebody will nvr change...sometimes,i envy them for not changing...they are still e person i know them few years ago...haiz...
随着时间的流逝，我释怀，我谅解，我原谅，我看开。。但，为何有一部分的我，想要会到过去？
时间，慢慢的磨去了我的想念，我的怨恨，我的伤心，我对某些事的感觉。。。但，为什么我还会感到不高兴？
.Wednesday, June 18, 2008 ' 6/18/2008 09:27:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 214:
hmm...went out with grace just nw...bt..something happen...yea...so...have to go back home...=P
yea...i can count myself lucky...haha...cz..if i'm unlucky...i shld be dead nw...haha...something jus nw came to my mind...den i was tinking while listening to music..den i nvr notice a car driving in...den suddenly i stop...luckily..de car stop also...phew...i guess...i'm lucky today..^^i tink if my sis read tis post..i'll killed by her...haha...she will forbid me to listen music while walking on e street..haha...and she will scold me as i still can laugh...haha...dun kill,scold and forbid me PLEASE~...i've learnt my mistake..
我真不了解自己。。以前我很。。。不可以算是讨厌，也不可以算是不喜欢他。。只是不想和他讲话。。但，我现在却能和他说笑。。我真的能把他当做朋友吗？？不知道，不明白。。不了解自己。。
昨天又说了个谎。。应该是因为是他的关系，才想说谎的。。。或许，等一下ming sheng online 我会向他说实话。。不知道。。或许而已，，哈哈。。
i'm in love with another old song...haha...顺时针...nice song...i like e lyrics...
.Tuesday, June 17, 2008 ' 6/17/2008 06:43:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 213:
this is a messy post...u guys dun have to read it..haha...is just a post abt smokers...
okay...was looking tru some1's blog...ya..reminds me of something...haha..actually is a bad thing...is abt cancer...haiz..y does ppl likes to smoke so much?!?i really don't understand at all...no matter how hard they wanted to quit smoking..they will start smoking again..DON'T UNDERSTAND AT ALL!!!
tt time my fren went for operation for his throat duno wad...den he called me after e operation...
i asked him "what happen to you?"..
and he jus say"smoke too much..so..throat gt duno wad thing need to go for operation.."..
i'm speechless...is like...they don't even think of their parents and start smoking...argh....after e operation..his health is really bad lor..is like..his immune system is getting weaker and weaker..everytime sms him..he's either heading to hospital or resting at house...haiz...i really duno wad to say him...bt...after his operation...is his bd...i rmb clearly wad he msg me back when i wish him happy birthday...and i'll always rmb...
why does every1 grow up after things happen?
.Monday, June 16, 2008 ' 6/16/2008 12:23:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 212:
everything seems to turn better and better..haha..i tink..i'm the only one that have not really moved on...HAHA..anyway..that's nt e main point...haha..actually there's no main pt also...haha..okay..i know...is lame....haha...i jus have nth better to do...i'm so bored!!!!!
matthew tong...u veri BHB...haha...say fiona's blog gt 1 hadsome guy pic...=_=...fiona...delet tt pic..haha...
meeting grace tis wed...haha...den lee cheng teck say he need go see doc...cant come...=(...i sad....haha...wanted t0 see his long hair how long...haha..miss him...*vomit*...haha...so long nvr see him le...actually cant say miss la...haha..is just nt used to it la...last time..hmm...he's one of e guy tt keeps talking to me..and sabo me kana sekhar scolding...haha...actually...he kana scolding more den me...haha..bt..my a maths so lan...he shld hold some responsibilities....HAHA...jkjk...
blah blah blah blah......
argh...so boring.................
blah blah blah blah......
argh...so boring.................
.Sunday, June 15, 2008 ' 6/15/2008 02:39:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
1. I am a girl.
2. I love men
3. I love to eat!!! but i hate to be fat.
4. I love to take pics of clouds and sea.
5. I love to eat lots and lots of ice cream when i'm nt in good mood.
6. I love to laugh
7. I love to be around with people who always make me laugh and make myself crazy.
8. I love my friends.
9. I love to listen to music.
10. I'm crazy sometimes.
11. I don't even know what kind of person i am...maybe crazy?duno..haha..
12. I love to listen to people.
13. I love to help people..bt..sometimes,i really hate this part of me.
14. My words are louder than action.
15. I love winter.
16. The person i hate e most is myself.
17. I'm not brave enough for some reason.
18. I love listening people playing music,bt i don't like to play...HAHA...
19. I'm not a good person as all my friends thinks i am.=p
20. I'll rmb all e good and bad things my friend treats me and i'll forget veri easily unless e person really makes me rmb with all sorts of method.
.Saturday, June 14, 2008 ' 6/14/2008 06:36:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 211:
haha...seems that...i nvr stop blogging...haha...tink i'm addicted to it le la...plus...i have nth better to do during e holidays...dun feel like studying...haiz...den like no nice drama let me watch liao....=(
hmm..yesterday went out do project with fiona..den ask matt along..haha...cz..he suddenly msg me early in e morn to ask me out...den i long time nvr see him le..so...haha...ask him along..yea...den went back home together...haha...is like usual la..we keep bickering...haha...seems that nth have change at all...feels better to see him...haha...den..we are talking abt e past..yea..is good to talk abt the past..bt nt brood over the past...yea..going for his ACJC band concert..haha..missed e 1st concert..he wants to kill me..so..have to go for this coming concert...yea...quek promise to go with me...so..if he PS me...i'll kill him too...haha...
hmm...my cousin seems t be surprise that i'm still in touch with me pri school frens...haha...ya...is good to KIT with them...at least u know wad are they doing nw...haha...yea...
actually...found out that...close frens during school period does nt means that we'll still keep contact with each other...see ar..during sec...every1 thinks that i'm very close with jess and kitty..so,we MUST contact each other...and nw...haha..we seldom contact each other..every1 was like asking me..where's jess during e class gathering...haha...den my onli ans is DUNO...bt...i've been keeping in contact with friends that other ppl will think that i'll nvr stay in contact after finsh sec school life...haha...one good example is nelson...haha...yesterday...was chatting with matt...den he seems to be amazed that i'm still in contact with him...haha...even nelson that idiot thinks that i'll 4get him...haha...yesterday when i online..ask me a stupid qn...haha...feel like bashing him up...i gt heart one ok?!?..haha...
to jian le...help u edit le..nvr see u online..so..u get from my blog bah...
过去虽然不能再回头
过去虽然不能在从演
我或多或少知道答案
虽然不知答案是否真确
至少，这是我心中的答案
今天，看见你的那一刻
不知为何，心跳会加速
时间倒带
仿佛回到和你在一起的时候
那些日子，是我最珍惜的
那些日子，我是真心的
真心的想和你永远在一起
这个烙印，会随着时间而慢慢淡去吗？
我对你的思念会随着时间而慢慢淡忘吗?
.Wednesday, June 11, 2008 ' 6/11/2008 07:34:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 210:
看着朋友的blog...感觉上。。他们应该现在活得很好吧。。至少没有我，他们活得更开心了。。就拿莫人来说吧。。以前，她老是埋怨。。埋怨着，为什么，每个人有事，总是找我来解决问题。。没有找过她。。现在没有我的存在，她应该很高兴吧。。至少，她新认识的朋友不会来找我。。看着他们那么高兴。。一边很替他们高兴。。另一边却感到失落。。但，这也不能怪任何人。。是我先有要离开他们的念头。。现在他们独立，或依赖别人的时候。。我不能说什么。。应该可以说，我是咎由自取吧。。是我先感到厌烦的。。去年发生的事，是我不能负荷的。。应该是报应吧。。三年前发生的事。。应该是老天爷给我的报应吧。。。让我，看清楚。。
或许，以前太过依赖你了。。所以现在，我没有办法这么快的忘记和你一起发生过的点点滴滴。。。
或许，一直以来，都是我在依赖你。。
或许，你从来没有依赖过我。。
应该是我想太多了吧。。
应该，你对我的了解，比我对你的了解深，但，你却从不表示。。
或许，我们，不会在联络了。。
因为，以我对你的了解。。和我对我自己的了解。。
我们，都会选者不再联络。。
世界上好多或许和应该。。。但，没有人，会给你一个实际的答案。。
这个世界就是这样。。我了解到了。。你了解到了吗？
.Tuesday, June 10, 2008 ' 6/10/2008 09:30:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 209:
407 CLASS GATHERING!!haha...at...T3...LOL...funny sia...1st time in T3...for me...haha...bt...we like tourist sia...haha...walking ard and ard after we had our lunch...ya...den when shazana told me that she still keep my letter and e small little thing i made for them...i was realli happy..at 1st..i tot..i wun meet them up ever again..bcz..i would nt want to...bt...haha...although i meet up with them...the simplest word made me so touched...tnx shazana and azillah..love u guys much!!!haha...den we went to e viewing mall...den blah blah blah...haha
shazana and me=D
azillah and me=D
haha...1 family photo without matt...haha...
went to pasir ris park after tt...WOOTS!!!we rent a bicycle...den neroshaa longbang me...haha...cz...as u guys know..i duno how to ride...so..we rent e bicycle that 2 person can ride de...haha...1st time ride on a bicycle ever since duno when...haha...is so damn fun...yea...den rest at e end of e beach..den we chit chat...ya...den...i've gtg...so...we cycle back...and neroshaa change e bicycle...yea...quite fun la...haha...
neroshaa and shazana
sheikh idding pass me...haha...
sheikh teaching azillah how to ride a bike...haha...
neroshaa and me...=D
haha...while taking a break...i'm walking ard to tk pics...haha...
i love tis pic...haha...
haha..i love tis pic too..^^
以前的我，伤心和难过的时候，至少会有人懂。。
但，现在的我，连自己也不认识，伤心事，应该没人懂吧。。
突然想到，以前，伤心时，有人会为了逗我笑，讲一大堆冷笑话给我听或扮鬼脸给我看。。
有人会了解我到知道我只需要一个微笑。。。
有人会说“借你我的肩膀！^^”。。
有人知道我需要的是安静。。带我离开课室。。
现在，不会有人在做这些事了。。
现在，不管有多少委屈，也不懂要和谁说。。
人生，应该是这样吧。。
好想念以前。。
为什么没有好好珍惜？？
.Monday, June 09, 2008 ' 6/09/2008 08:27:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 208:
直到昨天为止。。我才了解。。勇敢和坚强是成正比的。。
以前的我，一直认为，坚强是坚强，勇敢是勇敢。。他们是成正比的。。
但现在的我，了解到，我们需要勇气来坚持着我们的想法。。才能坚强。。
以前的我，错了。。。
错在，我不够勇敢去向前走。。不够坚强到最后一秒。。。
.Sunday, June 08, 2008 ' 6/08/2008 03:11:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 207:
last fri celebrate fiona's birthday with her...haha...yea...den went to watch kungfu panda...ya..although is a comedy....it reminds me of something that i've given up on...maybe i'm right..maybe i'm wrong...who knows??haha...no1 knows...because "FUTURE IS A MYSTERY!!"haha...have been listening to e same song over and over again...
here's e lyrics:
还记得吗
窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗
是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空
渐渐阴霾
心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
有好多话想说，但，说不出口。。
有好多东西想写，但，不懂得怎么表达或懒得表达。。
有时候，真像结束一切。。。但，不舍得。。
人都是矛盾的。。我也不例外。。。
我想回到过去，不是因为想要改变任何事。。。
而是想要知道，如果在党下，我能勇敢一点。。
事情的发展也许会“不一样”。。
我想要知道的是那“不一样”。。会是怎样的。。
看着每个人，都朝着自己的梦想往前一步，有点失落。。
因为，与此同时，我离我的梦想也更远了。。
但，我能做什么吗？
这是我的决定。。
我也只能硬着头皮。。走向前。。
不管未来等着我的是什么。。
我也不会怪任何人。。
因为，这是我的选择。。
我的选择时，让我的周围的人好过一点。。。
辛苦一点，也未必不是一件坏事。。
竟然，怎么说都没有结果。。
我选择沉默。。。
放弃我的梦想。。。
.Thursday, June 05, 2008 ' 6/05/2008 03:44:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
pics!!!
there's florence,me,gina,ronney,kaixian(fiona's bro),fiona,frec and kenric...
ronney,fiona at e back..florence and me at e front...
haha...playing cards!!!
another grp photo..
haha...say cheeze...
walking in e middle of e road...haha...gina is posing...haha...
went to duno where to eat during e 2hr break...erm...there's grace from e right hand side..florence beside her..waynne in front of florence...frec beside waynne..and yasser,shariff,kenric...hafiz..me...ronney...aloysius...khairul...and gina...haha...so many ppl...LOL...
see how 'large' is gina's lunch...haha...actullly she also duno so big la...den when tis plate is serve..we all"WHA!"...HAHA...
den we played lots of game der...haha...alot of game..den all e game makes me feel tt i'm stupid...=(
in e bus...
macs!!!
guess who use so many tissue paper?haha..is nt me...haha...
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