LosT DAiRy ChPt 85:

wad hurts mi e most??i hurt most wen all my beloved friends think out different methods to hurt themselves..tt hurts mi most...i realli dun wan to see my friends to hurt themselves..i will be veri sad n heart broken..pls..dun do tt to urself..i realli dun want to see u all hospitalise jus bcuz u all hurt urself...seeing friends dun believe each other...tt hurts mi...if u are my FRIEND..pls believe mi once more...if u tink u are e person im talking abt...believe is e word i want...this week happen to many things...i wanted to know the truth..but usually..the truth are hurting..how i wish e truth is nt e truth..in tt way..my friends will b happily living together..bt nt being so emo n despo..friends are always there to help..if u realli cant tink of ani solution..pls...dun hurt urself..there's always a thing call friends to hear all your problems..dun think all those funni funni stuff to hurt urself...PLEASE!!!

im so sad right nw..everything goes wrong in this year..

LOSt daiRy chpT 84:

herm..jus came bck frm rehearsal..sob sob...jiayi sit so far frm mi..so lonely..hy n hkh sure talk their own self..dun care mi de..actually i also no mood to care abt them..duno y..suddenly have no topic to talk to them...at least last time they crap wif mi..i will crap bck wif them..bt today..duno y..they crap wif mi..i either say a few words..or i jus smile to them..haiz...duno how to say la..so fan!!haiz...i duno how to say..bt..i realli dun feel like thinking aniting right nw..is like..all my thoughts are messing mi up...i cant identify wad's right..what's wrong..i totally duno..ya..wen im tinking something..dun cum n disturb..coz..i sure will give u a veri black face...ya there's alot of ppl i need to thank today...lol..thanks to matt n jon ong to accompany until 4.30..haha..each of them accompany mi for 1hr...den in between is wif kitty n yi xin..jess is wif berlinda...so..she's nt wif us...den...i also must thank kitty n grace for their understanding...haha...if they get to see...they will know it..so..i dun have to elaborate...haha...den veri worried wif alot of things...i duno how to solve them..haiz...mayb tt's e problem y im in such a bad mood..duno y..just feel veri hurt by alot of things...sad...n also thanks to ming sheng for e "plesant" concern abt "y u so diff when u are in blog n in school.."haha...tis qn stunt mi...although jess ask mi alot of time...bt even nw..i cant find e ans yet..n ming sheng ask mi e same qn too..haha...i tink i shld tink wad i shld write on blog..like tt ppl will den tink im e same mi...bt..fake...muhahahahaha...

lOsT DAiRY ChPt 83:

tis week is a relationship strained week...every1 ard mi including was like being strained...i duno...im jus damn pissed off..sorry to jun wei n wichen...im just damn pissed off wen u 2 jus called mi..n plus e purpose of calling mi is to ply...i realli cant stand it..im already no mood u 2 still play...i jus duno how to do...im caught in alot of situation...how i wish im nt in skool tis week...if i didn't cum...i mayb much much more happy...coz..i will nt get into tt kind of situation..i jus duno wad to do..m i just finding tings for myself to do..being a big stupid KPO...or....i realli duno..i jus know tt..im pissed off..n im extremly angry...angry abt myself..n everything...can't everything jus go as normal...y must there b so mani tings??i realli duno..i duno wad will i do wen i cant hold it animore..wad will i do??will i want to see wad will happen to myself wen i cant hold it animore??isit e kind of mi tt i have wanted myself to be??i just hate tis world so much...i jus hate myself so much..i jus hate tis thing call relationship...no matter is wad kind of relationship..i jus hate...coz..they are beyond my control..i realli dun wad to do...wad to say..so..i choose to stay silent for something...if i dun say aniting..maybe..i could avoid something...i duno..i duno..i jus simply dun understand...


PS:thanks to matt..he knows i feel down..so he send mi tis link..hope tt...u guys can have a look on it...http://www.clementsen.com/email/friendship.php

losT dAIry chPt 82:

so boring...dun feel like doing hw...duno y..maybe it's because i need to finish the a maths practice paper tt mr sehkar gave to us...plus e maths paper...hai..i shld have done it earlier...haiz..mrs moraes so funny yesterday..she ask me to buck up on my eng because it is not as good as jeevan...haha...i must be thinking too much...how could i be possible be like jeevan??haha...den she still ask me not to be satisfied wif my result...this is not like what she will talk to me...haha...maybe she really thinks that my english is bah...sob sob...herm...somehow still in holiday mood...haha...but at least i start to do homework that mr sehkar give...haha...o ya..

lOST DaiRY chpT 81:


haha..today took abt 10 min to open e visking tube..haha...so diff..luckily..wif e help of jess...i manage nt to b e last 1 to open it...our last 1 is...SHEIKH!!!haha...den..start to do hw le...coz..finally wake up..tnx to matthew...keep reminding how mani days left to O level..-_-..haha..i sound like nt so happy wif e reminder...haha..den congrats to klaz 407 to b e champion of e interactive game,pictionary n TABOO...haha...i tink our klaz have e most champion...tnx to cindy,jeron, gloria(interactive game),nazreen,shakilah,waheeda(pictionary),shazana,azzilah n e onli guy..matthew for taboo...haha...bt wen they announce e winner..our klaz so "hyperactive"..coz..onli e ppl frm e bck clap e hands..ppl infront like stone like tt...haha...pictures taken during e SP...picture taken frm gloria...tnx...

tnx to jeevan..coz he's e 1 taking e pic..so..he's nt in e pic..

another photo..

a close up...haha..

my klaz boi tot dey saw superman sia..jeevan own der slpin..n e 2 gays in our klaz "hugging" each other...haha...

lOSt DAIrY CHPt 80:



jus get back frm e gardinia trip..haha..quite fun la..fun in a way tt..our klaz boys are so....dots..especially kah beng...haha..wen we get there...e ppl have a talk wif us..den she say tt e breads tt are unsold will b sold to specific farms for e animals...den kah beng ask y nt e orphanage..den e ppl say..coz dey deserve fresh breads rather den unsold bread..den..kah beng clap his hands n say veri good..so dots leh...make us so paisei...den he n farhan n vicky down der making lots of funni remarks..after e talk..we watch a video..n have a tour in e factory..wen we step out of e room..e smell of e bread is so nice..omg...haha...den walk ard abt 15 min bah..den we get bck n eat breads..haha...den we were given a packet of bun..den wen we go bck..kah beng acting stupid...haha...no offence..e put on e safety belt..den i tink is jeron ask him y he put on e safety belt...den he say..ltr we tio accident..e onli surviver will b him...haha...so stupid lor...we will nt die de...haha...den sheikh took a pic of him putting on his safety belt...den it is a long jpurney bck to skool...
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see..act innocent..tnx to sheikh..i have evidence tt kah beng act "cute"..coz he say he dun like ppl tt act cute...bt he admire ppl hu are born to b cute,which mean himself la..coz after saying tt..he give mi a stupid face,like tt...omg....i wanna puke...haha...jkjk...miss cheng/mrs tan is e best..coz..she keep taking us go diff place..haha...tt's her bckview..haha..she's a good teacher..as she knows how to interact wif us...haha...she still take songs frm wei jin's hp..veri weird teacher...bt we love her...haha...



Oguri Shun as hanazawa rui in hana yori dango..haha...he look e best in F4...haha..although mani ppl will disagree wif mi..coz dey will say doumyouji looks better..haha..


hana yori dango season 1...haha...i watch finish both season 1n2...haha...nice...

LOST DaiRY ChPt 79:

went for e bio immersion yst..den today will b another 15ppl of our klaz going..coz onli 25 ppl per session...so..i went for e yst de..actualy tot it will b veri veri n extremly boring like tt time e sci centre..bt..quite diff la..mayb coz we have fun plyin wif e equipment...den they provide us free mac breakfast..muhaha...den our klaz bois hor..haiz...wen they say e girls in SP came to fetch us frm e venue where we suppose to meet...they walk so fast sia..nvr see them walk so fast b4...1st time in my life..seeing our klaz bois walking infront...even mrs tan also like tt say them lor...haha...den onli left 2 bois behind..e onli 2 bois nt intrested in joinging e "crowd"..which is matt n marvin..haha...e both of them like duno wad happen...coz both of them was there talking with nerrosha n ranjetha...haha...den e video is sooooooooooooooo...yuks...seeing ppl with those infectious disease..make mi vomit..bt after a while..i feel so boring..i was going to fell asleep...den luckily..e video is over...den here comes our mac..luckily i still have e mood to cont eat after seeing those yukks video..after e mac..we went for hands-on practicle..we do do do...frm 10 plus do until 12 plus...after everything...went to IMM with cindy they all...so far...den i reach home reaching 5..haha...must b wondering y we can shop until so long right??haha...den came home..use computer...sian...den today morn wake up...do e maths paper 1...took 1hr 25 min to do..bt gt 1 qn nvr do la..duno how to do...haha...den slack again...haha...i ahve been slacking la...denw ent to youtube n find MV...hope u all enjoy e previous MV...enjoy this 2 too...


i love tis song..jess n wichen say tis song veri sad...bt..i still love it..


TANK!!!jess ask mi cao ge n tank i will choose hu..my ans is TANK!!!wei jin have e same ans as mine..hehe...=Dveri nice song...fei ni mo shu...

lOST DaiRy ChPt 78:

herm..jus wanna feel happy..jus wanna smile frm e bottom of my heart jus like e old mi...bt..is veri hard..haiz...tnx to my frens concern..i will try veri hard to get myself out of all tis tings n b e same old mi..hu act like a siao(tnx to wichen for reminding mi tt im a crazy person last time)...haha..ya..tis is a real laugh..im realli laughing wen i saw wichen say tt i act like siao last time..which reminds mi..how happy i was last time...putting something down is to make myself happy..bt..it seems tt..letting something in my mind go..is making myself more unhappier..does tt mean tt i have to take up tt ting again??sorting up all my tots..hoping tt..i can realli get bck to my old self...i promise all my frens tt..i will b myself again...e SIAO 1...haha...today..tan lao shi talk abt blogging..hacker..n of coz..internet...haha..so..trying nt to blog so much now adays..must learn frm everything i read..haha..den tan lao shi is preparing for our oral..she teach until veri mushy...omg...gt four cycle..haha..bt..nw rmb..duno wen they are testing us..we will rmb nt..haha...god bless us..god bless u...hope tt..all my frens will sty happy...dun get so troubled..n jia you for O levels which is 233 more days...haha..den e chi de..hehe..80++ days...couting down...JIA YOU!!!

LOST daiRy chpT 77:

haiz...is it wrong to know other's psople secret??mayb i shld jus keep everything to myself..ya..i say already..im nt going to explain aniting..bt..if i dun explain..will they understand??i duno wad to do..explain n dun explain..mayb i shld tink carefully..ya..mayb i shld onli explain to those hu i want them to understand..others...u understand..i appreciate ur understanding..to those who dun understand..i also dun wish to explain...coz..i understand...no matter wad i say..it dosen't goes into ur brain..u have already made ur own conclusion..so..i shld nt change..although it mayb wrong at times...i already start to hate myself again...i dun wish to hate myself more n ask myself to avoid something jus bcoz of u...bt..since u are my friend..i shld onli say tt..if u are nt happy for my presence..i will nt appear infront of u when it is possible..if tt's wad u want..i will do it..i already trying veri hard to avoid le..jus bcoz to avoid...i have lie..lie to my friend..i realli dun want to lie to her...bt i will explain to her...so..mayb it's time for mi to tink on myself if i shld realli going to explain...

lOsT DAiRY ChPt 76:

herm...came bck frm skool...haiz..i pass my a maths!!!woots!!den yst went to buy puzzle frame from puzzle to do e puzzle tt guan leong n wichen bought for mi during frenship day..den met e "intro plz"..haha...see le i wan vomit...wen go bck do finish den find tt there's a missing piece..so..i have to go bck to puzzle world again...(P.S:i dun mind wichen go n help mi go bck to puzzle world again..haha..coz is he buy de ma...)haiz...i tink tis yr is e yr tt i keep going to puzzle world bah...haiz...thu gt e EVSS idol..dots leh...all nt nice de..onli 1 nice..which is e grp of 2 bois n 1 girl..nice..o ya..n another frm 502 de..tt 1 also nt bad...haha...next wk still gt...den marvin is in it...so...we must support n vote for him...haha...quite bias..coz he my fren den i vote...bt he realli sing veri well...today...he sing e song to cindy to cheer her up...nt bad..although i know tt his singing is good a long time ago..haha..so lets vote for him...hehes...im a little bit crazy now adays...so..dun care abt mi..n ya..check frm guan leong le..he say he realli wan go join campus superstar..den still say mr imram say tt..he gt e talent n looks...haha...quite true la..bt..i dun tink he will go lor..haha...trying to avoid being a middleman..coz..it realli sux to b a middleman...cant offend ani1...mus b veri careful...help!!!im so blur..how can i nt offend ani1...haiz..so..better nt to b a middleman...den today jess late for skool..den matt accompany mi in e carpark..haha...he entertain mi by saying e words in e IRP article loudly...haha...tnx ar...den interupting mi to read..in e end..i nvr read finish...actually can finish de..is jus tt dun wish to do e reflection sheet so read until e 3rd page..which i tot is e last page..i stop...den left 30s den i found out tt there's page 4..bt..nt enough time to read le...so..haiz...counting down 233 days for my O level..haiz..good luck to mi...gt some videos..enjoy...



tis is e song whenever yang chen lin is unhappy...hsu wei lun will ask her to sing tis song to her..veri touching...haiz...

lOsT dAIrY ChPt 75:


herm..i can onli say...sometimes..things cannot b seen tru our eyes..sometimes..we need to use our heart to feel m understand..den u will know e truth..alot of times..even though e things tt i heard mayb wrong..e truth will always b shown tru e eyes...mani times..i can see..n i choose nt to see..bt i still see it..n wen i see it..there will b alot of qn in my mind..which i dun feel like going to look for e ans...things tt i dun explain..is jus tt..i wish tt..u can understand by ur heart...understand mi..bt..y cant u jus understand..e truth don't realli lies on wad u see n hear..when i dun explain..is i hope tt u can understand..realli understand...bt..till nw..no1 have understand..if tt's wad u tink of mi or wad..i realli dun feel like explaining animore..im tired of explaining..explaining to e whole world..is either u believe in mi..or dun..i will nt explain all my actions frm nw on..if u want to know..jus ask ur heart tt u wan believe mi for wad i do..if dun believe..jus dun believe..i dun care animore..it is useless for mi to explain...im sick n tired of it...dun ask mi aniting..all i need nw is trust...

i have been listening to a song sang by zhang wei jian..chao ren,superman...nt e chao ge de...i love e lyrics..ya...

having a long sleep now..please wake mi up when the world is not that awful and ugly...thanks...

Peilin

[#] SiS
[#] MinZ
[#] pInG YInG
[PRPS] ChE YeE
[PRPS] FelIcIa
[PRPS] KAr yEe
[PRPS]JiaN LE
[EV] ciNDY
[EV]grace
[EV] jEss
[EV] maTtHew
[EV] MaRvIn
[EV] JOnATHan QUeck~jie mEi
[EV] NELsoN
[EV] YaN
[EV] jeFfRey
[EV] JiA yI
[EV] JOEy
[EV] peI jUaN
[EV] Si qIn/SI qi
[EV] GLoRIa
[EV] kITty
[EV] PrISciLLA
[EV] Yi XiN
[EV]cHeVaLyn
[EV]PRIsCIlla foO
[EV]DaRryL loW
[EV]vICKy
[EV]JEeVan
[EV]juLy
[EV]JoNAtHan OnG
[EV]FeDeRIck
[EV]wI cHen
[EV]amIRa
[NP]AVT07
[NP]AVT08
[NP]AVT-V21
[NP]sOnG keAt
[NP]rONnEy
[NP]fiOna
[NP]hAI XIn
[NP]wArdah
[NP]CheNg zHIA
[NP]GiNa[NP] FLORENCE
[NP] gaRy
[NP] NiCoLe
[NP] kieN ChyE