LOst dAIry CHPt 167:

男跟女之间，到底有没有纯友谊？？
对于这个话题，我认为，男和女之间，是由纯友谊的。。所以，不要太偏激。。不要认为，男和女之间之容得下爱情！友谊也可以的。。。

haiz...有时候，真的感觉好无奈啊！救命！我快疯了。。有时候，真不知道自己想怎样。。好烦啊！烦烦烦烦烦烦烦！好烦！

jus now talk to cindy..haha..den 耍了别人。。刚刚其实很担心的。。但，还好有cindy 的帮忙。。哈哈。。现在，我有两条路让我走。。因为告诉那个“别人”我想看另外两个人的反应。。因此。。“别人”现在要耍另外两个人。。但，现在，我有两条路，一，是联合“别人”去耍那两个人，或者，告诉另外两个人“别人”在想什么。。从中，耍“别人”。。我该选哪一个？？咳。。我看，我还是当个旁观者吧（哈哈，想出鬼点子的我，想当旁观者。。哈哈。。少惹些事情微妙。。哈哈。。全部都是“别人”做的。。不管我的事。。。=p）

lOSt daiRy cHpt 166:

yesterday went to bugis with grace..cause i want to buy bag..hehe...den bought a bag in bugis street..den after that...went to eat swensen's..yummy!!!haha...i love swensen's...haha...deb after our lunch..we walk to suntec city..1st..we went to e popular...den went to e psychology book section..read a few pages about how our memory works..haha...if i read tis book earlier..maybe..i can rmb more points for my geog and score well for my humans...haiz...oh ya...bought a star from a guy..say tt it would help them on their graduate project..so..help him buy a star for $1.

.haha..so expensive...haha...but..i also wan ppl to help me when i need help on my graduation thing..so..积点应得。。lol...grace also bought 1 star..lol..den went to sit at e children area..cause my foot hurt!!!haha..so pain..so..we took pics there...den talk and laugh abt alot of things..

ya..den stay there almost 2 hrs..den walk ard a while..go home..cause...hehe....i wanna go back...ya..ok..that will be it..nth to say le...

good lucks!

lOst dAIry CHpT 165:

哈-哈。。昨晚，梦到他。。很好笑的事，我梦到的画面本来是学校礼堂。。然后，就走到了一个角落，但，我很确定的事，哪个角落，不是我们学校。。像往常一样，他问了我许多问题。。我也像往常一样，解释给他听。。或许，太想回到从前。。梦，也回到了从前。。哈哈。。梦到他跟我说他的女朋友和他吵架（现在的话，应该是前女友了）。。问我他该怎么办。。。typical...haha...

haiz..just nw chat with cindy...haha..we are talking abt childish person...so idiot sia...haha...anyway..great mind thinks alike...haha...mi and cindy thinks the same way...hehe..today..proposal daisakusen sp will be aired in jap..i think within tis week..i can watch e sp..den next week is attention please special..haha...i love special..haha..

lOSt daIry cHpT 164:

有很多时候，释怀了后，面对时的感觉也会不一样。也许，这种感觉是你想不到你会有的。。哈-哈。不是吗？

咳。。因为时间的流逝。。渐渐的。。我忘了很多事情。。忘了，为什么我不喜欢对家人说出心里话和真话。。忘了，怎么把自己给找回来。。咳。。*无奈*

现实生活里，又太多的无可奈何。。咳。。毕竟，现实是残酷的。。因此，我们得在逆境中，找到属于自己解决问题的方式。。不管有多少得无可奈何，也可以获得快乐~吧。。。*又是无奈*。。

haha...actually tmr going for orientation camp...but,ha-ha,don't feel like going...too tired le...lol...how come i'm tired??i everyday stay at home..where gt tired de...haha...lol...of course tired la...nth to do..sian den lead to tired..haha..thinking back...alot of things happen for a reason...haha...hai...that's all...don't realli have anything to say...

lOsT DAirY cjPt 163:

=((food poisoning...sob sob...stomach veri pain...haha..that's wad happen past few days..haha..nw my stomach feel much more better..=)haiz..my com spoil!!!now using my old com..more lag..haiz..headache...sob sob...so slow!!!!haha..anyway..herm...ppl ard mi keep on reminding me that school is opening...haiz..i know la...dun need to remind me...haiz...sad sia..tink of e 1st day...haiz...alone...haiz...*lonely*..haha...darryl low going to e same school as me..bt diff course...haiz..i tot i'll nt see him again sia...haha...dun feel like seeing...=p..haha...no la..jk...i rather see him den go TP and see lots and lots of ppl that i dun wish to see again in my life...erm...like veri kua zhang hor....say until like that...anyway..i'm tking french for IS...aaron is taking french too...eh..that's wad he told me...bt nt sure if he wants to change cause..he says that he wants to tk chi since his chi is bad...haha...funny right tis guy??chi...siao sia...haha..jus hope when in the nwe school..he dun "meow" here "meow" there..haha...anyway...hai..actually..i don't mind to be in a new environment..i'm just dun like e "lonely" feeling...haiz...let rmb sec1...haiz..dun like e feeling..=(

lOsT DaIRY ChpT 162:

OMG!!!i'm broke...no money...=((..cause lent my money in my bank to my uncle..haiz..he says he want to do business...so..my mum ask to to lend her money to lend my uncle...so..in short...i'm lending my money to my uncle..and i'm broke!!!haiz...

monday went to NP with grace...cause i need to do some stupid colour vision test...haha..guess wad??we alight at e wrong bus stop..haha..we alight at SIM...for ur info...SIM is right next to NP...so..grace and i walk to NP..and there's 3 idiot..haha..alight from at e wrong bus stop and follow us walk to NP...haha....and i have perfect colour vision...whahaha...lol...den after tt...went to check the notebook...haha...so scary e ppl in NP...haha..den there's a guy call Paul..gave me his hp number..say..if gt any question abt e notebook den call him...haha...so funny...i dun have any question...bt...since he gave mi e number...i shall tnx him la...haha...cause i dun have a problem..but my mum has...so..she called him..haha...so funny...LOL..ya...den grace and i waited at e bus stop for e bus to come...we waited veri long sia...den at last...e bus we waiting went off 2 times...haiz...den reach AMK hub...den grace went to do her giro thing..after doing her giro thing...that stupid lee zheng de still on his way to AMK...so...grace and i went to eat mac...after eating...cheng teck den come...haha...bt he cant find us...and he is good in scarying mi...cause when i turn my head...i saw his face right beside mi...haha...den we went to NYP...whao..NYP is nice...gt escalator...haha...gt lift,escalator and staircase...haha...good right??lol...i',m so tired sia..cause NYP is so big...and we walk here and there to finish their enrolment...after they finish their enrolment...we went to tm to watch movie...haha..bt..something funny happen..haha...wen took e wrong train...at city hall...we suppose to take e train towards pasir ris..bt..we took e train towards boon lay...haha..2nd time...everytime go out with e 2 of them..end up taking wrong train...haha...den we "safely reach tm..den bought movie tickets...eh...wad's e movie name??eh..forgotten..onli know is e elephant movie..haha...ya...after e movie..went back home...my legs are aching...i wonder why everytime go out with cheng teck and grace..my legs will end up aching...haiz...tiring!!!haha

den yesterday...was reading EVSS student handbook...haha..veri bo liao i know..but..while reading through..all e words in my handbook..brought back alot of memories...

this is wad matt wrote on my handbook on e day when cindy left singapore: Smile,don't be sad,she will move on and so you can too.believe her,don't cry,don't fret,cause she will always be here with you and in your heart...ya...this is wad matt wrote..haha..tis is wad matt is..a great fren..haha...that's why..i can be frens with him so long...haha...must thank matt alot alot...cause..whenever i'm nt in a good mood..he'll always be by my side...haha...yea..and spend his recess time with me..haha...

i wrote many in the handbook...haha...all in chi...lol..开场白越美丽，越动人，最终话就越伤感。。
and this is e last thing i wrote inside my handbook:为什么人与人只见的信任会那么的可怕。。为什么，既是信任的人，也会变到那么的恐怖。。每件事的发生，都让我深信我所做的决定是对的，因为，这样，应该是对自己的解脱。。

lol..reading tru every single words that i wrote in e handbook..made me hate this world..haha..but some words...really gave me some good memory in 2007...at least...is ok to me..although last yr is horrible..but..haha..realli need to thanks friends that realli accompany me..herm..of course in e name list gt matthew and cindy...haha...i'll nvr ever 4get tis 2 names..den still gt azillah and shazana..in e staircase of nazreen's house,void deck of nazreen's house and of course outside classroom..and alot alot...guan leong..haha..maybe he duno..haha..but..thanks to him..when ever i'm sad..he seems to appear and some how make me laugh by saying some funny things...and of course federick..haha...everytime i boring or wad ever..haha..will sms him...haha...=p thanks grace..for listening to me...cheng teck..haha..acting infront of me..saying and doing stupid things to entertain me..haha..i'm immune to ur sweet talks le cheng teck!!..haha...R.M..thanks for making me laugh by doing all e funny faces...haha...plus that time u still having lesson...haha..thanks alot..and also ask mi if i'm ok before O lvl paper start and end...haha...and concerning if my dad still blames me on losing my hp..and also before u leave spore and come back to spore...=D..herm...anymore..let me think...panda kor..haha...he understand e frenship between matt and me..so..haha..i think..he slowly changing his view to matt..haha...ya..thanks to him also...whenever like i'm in a bad mood..he suay suay sms me..den i'll like..talk to him in a veri bad attitude...haha...cause we are one of a kind..so..he'll understand..haha...ya..i think that's all bah..those who help mi but also did some bad things like that idiot guy..i'll nt mention..haha...i think that's all for ppl who i wanna thanks...=))

lOSt DaiRY chpT 161:

few days ago...receive e orientation camp letter from ngee ann...haiz...i'm not sure if i wanted to go..cause...if i go..i'll be alone...but..if i don't go,i'll nt meet new ppl...haiz...is a 4days and 3night camp...shld i go??i wonder if i can overcome the loneliness there...haiz...jeevan that idiot asked me to go...he's such an idiot...business is over...and..i don't have to listen to wad he say...haiz...although there's some part of what he say is true..but...somehow...hai...haven made any decision yet...

haha..as usual...watching jdrama...haha....seems that i everyday do the same thing until my friends know what i'm doing...haha...yesterday federick called mi...den he say everyday..i'm either watching tv,watching programmes online and use computer...i have nothing to do...haha..erm...i agree to certain extent...haha...why i sound like doing ss??hai...miss school..mis my schoolmates..miss doing homework...haha...i must be mad...just now watching dragon zakura...haiz...sad sia..last time some of the maths qn..i can easily ans it...but..somehow..my brain turns faulty....haha...i think that's because i haven touch any book since O level finish...oh..got...when i'm teaching guan leong some chem qn..i did touch some of my notes...bt...haha...if nw ask mi those easy science qn..i may nt be able to ans...unless there's notes beside mi..and let mi tink..where's my notes.....erm...maybe somewhere in the recycling bin...haha...and for science notes...some will be with guan leong...ya....haha...

haha...after watching so many jdrama...somehow...i wonder...why i don't have childhood friend...haha...funny idea...it jus came across my mind...haha...cz...it seems that...childhood friends are those who understand u better than anyone...who u can rely on when u are in bad mood...cause is childhood friends...we understand each other...haha...but too bad...i don't have...haha...eh...actually...there's one...but...unfortunately...haha...he moved to sengkang...ya...is during pri3 right??i tink so...haha...ya...my childhood friend...haha...but...we don't really know each other now...haha...remember...is that idiot who pass mi e "chicken pox"...cause when he's sick..i still play with him...haha...when e both of us gt...haha...luckily we keep each other accompany...ya...but...he is much more clever den mi...so...we are always in different class...haha...ya...so funny...haha...i still remember....when i'm still a small kid..i don't like to lose...so..whenever...we play monopoly with my sis and his bro...haha...when is lose...i'll always say i don't want to play...haha...i still need him to come and persuade me to cont play...haha...but..somehow..due to e change of environment...haha...e last time i saw him...is...3 yrs ago??not sure...haha...he came with his father to my hse to repair my house aircon since his father used to repair the aircon for my house for many years...haha...he and his bro will take turns to help his dad...haha...i tink tt's the last time we met..and haha...e most funny ting is that...we bcum a hi and bye friend...haha...weird...haha..tinking back...many things changes...haha...haiz...childhood friens="hi,bye" friend...haha..intresting yea?

记忆，或许，是永远也不会改变的吧。。但人，却会因为环境的因素而改变。。人啊。。咳。。真是搞不清楚的动物。。应该是因为，人是被视为高等动物，因此，为了在这个世界生存，必须耍点心机。。说为：胜者为王，败者为寇。。因此，人，都不善于表达自己。。有的，甚至隐藏真实的自己。。哈哈。。到头来。。连自己是怎样的一个人也搞不清楚。。人，应该都是这样复杂的吧。。咳。。人生，要怎样活才算是“活得精彩”又有几个人在这个世界上是可以真真正正的被视为“活得精彩”的人呢？不是我悲观，而是。。很多成年人，在大部分的时间都是在耍心机的。。所以，不能被视为“活得精彩”的人。。。我看啊。。只有小孩子。。才能“活得精彩”吧。。。在他们小小世界里。。。哈哈。。看起来。。长大。。好像不是一件好事。。。哈哈。。

lOST DAIry chpt 160:

watching mr yeo's farewell party from jeevan's blog just now...hai...really miss 407...although there are ppl which are incoperative...but..somehow...miss the 407 as a class...how to say??haha...duno how to say..is just a feeling...haha...but...somehow..the feeling changes...duno how to explain...in e past...e feeling is like..hoping to go back in time...always having fun...something like tt..but now..the feeling is...making it as a memory...no longer have e feeling of going back in time...haha...

i've watch finish 1 litters of tears...erm...to say e truth..haha...cried alot of times...especially when she's asking about her future...haiz...wad she always says..."Don't dwell in the past.."maybe because of this sentence...looking e video of mr yeo's farewell party..i feel relieve...haha...duno how to say la..*complicated*..haha...but...something sad...haiz...looks like Nishikido Ryo is not a cast of this coming special episode of attention please...haiz...so sad...=((

心情好复杂。。我们人，到底是在追求什么呢？

lOst dairy chPt 159:

tue went out with kitty,sinee,jiayi and yixin...went to kbox...den after that...we went for dinner...haha...PIZZA HUT!!!haiz....so boring at home...nothing to watch....or shld i say..gt alot of things to watch..but still need to wait...cause...tmr sister going out...den need to wait for her...den sat and sun she going for open hse..hence...i think i can watch my shows on mon...haiz...

herm...i'm realli quite worried...cause there's no body i know in NP...bt,seems..i have persuade myself not to b so scared...e worries compared from the beginning is nt tt much le...but...wad can i say??is a new school,new environment,new people...so..there's a great possibilities that people there have their own friend and own gang..so...ya...must know the fact la...but...to be alone...herm...haha...i duno wad to say..maybe is good...haha...who knows??haha...

yesterday have a talk with "panda kor kor" over the phone...haha...heard quite a similar story that i've go through from him...bt,somehow...no matter what i tell him.he jus dun listen in...haha...maybe that's e onli common thing i and him have...STUBBORN!!haha...but e onli thing that differs between my story and his story is that...e girl in his story...somehow...tells him wad's she's doing..ya..to me...that's more hurting la...so..i..somehow "support"...eh...support is e wrong word..cause is wrong..but...i cant do anything..cause..if stand in his point of view..maybe...tis is e onli way to prevent him from getting hurt..so..ya...to prevent him from getting hurt again..maybe wad's he doing now...is e only way bah...but..e onli thing that i'm afraid of is...e same thing will happen again..e thing that happen 3 years ago will happen again..but,from wad i know from him is..i'm e onli person know wad's he doing and everything she do to him realli hurt him...i realli dun tink i shld leave him alone now if i'm just scared tt e "incident" will happen once again...shld i just leave him to himself??or shld i cont to help him??haiz...really duno wad is right and wrong..wad i suppose to do or not suppose to do...连自己也救不了的人，能救别人吗？

have been thinking if i should really give up my dreams...but..somehow..my mother...haha..don't want me to do...haha..because..i told my mother what cindy told me about going mel and study with her...i told my mother that...it should be the only way that i can pursue my dream...but..my mum...haha..says...she don't want me to go overseas right now...although..she knows that i wanted to be independent...however,she still don't want me to go mel...haiz...maybe...when i've started to work..i can take the course as a part time course bah...at least..i can study..right??but..i need to work 1st...cause i don't want to use my parents money to study e course...so...e onli thing i can do is...study wad i'm suppose to study 1st..work..and study wad i WANT to study...

OMG!!!AARON IS ALSO POSTED TO NGEE ANN POLY!!!at least there's some1 i realli know in tt school...but..e onli bad thing abt tis guy is...he likes to disturb me...hope that he dun say any stupid things out in e future school...god bless me...haha...herm...quite relieve...cause...someone i know is in e school..haha...i'm not tt alone afterall...haha...

loST DaIRY CHPt 158:

也许是真的怕了。。连做梦也梦到。。还哭了呢。。真可笑。。或许，是心灵作祟。。或许。。。哈哈。。世界上那里可能有那么多或许的。。不知从几时开始，就喜欢用“或许”这个词。。“或许”应该这个词让我很有安全感吧！因为。。它不会给我任何期望。。毕竟。。没有期望。。那来的失望啊！

just watch finish "proposal daisakusen"..erm...find it quite meaningful..no matter how many regrets u have in e past...it's no longer important...because..what's important is e present...what we have to change is the present...no matter how much we want to change our past..is impossible...therefore,it's because of all the regrets we have in the past...we grow up to who we are now...how to say..although this theory i know it long ago..but..somehow..i only know how to tell people...deceiving myself with the fact that "regrets" sure makes me grow...haha...funny right??somehow...only to see it my ownself(although is just a show)..i'll really understand what the theory really means...don't you think so??it's been so long that i deceive others..and deceive myself that "i'm back to the who i am"..but somehow...i still cant really accept being backstabe by that idiot...haha...is true..i don't realli have the patience to talk to him online...haha..and when jess congrats me for coming back(as she's one of e ppl who knows what i've been planning to do)...i somehow don't really think is true..just like when someone says he/she knows me very well...i really doubt until they really show it to me..i always thinks that...even i don't understand myself...how come they can understand me...haha...because i'm not sure if i'm really back..i use words to deceive myself and to deceive others...haha...so ugly of me...

我到底是一个怎样的人？？镇各搞不清楚自己在想些什么。。

Lost daIRy ChPt 157:

是不高兴吗？？也不完全是。。毕竟，跟自己说过最后一次。。就不要后悔。。不期望任何事情会发生。。因为，我自己知道，有些事，不一定渴望和希望就能得到的。。不是吗？哈哈。。

herm..last fri went out to watch movie with jiayi,jeffrey and kwang hui..hong yao cant show up bcz of some reason..haha...we decide on a movie veri long..so..we ended up watching 2 faces of my girlfriend...erm...quite nice...i like e part when they reveal the part that her boyfriend died bcz of her...erm..quite touching...cz..bcz of tis accident...tt girl have split personality..haha..sort of a psychological triller...haha...quite nice...should realli watch it...oh ya...tis few days..finish watching 2 more jap drama.."Liar game" and "Yukan Club"...in Yukan club...mike he gt act in one of e episode...cindy..go and watch it after ur exams...haha...

few days ago..ngee ann send me e enrolment...den..i found out tt..my course..i need to tk colour blindness test!!!omg...so troublesome...i realli have no idea abt tis course at all..i realli start to wonder why in e 1st place..i choose nt to appeal...haiz...nw...i'm ended up in a new environment..which i feel so strange and scared of...haiz...maybe i realli nvr thought of wad i'm going to do...seems that..my dream will still remain as a dream..and i ahve to pursue a degree which is nt my interest at all...haiz...i've been thinking wad marvin said...marvin said that is good to be alone a new school...maybe what he say is true...ubt..still feel so unease with the situation i am in now...i've set a barrier inside me...don't know if i can overcome the barrier..maybe on the day of orientation...den i will know if i've overcome the barrier successfully...

wants:-a new bag for poly
-to be free from e worries i have now..=)
-to overcome e barrier i set for myself...

自己选着的路，会带我带哪里？？

Peilin

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