lost dairy chpt 376:

NOTE!:THIS IS A BORING POST...

hmmm...
i have nth better to do..
so...let's blog abt something...

hmm...
i'm quite sad today...
cant get into the module that i wanted to study...
maybe just like what my mum said...
i'm just not fated to study psychology...
haiz...
sad...
sad..
sad.


this holiday is totally boring...
nth to do...
is just waiting for another day to pass...

why am i living this kind of life?
useless..
aimless..
haiz...
depressed...

haiz...
i'm so going to gain weight...
and in the end..
i'll become fatter and fatter...
HAHA!!!

sometimes just get so tired of working so hard..
so tired that...i don't feel like waking up...
i'm so scared that i'm back to the 1 that i'm afraid of...
trying very hard to control..
but seems nothing can be done...
don't know how to explain this feeling...





speechless..
no mood..
everything just come without any warning..
cant get to control my emotion...

lost dairy chpt 375:

hohoho~
to everyone...
i'm okay...
just wanted to vent my anger...

just like what i told someone today...
"no matter what thing happen,it will be over soon right??"


hmmm..
this week conclusion...
"everyone changes"
everyone change into someone that is no longer i knew...
and somehow...
i change too...
is just recently that i've finally realise that i've changed..
good or bad....
just let the ppl around me to think abt it...

looking at others...
seems like looking into a mirror...
for me...
i realize that..
everyone always thinks that, others people live a better live than they do..
but,somehow,that's only what they think...
sometimes, i will have this kind of thinking too...
but, after a while, i will tell myself to be content with what i have now...
don't be greedy to ask for more...
if you're greedy, you'll lost something in return...

i no longer know how to decide what is right and what is wrong...

lost dairy chpt 374:

I HATE YOU!!!!

i wonder why i cant control my temper...
i have to urge to scold you like how you scold other people...
I'M SO PISSED OFF NOW!!!!
SHIT!!!!!!!


everytime when i think that everything is over...
it's NOT!!!
just becoming worse...
cant it just get better so that i can live in peace?!?!

ARGH!!!!
i feel like venting my anger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
maybe it will be extremly fine if..............................................
if u know what i mean...


few weeks ago..
someone ask me something...
a thing that both of us have faced since duno when....

maybe like what cindy said to me before...
no1 will really tell u how they feel if you ask "how are u?"
but seems that...every1 just like to say this...
i'm just one of the normal people....
what i want him to know is that everything will be okay...
so,i hope everything will goes well for him too...

but for now...
i duno...
the hate is getting more and more...
i duno when...
i really cant hold myself and stand straight...
haiz....
it's getting more and more complicated yea??
haiz...


seriously i duno wad to say...
speechless...
hopeless...

lost dairy chpt 373:

hmm...feels empty...
maybe because it's holiday...?


was talking to kwang hui few days ago...
the thing that we keep on arguing is that...
he thinks that i'm not who i am..
okay..is dumb...
but then...it reminds me the days that we used to argue together with jy,hy...
maybe just like what hy says...
it's so good to stay at that time...
when we argue with each other for fun...
talk to each other seriously when needed...
pointing out each others fault...
then start making fun of each other again...
......it's the first time i mention ur name ever since...

i wonder why....
why cant i do it??
why cant i be that person...?

i've push myself till here...
even though there may be regrets...
i also want to do it...
but...
i just i cant...

lost dairy chpt 372:

hmmm....
went out with grace on tue...
haha...chat alot...
also...we gossip alot as usual...
and...gossip the same thing over and over again..
haha...

yea...lct say he need to work...so nvr join us...
lwc say he got chalet...so cannot join us...
haha...
but...without them...we chat even happy...
haha..
cause we gossip abt them also...HAHA..

den went out with sinee,jiayi,yan and kitty on fri...
went to to eat...HAHA...
den did another round of gossiping...
oh ya...b4 that...
we went to jiayi hse..
den we watch the last epi of qiu tian de tong hua...HAHA....
lol...
den took 81 to novena...
change bus to the place where we eat...

as for today...
went to jumbo to celebrate my sis bd...
very full...^^happy...

can i really forget you...?

lost dairy chpt 371:

hmm...so long nvr update already...haha...
nth better to do recently because it's HOLIDAY!!!

but..somehow, i don't have the mood...
why??
1st day of holiday...
u get to know something that u would nvr want to know...

2nd day of holiday...
grandpa is admitted into hospital again...
i really hate hospital to the core now...

3rd day of the holiday...
should be a wonderful day because went to watch cinderella on ice...
but...in the end...
i'm pissed off...

get it??
the first few days already spoil my holiday mood...
and i cant get everyone together to celebrate frec's belated birthday...
headache^2...
haha...actually is okay to not celebrate together...
but...Fiona and i realise that we've never celebrate someone's birthday together...
that's why, wanted to get everyone together...
but...everyone seems to be very busy...

hmm...
somehow...
i wish i'm at China with some of our classmates now...
studying and studying...
is better den u have nth better to do and stay at home...
haiz...

hate 2009...


灰色的彩虹-范玮琪-F·ONE

我从秋天等到安静的落叶
还不够时间倒带想念
就像电影情节最后完结篇
退色的画面没有想念
我的记忆摇晃着昨天
我还有感觉
一抬头什么都看不见
雨后的屋檐
红橙黄绿我都找不到的晴天
从此我们两个世界
在灰色季节渐渐忘记你的一切
过几年我在原点
彩虹出现而我再也找不到美丽的蝴蝶
偏偏飞不上天
对你的想念
再也寄不到你世界
地址是再见
我从秋天等到安静的落叶
还不够时间倒带想念
就像电影情节最后完结篇
退色的画面没有想念
我的记忆摇晃着昨天
我还有感觉
一抬头什么都看不见
雨后的屋檐
红橙黄绿我都找不到的晴天
从此我们两个世界
在灰色季节渐渐忘记你的一切
过几年我在原点
彩虹出现而我再也找不到美丽的蝴蝶
偏偏飞不上天
对你的想念
再也寄不到你世界
地址是再见
红橙黄绿我都找不到的晴天
从此我们两个世界
在灰色季节渐渐忘记你的一切
过几年我在原点
彩虹出现而我再也找不到美丽的蝴蝶
偏偏飞不上天
对你的想念
进不到你世界
地址是再见

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