lOsT DaIry cHpT 66:

haiz...mani tings came up...i realli duno how to react...maybe...wad i can say is tt...im too busy to react..or..i realli dun wish to make ani reaction n comments...is like...hai...a sentence tt tis few days i keep saying to jess n grace they all..."i suddenly feel tt e world is so dark..."...lol...actually is nt a sarcastic comment la...coz..maybe they will tink tt im just being sarcastic bah...haiz...today...while i was walking..i suddenly decide wad is impt for mi...nw at this moment...i tink tt...my studies is e most impt ting tt i wanna focus right nw...so..i dun wish myself to cont to daydream or wad ever shit..so...actually...i dun realli care le...there are so mani tings...i cant control all e tings happening ard mi...thus,i decide to control my fate...onli my fate...my fate depends on my studies...hence...i realli need to buck up le...i dun wish to get ani "nonsense" from my brain le...so...ya...hai...just hope tt my bio test next week can pass...cause..i realli have high hopes on my bio...n i realli wish tt bio can help mi by pulling up my grades...so...e onli ting i can do nw...is study...concentrate..n score...my goal for nw is to do well in my Os...so...ya...

lOsT dAIry cHPT 65:

oh...sad...xu wei lun pass away yesterday...she just 28 yrs old nia lor...haiz...

im a fool!!!

LOSt DaiRY ChpT 64:





herm..yesterday went for my cousin birhtday bbq...it's raining...bt luckily onli drizzeling...so...dosen't affect e bbq mood...although i was "mood-less"...coz...i was being bullied by kang hui n kelvin...idiot n childish guys...bt...nvm...i make it bck on kelvin as ah yi keep asking kelvin to run out n bbq thigns for mi to eat...so...i was quite happy...in a way of revenge...muhahaha...den my parents n my aunt persuade mi to go out for lunch today...i dun wish to go...as i meet jess,cindy n july on msn at 3 in e afternoon...bt...my sis "threaten" mi to go...so...i went....we went to li bai for "brunch"...e food there is sosososososososososo nice...ya...i nvr regret going there to eat..lol...although i was late for e meeting for ard 17 min??lol...extremly sorry...cause e food served veri slow la...den e 11 of us onli eat until so ex....hai...den...wif my cousin ard...there sure will be pics taken...lol..so...we took some pictures in e room...

lOst DAIry cHpT 63:

i wanna cry liao la...eh...sorri...e cry thingy is to explain how sad i am onli...hehe...coz if jess read e 1st wan will sure tink of my tear gland is retarded tingy...hai...today e bio paper 2 frm CHIJ sec is so damn e difficult lor...n den...actually some question i can get marks de...bt my stupid hands la...go chagne e ans...nw my whole ans is wrong...i either do hafway nvr ans wif full ans or i change e ans...OMG!!!den tmr still gt bio spelling den still need to continue e paper 1....so STRESS!!!i wanna kill e perso who starts education...if nt for tt person...no1 will treat education so impotantly....argh!!!n den...wad can i say??there's nth much for mi to sy or do anything right nw...wad is done is alreadi done...no point crying over spilt milk...bt i still dun understand how can i be so stupid tt...i do e mistake again n agian n again...stupid mi do stupid things again...='(...i cant cry...so...='(<- this will help mi cry...

lOsT DAIrY cHpT 62:

just came bck frm e band concert...hai..is still e same as last concert...bt...it was good...good performance...hehe...band members "rox"...lol...herm...last week finish my second puzzle...lol...is about winnie e pooh again...=x..lol...took pic wif yan,kitty...opps...forget to take pics wif wichen...bt took a grp photo which consist of matt,yan,kitty,wi chen n mi...





<-mi n yan

<-my 2nd puzzle<-Mi,Yan,Matt,Wi Chen n kitty

<-kitty n mi

lOsT daiRY ChPt 61:

hohoho...herm...feel better le...better den e last few days...at least im nt tt angry le...hai...my sis fren veri funni...they veri concern abt mi...when they read my blog...they say mi being so "desperate"...they ask my sis if i gt stead nt...coz i like so down like tt...they still help my sis to fen xi y they tink i gt stead..haha...bt aniway..i know they concern abt mi la...bt...i have to make things clear...i have no stead...lolx...den...my sis went to tell my parents tt y am i so angry...den my dad ask mi if i need him to go n talk to e principle...lol...so funni...y muz make things so big??haha...den when i told matt n jess they all...they support my dad to go look for mr ee...lolx...so crazy lor...nt ani big problem wad..is my problem...i can handle myself de...jus treat him as transparent...just ignore him...i must learn to control my temper nw adays...yesterday met min yu's mother when i was on e way home...den today...met yong fa's mother...den we walk back home...den e both of them...told mi e same thing...haha...they gt xing dian gan ying ar??y tell mE e same thing...haha...maybe i really have change??lol...no la...jk la...i must be crazy...haha...i tink i need to go take my medicine le..n..although i know tt..James will nt come to my blog...as he duno my webbie...i still need to say thanks for his concern...im ok le...im nt sick animore...so...dun need to scared tt i pass u all my virus...ok??lol...

lOST DairY CHPt 60:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just feel like shouting out all my anger...like tt...at least i will nt lose my temper to ani1...bt...i still feel so angry...i wonder dead ppl will feel anger not..i also wonder...if im realli dead...will my soul be filled wif anger??i want to know all the things in e world...thus,i would want to travel all ard e world as i like...wad i feel right nw...is to bang myself to e wall...or make myself fall down frm e staircase..or might as well get a car n knock mi down...if i cant die just like tt...at least..i have a high chances of getting myself to lose all my memory...nth can make mi angry...nth can make mi sad...nth from e past at least...if not...wad can i do??i am realli losing control..i duno when i will lose control of myself...if 1 day i cant control myself...i be shouting in e klaz...shouting at him...ask him stop siming mi...ask him to stop everything...i just have enough of it...he is just adding stress to my life...i hate him to the core...hate him...hate him...hate hate hate...this hatred will nvr be forgotten...unless i lost my memory...or maybe after my Os...i will be gratefull to him...i duno...bt at least..right nw...e onli thing tt i know..is...i HATE HIM...i realli realli HATE him!!!

lOsT DaiRY chPt 59:

agrhhhh.....so angry so sngry!!!!im extremly angry...y muz u aim mi??cant u just treat mi as invisible??keep calling mi...hate u la...arghh....angry angry angry angery angry angry angry angry angry!!!!

lOsT DaIrY ChPt 58:

feel like jumping down from the building...nw im at e 5th floor...if i jump down...will i die??wad will be the ans??it have been such a diff time for mi...i just wanna get myself free...free from everything...bt e problem is...i alreadi get used to how i live in e past 3 yrs..n nw..asking mi to change...is easy to say den do...ya...i try to change myself..but wad can i do??i feel so tired to change myself...or i shld jus be the 1 tt i used to be??ya..i have been giving advice for my frens...bt i cant solve my problem..n nw...wenever my rfen say he/she feels like killing themselves...i noe tt's wrong...n i say...dun tink like tt...bt...i know myself...tt...it is impossible...impossible not to tink...hai...feel so down..maybe becoz of elson's blog song...i keep listening to the piano piece...n i love it...bt e more i listen..i have a strange feeling...i feel sad when i listen...bt if u ask mi nt to listen it...e rythm will still be in my mind...so there's no greata difference...hai..ya...1 more yr to go...how long will be 1 yr??1 yr is slow...in out heart...although i s fast...everyday go skool...den slp...do all this tins..for abt 330 plus days...it will be 1 yr le..bt....

LosT DaIrY chPt 58:

jus came bck from CIP...hai...so tired...so lazy...so much hw...stress ar...lol...yesterday JL ask mi nt to be too stress...lol...make mi wanna laugh..is nt tt wad he say or wad...is jus tt...duno la...jus feel veri funni lor..he ask mi nt to be so stress...den i was like so shock...coz he 1st sentence ask mi nt to stress le...nvr say aniting else...lol...hai...so long nvr see them liao...haha...say long...bt..e last time see dem is during teacher's day...haha...this year teacher's day...must force them go out wif mi,felicia n pearlyn...take some neoprint...like tt..i can rmb their most "recent" face...although he veri BHB to put his pic acting cool on his DP...lol..no offence ar...if u see wad i write...rmb ar...tis yr wan take picture wif u ar...lol...haha...yesterday...to make myself more relax...i play e jigsaw puzzle...500 pieces...wha...make mi wanna slp ar...so tired...doing it make mi more stress coz cannot find e piece i wan...bt bcoz is winnie the pooh de...so...hai....have to ciong...haha...my 1st time plying jigsaw puzzle...n i use...2hrs??less den bah...ard der la...wif e help of my sis...haha...2 person still make so long...pathetic ar..have a look of my puzzle..
haha....herm...ya...end here le bah...need to cont wif another dairy...o ya...

lOST daIry cHpT 57:

herm...just nw scold finish kwang hui..lol...feel so bad..bt tt's wad he deserve...hai...herm...stress wif e hw...stress wif e timetable..n hai...so sad...gt DT during valentines day...luckily...i have no valentine...lol...n confirm no1 will give mi present de...sob sob...eh...no leh...still gt july they all...lol...this yr...must buy chocolate for july,cindy n herm..ya...wad shld i buy for jess??herm...eh...jess give mi some advice...tnx...

LoSt daiRY chpT 56:

"AH!!" tt's e 1st ting i heard when e fan drop...lol...cheng teck today make spoil our kalz fan...e fan tt is infront of e klaz...lol...coz veri hot..so they snatching e fan...bt wad happen??e fan came down...n hurt cheng teck's ear...n they dun have ani fan le...congrats...bt cheng teck so poor thing...go see doctor n take medicine for $18...hai...tt's e price for his hand...hai...den kah beng so funni...he keep sing luo zhi xiang's jing wu men...some tune is out of tune de lor...lol...den laugh until my face red...hai...herm...gt alot of hw...hai...i tink i will cut it short...like tt i can go do hw le...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO RANJETHA!!!

lOst dAIrY 55:

stupid...i today kana present infront of e whole klaz...make mi duno wad to do...den i onli say a few sentence...den everything r sehkar help mi finish it...haha...today heard tt there's a fight in e basketball court...whao...bt i nvr get to see...lolx...i wanted to watch it so much...haha...heard is because of e racist problem...so...racist is bad...so...dun be racist...lol...haha...today last day going back for meeting...happy!!!!can concentrate on studies liao...n den...i onli have to do 1 more day duty in sac..n...is my last day off!!!yeah!!!im so happy...found out something...which make myself more clear to everything ard mi...ya..n den...just like wad nelson say...regrets make ppl more stronger...lolx..extremly agree wif him...haha...hai...nth to say le...need to go back n do my "beloved" statistic....hai...

lOST DaIRY cHpt 54:

@%*&?/@$%$@#$!#$#^%^&&&*^&# %$%$#&*';/''/#^#%#%^&*%$$%^!!!!!!
im damn angry today...veri angry...stupid matt tong nominate mi as e stupid klaz deco..omg...my art sux...n they still let mi do...they will regret...realli regret....im so damn angry...angry angry...n my stupid time-table make mi more angry...my latest lesson ends at 4...so stupid lor...every class is either end at 2.30 or 3...im so angry...like tt i will be veri tired de lor...:@...just feel myself...im just makig myself a bad person...arghhh...nvm...dun say animore...just feel that im such a failure...im just so angry...ya...maybe i will get used to it bah...get used of myself being such a failure...maybe get angry so easily because i have not enough slp...just cant get myself to slp...i just have to "cui mian" myself how tired i am....n how much i want to slp...make mi more sick n tired of it...sick wif this kind of life...argh...

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haiz..maybe i shld reali reali relax....

lOST DAIrY ChPt 53:

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!

its's a brand new year...n let's hope tt all our wishes will come true...real true...
herm...wad kind of person am i in e yr 2k6??
-i'm a fool
-i'm a idiot
-i'm e most stupid person i have seen...
-i'm a loser...i lose to myself
-i'm a crazy person
-i'm a betrayer
haha...tt's hu i am...at least tis is wad i tink...
in e yr 2k6..i have done mani wrong things...n i have hurt quite a no of ppl...i duno wad tosay...e onli thing tt i could say is onli sorry...im realli veri sorri...in e new yr...a new mi...a real new mi...without hatred...i want to live my life with no regrets...i hope..=X...haha...n i also need to work hard for my Os liao..lim wi chen...listen...i will nt let u win mi de...muhahaha...let's work hard together..herm..it's time to write my another dairy le...good lucks to every1...stay happy!!!

Peilin

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