lost dairy chpt 230:

HIPHIP HOORAY!!!x3

LOL...FINALLY!!!i've finish my IS module with not very colourful marks....LOL..is really nt fabian and sherman's fault..they keep saying sorry before we left the klaz...haha..is ok....i have fault too...
lol...this is wad my teacher say"Peilin, you have good eye contact...bt..u have to improve ur pronounciation..."lol...i know tt....haha...how i wish e presentation is in chi...haha...i have more confidence in my chi den in my eng...OMG...

and yea..next week..there will be no IS lesson...need to wait till next sem...hmm...i'm so happy...haha...hmmm...bt..i wonder...will i miss all the jokes tt sherman and his gang everytime say??hmm...i duno..bt...at least..i'm happy tt it's all over...phew...

lol...yea...but,really..i have to say...they are not tt bad...haha...oh ya...i dun tink i have metion tt...sherman is my boss...haha...yea..tt's wad he say..and i just pei he him...haha...ya...he very funny today..when we going back to class..i'm talking on e phone with haixin...den..sherman helps me to open e door...den he say this"这个世界变了，老版还要帮秘书开门"...LOL...so funny lor...

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i'm so tired!!!i want my sleep!!!cant slp in e night...cant slp in e mrt....wad happen to me?!?i wanna SLEEP!!
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lost dairy chpt 229:

看着cindy 在blog上留的言。。我，眼眶泛泪。。
应该是因为，我知道我自己的问题出在哪。。
却不知怎样解决。。咳。。
我的问题。。出在:
我太留恋过去。。
我无法原谅自己。。
我无法释怀过去。。
现在的我，不能说:
我不在留恋过去。。
我原谅我自己了。。
和，我释怀了。。。
停留在过去的我。。已经忘了以前的我。。
忘了。。。
但，唯一我能说的。。。
我会试着找回以前的我。。
我。。。
从新开始。。
从心出发。。。

yea...
tinking seriously...
i have so many great frens ard me...i dun need to care abt those ppl...
wad impt is...they care abt me...
and..i shall change...
pls 4give me guys...sometimes..i'm being over protecting myself...
and thanks to u all...
LOVE YOU ALL!!!
my dear frens...


cindy..
i'll try my best!!and i'll make sure.
i'll change to e old Peilin u know last time..
before i go mel find u...haha...=D
and..i really will tink wad kind of future i want...
放心。。我说的算。。=D

lost dairy chpt 228:

ok...i know is bad to drop halfway...bt...i cant stand e teacher...haha...plus...i didn't even listen in klaz...if i cont...i'm jus wasting my money...


me and my crazy fren(wardah)during MDA klaz...HAHA...tt's her hand "in" my mouth!!!LOL..

update more next time...busy plying game with eugene..

lost dairy chpt 227:

hmm...found out something...i've been spending my whole life waiting...waiting for my grp mates..waiting for this..waiting for tt...i duno why am i waiting....

was chatting with panda kor jus nw..yea..he reminds me tt ghost festive is coming...haha...brings back memories...sad memories...i dun wan to rmb..cz...i'll just hate myself more and more whenever i rmb it...

maybe i'm wrong...and maybe i'm wrong in another view...who knows???e difference is jus how u see it..


hmmm...yesterday...celebrate ronney's birthday..yea...den after tt...went to meet sherman and fabian...ya...my grp mates...haha...

hmm..maybe with e 1st experience...haha..i've decreased my seriousness when doing project with them...ya...so...actually...it's ok la...was chatting with his fren when sherman is on e phone...haha...
his fren say"since u live pasir ris, u can go home with sherman wad..."
i reply(with no voice.haha.)"I DON'T WANT..WHO WANTS?"
LOL...e both of us laugh and sherman is like...wad are u guys talking abt...LOL...
ya..was bickering with sherman e whole discussion...

and..
I'M NOT GOING TO USE MY LAPTOP TO DISCUSS E PROJECT ANYMORE!!!
THEY ARE SO VIOLENT TO MY LAPTOP!!!
IF SHERMAN CHEN IS GOING TO BUY A MACBOOK...I'M GOING TO BE E FIST ONE TO "PLAY" HIS LAPTOP!!!

yea...alot of funny stuffs happen during yst discussion...haha...i laugh until my face is red...LOL...

ok..tmr is my French test and...haha...i'm blogging!!!haha...i dun have e mood to study..i'm sick and tired with french!!!

lost dairy chpt 226:

hmm...was looking tru all e pics tt i've taken in sec...
alot of things...it may seems to be nth...bt somehow...it lead me to where i am nw...
being stubborn, i don't want to talk abt it...

i have a qn...if u are curious abt how my life is nw...y don't u ask me when i online??
why must u let me know by leaving "something" behind??
ha-ha...i guess...tt's wad makes us alike...
i guess....we will nvr meet and talk again..
at least...i wun be e 1 who start e conversation 1st...

hmm...it seems tt...every1 is talking abt love in their blog...haha..let's be special..wad i want to talk abt is frenship...ok..maybe a little abt love...bt..nt entirely....

have you ever wondered....why ppl make frens??
many ppl believe that...humans are animals tt are afraid to be lonely..they have to talk and accompanied by ppl..

bt...somehow...to me...frens are the ones that will stay with u until e last moment...at least true frens will...and of cz..family will stay with u until e last sec...(bt..e main topic is nt family)

FRIENDS...are the one who give u best advice they think that will benefit u...so..trust them...they wun lead u to e wrong place(most of the time...they wun)...
to me...once i've decided u as my fren...i'll believe wad u guys say...(bt pls...dun tell me those lies that even a 1 yr old kid wun believe)...

becz...to me...i belive that...since i want my frens to trust me...i have to trust them 1st....
and the things i've said..maybe is naggy...maybe is nonesense to u all...bt...tis are wad i believe...

if...i've hurt anyone with my words...i'm sorry...cz...i cant find any better other words to replace those hurting words..and...also...in the future...i cant promise that i wun hurt u guys with my words...bt...i want you guys to know that...no matter wad i say...i really have no other meaning...i just want you to know wad's ur fault and change...

ok...tis is true...many ppl tends to forget abt their frens and family after they found their "love"..
i cant say anything...since...i've nvr started any relationship yet...bt...as a fren...
i want to say...
the one u are with nw...may nt b e 1 who will stay by ur side at e last moment...
if u give up ur family and frens bcz of him/her...
i can just say...u are too silly....
you will regret afterall...
maybe..you shld listen to what your parents and frens think...
you will see things clearer...
what is right and what is wrong...

updates of pics!!


azillah,me,amira and neroshaa

shakilah and me...in t3...

jeevan,jess and me..haha..and spongebob drawing at e back...LOL..

haha...can spot matt's parents behind??haha...

ACJC concert...there's kitty,jeremiah,grace,me and matt...haha...

fiona,florence and me...

florence and me...

fiona,florence and me..=D

lost dairy chpt 225:

hmm...losing my temper easily...somehow...cant control my temper...so...talk to cindy abt wad happen yst...yup...i know tt...it's nt worth to be angry over tt person...bt...i cant stop myself to be angry whenever i rmb wad tt idiot person say....haiz...

hmmm..have been too busy with poly life...i've forgotten tt...2 yrs have past...so fast...sometimes..i ask myself forcing myself coming to NP is it worth??sometimes...find it worth...sometimes..i also duno y i use this way to "abuse" myself...

was chatting with cindy...haha...hmm...somehow...i feel better...haha...yea..i'll keep on smiling............no matter wad..........happen............我会保持微笑到最后..cindy...i'll keep on smiling till the end...so do u...no matter wad happen or how sick and tired................................................................................................

lost chpt dairy 223:

lost dairy chpt 222:

lost dairy chot 221:

haha..2 post in 1 day...haha...actually tis post is to remind myself who booked my holiday...haha...
my holiday=busy day...

ok...
1st person who booked me is tan sin ee...haha...yan's belated bd...ok...

2nd person who booked me...tan guan leong(why isit all e tan??)...haha...ok...since no1 celeb bd with him...when go out with him...i shall treat him smth...and...i cant drag too long..cz...he gt prelim...ok...

3rd)fiona say wans to organise e AVT outing ting..i duno...book 1st..

4th)jeffrey chong....ok...ask me go out relax...relax his head la..everytime go out make me angry onli...

5th)fiona...ok...booked...

6th..comfirm is matt...haha..cz..must celeb his bd also...

7th...hmmm...grace...are u booking me??LOL...

8th...ok..i 4gt abt PRPS outing...

ok...hmm...9th...shld have 407 gathering again...haha...we like everytime holi meet 1 time de...haha..

10th...fiona say...we going out again...whao...my holi is booked...luckily onli like tt...and luckily tis time round..holi is 7wks...

ok..i dun tink still gt right???
if gt...den amend again..haha...

to be cont....

lost dairy chpt 220:

*YAWN*...i'm sleepy...hence..i have no mood to study...die le...tmr gt 2 test..and wad am i doing??haha...i'm typing blog...haha...ok..i tink i'm dead tmr....

anyway..nth to talk abt la...i just dun feel like studying..so...let's blog abt something....

hmm...

ok...let's talk abt dreams....
haixin and fiona asked me...wad's my dream..hmm..bascially..i really dun have a dream...haha...bcz..dream is meant for ppl who will really work for it...as for me...hmm...i dun tink i'm working hard to achieve my dream...so..i have no dream...
i've woke up and live in e reality...so..i know myself well..from where i'm standing right now...
is somewhere far from my dream...so...like wad i've said in previous post...i just have to cont my life..without fulfilling my dream....

let's talk abt another topic...haha...
topic: changes
last sun met elvira on e train...she shouted my name...den i was looking around...saw her waving at me...i was wondering who tt girl is...den i ask jeremiah because...he same pri school as me...ok...wad he told me is e wrong ans...bt..i still wave back even though i cant rmb her...haha...den when e train stops at pasir ris...i walk up..and ask..who she is...ok..i know i s veri bad of me for nt remembering my pri school mates..bt...e last time i saw her is pri6..and i'm nw in poly yr1...plus..she have put on some make-up..which was really so diff...i tink if meiqi is with me..she will be shock too...haha...ya...den...elvira,jeremiah and i was talking abt e recent PRPS gathering..den elvira said this " Peilin you really didn't change much..."
yea....i know that...that's wad every1 say...

Aaron also said the same thing to me"Peilin..u know right..when i was looking at all the year book for the past four years...everyone change so much..except you...you still have your long hair..you still tie you hair the same style...you still laugh and smile everyday.."

ok...this are my question..
first..is there a need for me to change me physical appearance??is there is a need to do so..haha..i'm sorry..bt..i'm lazy to change...
second..why does everyone likes to conclude something with someone's appearance??i really don't understand...haiz...
third...isit better to stay at wad u are or change into someone that your fren cant even recgonise???

lost dairy chpt 219:

hmm..changed my link for some "good" reason...haha..may be is nt tt good...haha....as i say in my previous post...haha...may be i'm too selfish...i don't want any of "those" ppl to know how's my life going on without them...

ok..anyway...had a most tiring week...doing projects...slping late...haiz...i need my sleep!!!ok?!so...let's have a overview...

last mon:
actually nth much...haha..going tru e same lesson...

tue:
IS...hmm...ok la...getting better...haha...as we get to know each other better..=D

wed:
ok...tt's e day i start to get irritated by my compro teacher...he don't pay for e paper that he ask us copy...den my fren have to pay more...idiot..den have e elective talk...yea...

thu:
starting to get tired...cz..catching up with maths and engmec hw...I HATE RADIAN!!!

fri:
hmm..yan's birthday...tutorial all e way...den met 4 stars der...yea..since every1 is blogging abt it..i shld't say anymore...den stayed back for project...reach home ard 9++..did some compro project...slept at 2 plus...

sat:
gl birthday...yea...bt..cant celebrate with him..cz..have to go back school to do project...filming...den i get mosquito bites...haha...bt..fiona gets more and more den me...poor fiona...e leg and hands...haiz...den reach home ard 9 plus too...den slept at ard 2/3 plus to finish my compro project...

sun:
went to ACJC concert...den...went to have dinner with frens....den cont do my project...den too tired and fall asleep on my table...i don't know wad i time i sleep...

yesterday:
my stupid compro teacher keep on 针对我..make me so irritated and pissed off until i dun wanna talk to him...even fiona also get pissed off by him...and e project fiona and i rushed out for him..he just say "i onli need 1 programe..dun need so much...re-do..."...i'm so damn angry...argh...ok..maybe dun have enough sleep..so..my patience is running out...

today:
went for IS klaz...finish my 2min speech..finally 1 project finish..
this is part of sherman's speech(topic:frens)
"if u want a gangster fren,find siliang.
if u want a gay fren,find fabian.
if u want a violent fren,find her(finger pointing at ME!!!)"
idiot...haha...actually he wanted to say pengxin..bt,,she nvr come for klaz...so,he changed to me...idiot sia...haha..bt..nvm...jus treat it as took his revenge on me...haha...cz...before him..another guy topic is to encourage teenagers to quit smoking...haha...den i ask him to listen..maybe i said it too loud...den teacher look at him...haha...so...let's take tt as a revenge...haha...anyway..good lucks to his eg1 test ltr...haha...=D

ok.i tink i need to get back to study...there's 3 test at e end of tis week...haiz...and is abt RADIAN!!!!OMG!!!KILL ME INSTEAD!!!!

mentally breaking down...

Peilin

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