.Sunday, February 25, 2007 ' 2/25/2007 07:38:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOsT daIRY ChPt 74:
i hate for being who i am!!!can some1 pls pls pls tell mi wad can i do??i hate myself frm e head to e toe..i hate myself for being such a idiot person...i am e most stupid person i have ever met...im such a failure...wad must i do to make myself more happier????how am i suppose to live e life tt i longed wanted to live??how long am i able to get out of all this stupid things tt happen ard mi???
.Friday, February 23, 2007 ' 2/23/2007 09:07:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
pictures taken...
stAr!!!grace,matt n my hand!!
took at somerset mrt station...coz waiting for e train to go n meet jess they all at orchard...hehe...say cheeze!!
. ' 2/23/2007 07:32:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LoST DAIRY ChPt 73:
lol..today e x-country so damn sian...coz mi, julei, grace n yan qing walk e whole 4.5km for 1hr...lol...i walk until wanna die le...den reach home abt 12 coz still need to have e stupid prize giving ceremony...bo liao...lol...den rush home to bath coz meet matt at e mrt at 12.45..so i rush e whole thing...bt in e end...matt is late...den waited for ju lei n cheng teck..den devil tag along...so...haiz..den matt dun like...den jess also dun like..actually i also dun like la...is jus tt...i know tt julei is also at a diff position...so..ya...den we sit mrt until si mei...den rmb tt we totally forgotten jon ong...so...we alight on simei n waited for jon ong to come...at e same moment..we met a girl at e simei mrt platform...i tink her studies too stress le bah...she sit at e bck..cry veri loud...scream veri loud...den still dance...den she was like abit crazy lor..den matt's junior still veri bad...take pic of her making a fool of herself...den we went to orchard...actually we going somerset at 1st...bt change e destination...den i was like blur blur...coz too tired le..plus wen we are on e mrt...we were seperated...i,grace,julei n devil stand aside...den jon ong stand alone...den matt,ct,jess n wei jin stand another side...den we reach somerset i ask e 3 of them go down..den matt saw us go down den he also came down...bt...we alight at e wrong place...we suppose to go to orchard...den i was so pai seh...after we met jess they all at orchard...we went n eat swensen...so ex lor...we spend $147.75 in swensen...den matt is e most expensive de...he eat alot of things...pig ar...lol...den after tt..we walk in e rain...coz onli grace gt umbrella...bt we are nt so wet la...coz we walk gt shelter de..plus grace also will shelter us...lol..onli she brought e umbrella...den we walk n walk n walk..den take neoprints wif jess,matt,ct n weijin...den ct so blur lor..gt 1 pic is he look at e wrong camera..bt we take tt pic...den we keep saying he is blur...lol...so tired..keep walking n walking...den wei jin they all went to eat ice-cream n finally i can sit down...yea...haha..den i dun wanna get up le...grace want mi accompany her go starbucks i also no stamina to walk liao...coz i pig also ma..haha...den we walk n walk again..den went to marks n spencer...buy biscuits...lol..den go hm..den mi n jess ps they all (ct,matt,weijin,jon ong,grace,julei n devil)..den so tired...i wanna ZzZ...bt cannot...haven do hw...=(..sad..
.Thursday, February 22, 2007 ' 2/22/2007 04:28:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
losT DAIrY ChPt 73:
jus finish checking my mail...haiz...feel so down...i duno y..i cant concentrate well in klaz..i cant concentrate everytime my fren talk to mi...i can jus sit der...n daydream e whole day...i even neglact my studies...n i jus...hai..i tink onli matthew,maybe jess n ppl ard mi know wad i do to myself...haiz...i know tt everytime i say tt "there's no failure but onli learning experience" is jus finding excuses for myself to slack..ya...mayb be there's people like Paulie from e show "Rocky" around mi...i tink onli my friends know wad im talking abt...maybe i am jus finding e right path for myself...maybe "Paulie" is jus a challenge for myslef to go thru...i just have to find my courage n determination to sucess..bt if success is a thing tt are reachable..i tink mani ppl are veri successful liao..bt..i jus duno wad am i thinking..n i even duno y i do tt...maybe it's jus....haiz...im like walking ard a circle..which i will always walk bck to e starting point..i took e intiative to step ahead...bt in e end...i jus find myslef walking in a circle...n it is a big circle frm e start...bt slowly..i see changes..as i see diff things...bt ine end...i find myslef walking in a smaller circle..tt's y e view is diff...n..i tot i had change...change to walk in a straight line...where there i will nvr walk back to e starting point...bt...everything dissapoint mi...im so dissapointed with myself...how i hope i could jus..walk off..n dun care aniting...bt...i jus cant...im stubborn...i don't want to give up..bt...i jus know tt i dun wan to give up...i duno how to take up my courage to walk to success...wad can i say aniway???it is my life..i cant control it...who can help mi control??
Very touching definition of FAMILY..
F A M I L Y
I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.
But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."
FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the Family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?
Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU
. ' 2/22/2007 03:52:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOSt DaIry cHpT 72:
happy chinese new year!!!lol...late by 5 days...hehe...coz busy ma...sian...tmr still need go X-country...haiz...
den on e 1st day...i went to e temple 1st...actually...every year...my father will bring us go to 3 temple...e 1st temple is at e old tampines road...den 2nd n 3rd is at serangoon if im nt wrong...lol...coz u realli nvr go n notice where is tt place...for abt 14 years??coz i rmb tt i go to e temple every yr...den my second name is name in there...so...yea..every yr must go der n pray...den e 2 temple is at side by side ma...so...i will go to e temple where i gt my second name with my father..n my mother will go to e temple beside it with my sister...after praying...my father brought us to go n eat mac!!!yummmy...den after tt...went to my fourth grandaunt hse to meet my aunt n my cousin...den we eat e duno wad ting at my grandaunt hse..so...basically...every yr...on e 1st day i will eat super many things...lol...den e last stop will be my grandparents' hse..ya...den every1 tot i veri sad...coz..i nvr gamble...i nvr gamble is jus tt i dun feel like gambling tis yr...every yr do n ply e same thing is making myself bored...lol...den ya...confirm gt take some pics de ma...
mi n my sis...haha..my sis doing a monkey face..
monkey face again...
my sis,my cousin n mi
my beloved grandpa n mi
my beloved grandma n mi...
my sis,my cousin n mi again...
my cousin n mi...sitting on my small cousin piano's chair...
e 2nd day...went to my aunt hse...ya...den my auntie...hai...dun wanna say ar...we lao yu sheng...haiz...every yr do e same thing...lol...same thing...i nvr gamble...
e 3rd day..they come to my hse...den we lao yu sheng again...den my auntie maid ask mi y e today also lao yu sheng...n e most intresting part...is tt...e ppl hu is at my hse is e same ppl hu went to my aunt hse...n i lao yu sheng wif e same ppl...n doing e same thing...haiz...den i also nvr gamble...muhahaha...i jus sit infront of e computer n playing music for e "gamblers" to listen...lol...DJ...haha...bt e songs tt dey want to hear i dun have..muhaha...so...haiz...im a failure..
.Friday, February 16, 2007 ' 2/16/2007 09:41:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
More PiCs!!!
mi n maTt...lOVe yA FatHER...
CIndY,maTt N MI...cindy...dun cry...smile=D...matt n mi will always rmb u n miss you...we love ya!!!dun cry animore...must be happy...u sad sad...every1 will sad sad also...smile...say cheeze!!!
. ' 2/16/2007 01:30:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOst DAIrY ChPt 71:
today went to skool n paint our klaz room...paint hafway...1st period...we do e paper cranes...den of coz...our klaz nvr get ani prize for tt...den after tt...we gt our klaz bride n bridegroom which is marvin n ranjetha...n guess wad...our klaz get e 2nd in our level...WOOTS!!!marvin is handsome...ranjetha is pretty...plus e both of them are nt shy...dey can pose together...so...we get e 2nd....yea...den after e celebration in e hall...we get bck to klaz to paint our klazroom...e colour tt we get is nt nice at all...nt quite happy wif e "white"..bt e blossom is nice...=D..same same...took alot of pics ard as it is a festive season...so mr sehkar let us take out our hp to take pics...n here are e pics...
maRvIn aNd mE..tis guy is our bridegroom...handsome right??lol...
mr sEHKar,ranjEtHA(bride..pretty right?),mARVin(bridegroom) N CINdY
CINdY N mi
kai jiNg(brother) N Mi
CiNdy N GLoRiA
GlOrIa,cInDy,MaRviN N mi
GlORIA N MI
gRaCe N Mi
JuLEi n Mi
Matt(fahter),cIndY N mI
MATT,JULy,cINdY gLoRiA n Mi
ShEIkh,gloRia n cInDY
jamEs N JeEvAn actInG gAy...
jamEs JEeVan n mi...the BOTH OF ThEm AcTiNg GAY...
FARHAn,mArViN,cINdy,jAMeS,gLORiA N JeEvAN..
gLOrIa,cIndY n Mi
cIndY,gLoria N MI
gLorIA,JuLy,cINDY n MI
james blocking e camera by putting his face infornt of it...
gLoria,JUly,cINDY N MI
more pics will be up-dated...
.Wednesday, February 14, 2007 ' 2/14/2007 05:38:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LosT daIry cHpT 70:
hai...valentine day today...herm...bought 42 lollipops...abt 36 of it gave to my klaz(normal friends)...e kah beng...after giving him chocolate...he still want lollipop...eat so much...ltr gt diabetes ar...den gave cindy n july lolipop also...bt is diff frm wad i bought for e klaz...coz e klaz e is a shape of a flower...den give jess chocolate also...den wi chen n guan leong's chocolate is e same as kah beng de...den matt's lollipop is e biggest...i tink if he lick e whole day...also cannot finish...den...wei jin n jie mei is also a special lollipop diff frm e klaz de...we bought a spongebob toy for marvin...den i gave 3 lollipop which is e same as my klaz de...to jia yi,nelson n hong yao...jess gave 2 to sun xiong n lu huan...den 1 more...we give mr sehkar...den still gt give sushi n nicholas n sinee...a messager to kitty,yi xin n yan...ya...den receive a packet of sweet frm glorai...a packet of chocolate frm yi xin...get 4 ferrero rocia...eh..it tink wrong spelling...frm wei jin,si qin n jonathan ongn kitty...den snickers,i tink wrong spelling again,frm darryl low...a packet of duno wad chocolate...forgotten e name le frm cheng kang...den a card frm matt...a display n chocolate frm cindy n july...winnie e pooh bear frm jess again...a winnie e pooh jissaw puzzle frm guan leong n wichen...plus a receipt inside...lol...den sweets n chocolate frm neroshha n ranjetha...n a mirror frm kitty also...bt i duno y she give mi a mirror...i nt so ai mei until keep on looking into e mirror...den still gt wad ar??n a sweet frm nelson oh...still gt 1 more sweet...is hu give de ar??die ar...short term memory ar...forgotten le...
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL THE LOVERS OUT THERE
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY TO ALL DUN HAVE LOVERS OUT DER
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NEROSHA TOO!!!
. ' 2/14/2007 12:16:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LOSt DAiRy cHPt 69:
herm...tmr is valentine's day...but so sad...gt dt...hai...bt dun have valentine...so nvm..lol...i gt frens...=D..herm...tmr's dt is combine sci...den jus nw my tourism...haiz...have a bad feeling..coz i duno how to do...so...mayb i have to fail tis test...bt nvm...there's no failure...onli learning experience...lol...tt's wad i learn frm adam khoo workshop...my sis say i have been brainwash by melvin...coz..i have decided wad to do...n i have plan my future well...n she say im crazy...they keep saying tt i cant do it...bt i will always reply dem.."nvm...u all can say wadever u all like to say...i dun care...coz i have high self esteem...no matter wad u all say..will nt affect mi..."..den i tell my fren abt it...he say tt nvm let say all they want...they will know tt i change for e better...nt e worst...ya...quite true...aniway..realli learn alot of tings frm there...i dun care actually...den today tan lao shi n miss shanta keep listening to us to say e magical word...which is "MUST"...ya...den e both of them was like...ok...at least we learn some powerful words tt can push us to our limit...lol...ya...e last day of e adam khoo workshop we sang e skool song...den sing until veri loud...den frm yst onwards...e teachers have been reminding us to sing e national anthem as loud as tt day we e skool song...OMG!!how can tt b possible..
im nw in love wif e song "hero"...tis song is played on e 2nd day of adam khoo workshop...e lyrics goes like tis:
there's a hero
if you look inside your heart
you don't have to be afraid of what you are there's an answer
if you reach into your soul and the sorrow that you know will melt away and then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on and you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive so when you feel like hope is gone look inside you and be strong and you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you it's a long road when you face the world alone no one reaches out a hand for you to hold you can find love if you search within yourself and the emptiness you felt will disappear and then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on and you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive so when you feel like hope is gone look inside you and be strong and you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you
lord knows......
dreams are hard to follow but don't let anyone tear them away
hold on there will be tomorrow in time you'll find the away and then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on and you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive so when you feel like hope is gone look inside you and be strong and you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you
that a hero lies in you...
that a hero lies in you......
pic take wif matt,jeron,jess,jeevan,mi n julei...
.Friday, February 09, 2007 ' 2/09/2007 10:56:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LOST DaiRY cHpT 68:
WOOTS!!!e motivational camp is finally over...i love my trainer melvin...he rox man...i love him...den e freddy...dots..dun wanna say abt him..will die ar...lol..den candice...ok lar...she's alright...bt i still love melvin...yea...get motivated by melvin...he inspired mi alot...tnx...ya...had great fun with him..he veri funni...although he made us cry for e second day...bt i dun blame him..coz..if nt for e things he said..i have nvr know how life is impt..n i must cherish alot of ppl ard mi...n...i love my family...i cry...mayb i feel guilty towards them...n...ya...i will follow melvin's footstep...is nt because im a sheep...i follow him...i follow him in a way tt...i will say "i love u" to all my frens n family members...yea...i love them...ya...today...i gt 3 heros in my mind...they have e courage...i respect them towards my bottom of my heart...they are...jess,marvin n matthew...marvin is e champion hero...ya...i respect him veri much...den after all e talks by e students...we went ard to hug ppl...ya...i said thnx n sorry to mr sehkar for everything...let mi tink...i hug jess,cindy,july,gloria,julei,grace,yan,matthew,marvin,kaijing,priscilla foo n chua,chevalyn,jeron,jeevan,azzilah,shazana,james,ming sheng,kwang hui,jon ong,jie mei,qiu lingn jaq...den shake hands wif wichen,kaijing again..marvin again...matthew again...cheng teck...eh...i tink something like tt bah...yea...maybe gt more..i 4gt liao...coz...there...every1 cry...i nvr cry...den every1 walk ard to talk...hai...n frm nw onwards...i MUST be hardworking,i MUST not be lazy animore..i gt high self-esteem...i dun care ani negatvie remarks liao...just nw tell my sis n mum abt wad i wanna do in my future...they i say i cant do it...bt wad melvin say...if ppl look down on u...u must nt look down on ur self..past does nt equal to future...like chuan lei say also..our grp dj...he say tt he believe in equalivant value...i also belief in tt...if i work hard enuf...i can do it...ya...JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!
.Tuesday, February 06, 2007 ' 2/06/2007 08:58:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOSt DaiRy cHpT 67:
herm...wad to say...duno why...although have been tinking n found e ans tt my feelings wanted..bt duno why...there are times tt..i will still be bck to e starting point...hating myself...for alot of things...hate myself for being so indecisive...ya...maybe im just so used to be so ndecisive...tt's y i keep going bck to e starting point...nvr to reach my goal...everyday...putting down everything...n e next day...i will pick it up again...except to those which im just so tired to pick it up again..n nw...it was left behind mi...n...i tink tt i will nt want to pick it up again...becoz...it is veri tiring for mi to do it...if i do it...i just feel myself stupid...n hate myself to e core...ya...n e whole stupid feeling comes bck...ya...i have open e door tt i have mention in e previous post...bt...although i open e door..i get out of e room...bt i nvr close e door...n...mayb im used to b in e room...sometimes..i will walk bck to e room unconciously...ya...involuntary actions...lol...bio again...haiz...although i have been reminding myself nt to get bck to e room...it is still veri diff for mi to get used to e environment outside e room...hai...tmr gt dadm khoo workshop..until 9...haiz...good lucks to mi...
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[#] MinZ
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[PRPS] ChE YeE
[PRPS] FelIcIa
[PRPS] KAr yEe
[PRPS]JiaN LE
[EV] ciNDY
[EV]grace
[EV] jEss
[EV] maTtHew
[EV] MaRvIn
[EV] JOnATHan QUeck~jie mEi
[EV] NELsoN
[EV] YaN
[EV] jeFfRey
[EV] JiA yI
[EV] JOEy
[EV] peI jUaN
[EV] Si qIn/SI qi
[EV] GLoRIa
[EV] kITty
[EV] PrISciLLA
[EV] Yi XiN
[EV]cHeVaLyn
[EV]PRIsCIlla foO
[EV]DaRryL loW
[EV]vICKy
[EV]JEeVan
[EV]juLy
[EV]JoNAtHan OnG
[EV]FeDeRIck
[EV]wI cHen
[EV]amIRa
[NP]AVT07
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[NP]AVT-V21
[NP]sOnG keAt
[NP]rONnEy
[NP]fiOna
[NP]hAI XIn
[NP]wArdah
[NP]CheNg zHIA
[NP]GiNa[NP] FLORENCE
[NP] gaRy
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