LOSt daiRY ChPT 52:

herm...to day is e last day of 2k6...herm...wad can i say abt tis 2k6??haha...is a realli busy yr...bt at least...in tis yr..i have sort up things tt i have been making myself miserable...ya...say truthfully...although there's some regrets in my memories...which i feel like changing it...there's nothing much i can do...at least i cant change my past...wad if i realli get to a chance to change my life...will i cherish this opportunity to change my past...change my present..n change my future??to mi...i have nt find a ans..ya..if i change get to change my past...i will hve no more regrets..n i can live happily...as..i dun need to look bck my past..n make myself sad...bt if i change my past...maybe...i will nt know so mani friends which i cherish them veri much...true...everything have their 2 sides...there's nth perfect...so...i rather nt change my past...n let my troubles go away...at least...nw...i have some freinds tt i really wish to be friends with them forever...if i change my past...i will not have meet them...i will not understand how impt is friendship...sometimes...i will ask myslef...is e past so impt tt...i make myself feel so down...n making myself miserable...bt...at least...at e last day of 2k6...i have really sort things up...e thing tt i found out this yr..is nt to push urself too much...just treat urself good...n let youself to think wad is realli impt to u...n just go ahead with e things tt u feel impt...u will feel happy...although there's time when we will feel unhappy...bt...u can always get over it...nw...i can say tt...i have no more regrets to my past...cause if nt because of e past...i will nt walk until here...with so much friends...although e past have leave some marks in my life n my heart...bt i also believe tt...1 day...e wounds will be healed...n at tt time...onli hatred will be left i ur memory...bt...hating some1 is veri tiring...y make yourself so tired...just let it go...e same old sentence...forgive n forget...i have forgive some1...n also forget e hurts...nw..is time for mi...to walk out of my own maze...ya...rmb e maze n e door ting i wrote in my previous blog??actually...my door have appear...is just tt..i have no courage to open it...i have no courage to let my past down...i have no courage...to meet e ppl at e other side of e door...bt nw...i have found my courage...n i will open the door of mine...to meet e ppl at e other side of e door...i will nt be sad with my past...bt to bless tt person...i use all my strength to bless...wish tt "you" can be happy...n blessed...i must tnx my friends ard mi...is them who let mi know tt how foolish it was to lock myself in e maze...n here...i also...wish tt...my friend could find e courage...to face e past...n live happily for e future...

1 of my new yr resolution is to wish tt my friends can be happy forever..right from e bottom of their heart...be true to themselves...tt's wad i realli hope...bt...it's veri diff for some ppl...so...another new yr resolution is to see all my friends can be free by their sadness...haha...will my new yr resolution come true??n den...rmb tt...my ears is always there to listen to ur prob...aniting can come n talk to mi...

n den 1 more wish is for jess...hope tt her beloved darren can get e superstar champion...which i tink is veri diff la...opps...bt i truely wish him all e best...haha...

1 more wish is to hope tt...i can stop being a dreamer...haha...veri diff...bt this is wad i wish la...dun like to be a dreamer...hehez...tt's y i hate myself...opps...=x...haha....

o ya...i nice eng song...dun be so surprise tt i listen to eng song hor...lolx...e song name "Never Let You Go"...haha...nice song la...go n listen...lolx...i wan cry liao la..skool re-open...i cannot see mt animation liao la...sad leh...den go watch youtube...keep loading so slow..den can only see a few sec...coz loading is nt good...sad...if i watch every wed-fri...den i veri late den can slp...coz finish until 12..sad ar...i can either choose to slp or watch get backers...sad la...sob sob...lolx...eh...i crazy le...sob le den lol...haha...my santa is tired...he's going to bed...lolx...my computer gt 1 santa...when it's late...he will appear on e screen den give mi e tired face...den his bed will appear...den he will go to slp...haha...i tink he is trying to remind mi go n slp bah...haha...cute sia...=D...e night is so queit..n my stomach is so damn e pain...i tink is my stupid gastric is acting up again...eat too much le just nw...just nw eat steamboat with girl girl...eat so much...e prob is...i onli eat pork ball n fish...bt i eat alot...wha le mak...so pain...just nw is girl girl stomach pain...nw is mi...ltr sure is my sis...haha...if like tt she die ar...coz she nw at olender tower...celebrating new yr wif her frens...ltr she pain...she die ar...haha...i tink i write until here bah...ltr realli is 2k7...den blog 1 more time...lol...

lOsT DAIry cHpT 51:

sob sob...nt happi...sad.sad...my sis dun like e new room idea...sad...veri sad...:'(

lOSt DaiRy cHpT 50:

herm...post 50 post liao...lolx...a few more days to a new year...herm...den..i will also have my new room next yr...cause i told my mum tt i wan a new room...coz like tt i can have more space to do my things...if according to my father plan...my hse tt old n dirty balcony will change to my room...bt of coz...muz renovate la...haha...or else hor...it will be damn e dirty de lor...like tt i will die man...haha...bt muz have my sis agree also den can la..if she dun agree wif it...my new room hope will be vanish...den i will cry...haha...herm...wad will i put in my new room??haha??dun plan first...after my sis agree den start to plan...ltr if cannot ernovate...i will be veri veri sad de...den my fren can come my room next time..dun nd to sty in my father's work room...herm...finally finish my a maths...bt skip lots of qn....den e amths finially finish 75% bt nt all...so...at least i finish my 75%...like tt veri good liao...haha...of coz e 75% gt some parts also gt skip de la...bt i realli dun feel like doing leh...tt's y i stop after finishing e stupid 75%...herm...veri unhappy now adays...cause skool will be open in a few more days le...sad...veri sad...den went to my new klaz last few week...coz gt duty...den..i tell u...i realli dun like my new klaz room...although is a new blog...bt duno how to say...i like other klaz better den our klaz...especially next yr 406 klaz...air-condition room...OMG....y are they so good ar??hai...sad..

keep raining now adays...raining heavily...veri heavy...same.....

Lost daIRy chPt 49:

herm...jus came bck frm my aunt hse...we went there to celebrate christamas...n of coz...change present...eh...get a esprit t-shirt n a addidas bag frm girl girl...n a billabong wallet from her bf,brian...haha...coz duno how to spell his chi name...den a I.P ZONE belt from ying...perfume from kang hui n a pen holder from kelvin...hai...so tired today...feel like slping der...coz nth to do..girl girl's fren is der to count down for christmas...so boring...nth to do...haiz...eh...den...also gt some angry things la...haiz...dun talk abt it...haiz...btw...TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS!!!bt...i will be at home e whole day...coz no1 ask mi out...sob sob...so ke lian...n den i still gt so mani q of A maths questionhaven do finish..still need to study for bio for e test when skool re-open...need to revise a maths again...to get used wif e formula....hai...busy week...i tink nw ppl ask mi out i also no time le bah...tis week cannot go out...bt...hai...this sunday...i tink...need to go ah yi hse...hai...need to see e 4 demons again...luckily...today onli kelvin come...or else...i will be dead...angry until die de....o ya...receive a christamas card...hai...so ke lian...onli receive 1 christmas card...haha...sob sob...mei you ren yuan...haha....den receive 2 online greetings card from priscilla foo n kelvin...today onli eve...den gt 2 ppl wish mi merry christmas le...bt...nvm...i still appreciate it...lolx...e 2 are jeevan n matt...tnx guys...lol...eh...i go watch tv le...haha...cont next time....

LoSt dairY CHPt 48:

herm...jus finish e stupid cca fair...i feel so happi n sad...i feel happi as in im lucky nt to meet e new batch of sec1 coz...my juniors alreadi make mi veri headache...nw...luckily...its over...so...i dun nd to becum headache bcoz of my juniors...my "beloved" juniors...wha...they so power leh...dey dun even follow my instructions...if aniting happen,find mi...so guess wad they do??they come up to e lib 2 times to change tt stupid laptop...bt nvr ask help frm mi...wha...like tt dey delay 30 mins of e time...make e miss see sooooooooooooo angry...den scold mr loh...den mr loh say mr tan...den mr tan come say mi...alone...den after tt...mr loh look for mi to say the same matter...den after tt...mr loh say us...e us include mi,jiayi,hy,kwang hui...pei juan beside of coz nvr get scolded coz...mr loh say...we are the seniors....so we muz do things...cannot hide...bt e prob is...we nvr hide...for their info...we are busy wif something else too...n...today...im nt the overall ic...i let liying they all do...is want them to get more experience...n wad happen at last??im e 1 hu get scolded e most time...coz after tt...mr tan say us again...wha...today kana scolded 4 times...i veri unhappi liao lor...maybe im in e fault tt nvr go supervise them...im wrong to trust tt they can handle their own...ok...nvm...i learn this lesson...n...e afternoon cca fair...i run abt like crazy...scared ltr cork up again...n e teachers will start finding mi...den nw...i like dun wan to let li ying they all have chance to learn...wads this meaning??ok..like tt...i can take it...nvm...let mi do e last time...e veri last time...i alredi nt veri happi liao...den...my juniors again...they keep on finding things to make mi angry...
first...ask them go down n ask ppl come up n have a look at our library...den they dun wan..nvm...i dun care...i realli dun care..coz is nt my prob liao ma...n den nw is nt "e more e merrier" nw is "e more e sooner i will die"...so...i dun realli care how mani ppl come n sign for it...
secondly,tehy are so bored until they started to ply e papers...making paper aeroplanes...duno wad shit...dey have e time to ply...dun have e time to listen to my words...so...i realli realli cannot control my temper...n ask them to stop plying...guess wad...they stop plying n den kwang hui start plying...i was so damn e angry...so i grab his arms wif my fingernails...n ask him to stop...after tt...i sit on e table n trying to control my temper...bt...he n hy...was der talking..n i realli duno wad they was talking abt...den ltr...kwang hui stand beside mi...n start to make"some noise"so...i jus walk away n dun wan to quarrel wif him...i realli nt angry wif him...i jus cant believe tt some1 can be so childish...haha..den hy reali tot i angry...den come n ask mi...bt e prob is...im nt angry...so...dun realli mind it...haha...

eh...sunrise n sun set....wad will u choose??i will choose sunset...cause i love e night...night is peaceful n quiet...tt's y i choose sunset...which means e dark is coming...herm...haha...i find it a bit lame...so...hai...forget it...hehe...hai...boring life...how i wish i could....

LoSt daIRy cHpt 47:

hehe...counting doen 4 days to christmas...SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN!!!hehe...my santa...herm...hu will my santa be???haha...eh...wad can i say...its going to be e end of e yr...n...hai...good lucks to li ying,merylin n mr tan...cause...oh...they will be in great stress...cause...this yr sec1 is still so "raw" n next yr still gt 1 more new batch...hai...i can onli say good lucks to them...haha...n im free aniway...dun nd to stress wif my cca tingy...no more e xcuse for mi to skip classes...n yesh...i can concentrate wif my study n work hard in my O level...cause few days ago...see ppl get result...see ppl happi n sad...so...i dun be the 1 who are sad...i wan be happi.....so...muz work veriv eir hard...n if my klaz kana sehkar again...just like wad jess wrote to mi in e letter...we muz work extra extra hard...so...let's work hard for a betta tomorrow...=D

hehe...ya...being extremly stupid this time...extremly stupid....stupid until i wanna jus bang my head to the wall...n better...let mi lose my memory...like tt..at least i will forget y i hate myself so much...n also...why m i being so stupid...hai...n also...y i hate this world so much...i keep telling myself to forgive n forget...ya...its easy to forgive ppl...bt...its diff to forget...if it's nt a serious matter...it will nt be stored in ur memory...unless it hurts or wad...its veri diff to forget...although things pass...ppl are forgiven...bt...e pain will still hurts...so...as far as possible...i dun wanna hurt ppl...bt sometimes...being stupid...i will still hurt ppl...here...wanna say SORRY to those ppl who have been hurt by mi...im really sorri...maybe...somewhere in e world...there will be someplace tt ppl will be forgiven...a place where no1 will feel hurt...bt if there's realli a place??how can we go??where muz go to find this place...a peace n quiet place??i read an article...duno where la...coz its nt impt at all...most importantly...is e content...is something abt ur goals in life...why ppl set goals...n why ppl aim to reach their goals...ya...exactly...i dunno wads my goal...n i dun even noe...y m i still living in this world...funni rite??cause i jus live everyday i can..i dun have ani goals...i dun even noe where m i going to study after sec schools...i onli noe tt i can to go to poly...bt i duno wad course...i duno wad to do in my future life...so...nw...i will start to slow down my pace...tink wad m i aiming for...give mi time to tink...n in e time while...i will also PLAY...hehe...play in a sense tt...i will get to learn somthing in it...at least its a lesson for mi to learn...ya...i tink until here bah...cause like write alot of thing...too long ppl see le will headache de...lol...tt's all...lol...

lOSt DAiRY cHpT 46:


last thu went to watch happy feet...those little penguines are sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute...hehe...o ya...i also exchange christmas present wif jess...she gave mi a box of famous amous cookies...hehe...i love eating cookies...yummy...haha...delicious...i have a new "boyfriend"...i bring him along everywhere ard my hse...except bathing n slping...haha...he is a sailor...haha...haha...i muz be mad...baby pooh...the cute baby pooh is my bd present frm jess also...haha...i love him veri much...haha...tnx gal...:D...den yi xin gave mi a treble clef necklace...hehe...thank you...haha....hmm...nw tinking to buy christmas present for others...hai...i hate buying present for guys...so diff...n i was given a task to buy their present...omg...can ani1 give mi ani idea wad to buy for the guys??both of dem are nt boys...dey are old enough to be called guys...hai...aniway...i realli duno wad to buy for them...hai...help!!!hm...busy week...coz haven do finish a maths...onli done 5 q??haha...wad a joke...is going to skool re open...n i haven finish a maths...e maths luckily finish 75% le...nw is e stupid a maths le...hai...den thu n fri still need go bck skool for e cca fair tingy...after cca fair...maybe still have to go for kang hui's bd party...luckily nw haven heard they are celebrating...so...tt means...i dun nd to go...coz...i realli veri busy...i going to go mad...time is rushing...n i have no more time...lol...bt i still have e time to blog...haha...so funni...o ya...tmr still nd go bck skool for e release of N level result...den sun nd go girl girl hse for christmas celebration...hai...after tt...i will left 1 wk...n i realli dun wish to find out...how mani a maths q i have finish...sob sob...i wanna cry liao...lol...i tink read until here...jess will be veri dotz....coz she must be tinking...pei lin will cry de meh..nvr finish she also wun cry de...hehe...u see...i bloging stil gt tink of u leh...haha...SIAO ar mi...lol...i tink i end here le bah...coz wan watch tv le...haha....still de same old mi...

lOSt daIRy ChPt 45:

hmm...just come back from skool...haha...madam zarda order canadian pizza for us to eat...i wonder wad will we be eating during cca fair...lol...hmm...m i just so stupid???hai...ya...i totally agree that im stupid,idiot,crazy,blur....everything tt is bad can be found in mi...coz...im a bad person...i hate myself to the core...so...i dun mind ppl hate mi...eh...receive a present from sin ee n jia yi...a veri cute pencil holder...winnie e pooh...gt piglet in it...veri veri cute...haha... so cute....hmm...gt another song to intro...haha..chi song again...zhuan shu tian shi...hmm...i find it veri nice...haha...like everytime my post must into a song leh...thinking wad to write...cause gt ppl complain y blog veri short...so must tink of mani tings to write...haha...herm...bt i realli cannot tink of aniting to say...eh..lol...den betta dun say aniting liao...lol...o ya...cristmas is ard e corner...muz be good girl n boy...or else santa will nt give u present de...haha... because e present will be onli given to those nice nice boys n girls...so...let's hope santa is coming to singapore this yr...lol...

LoSt dairy chpT 44:

hmm...just read finish some of my frens blog...is like..every1 ard mi is being trap somewhere in their live...especially in their past...in thier memory...because there's some regrets,tt's y they live in e past..imaginating...hoping to reduce the regret tt is within him/her...wad can i say??i cant help myself...n im just trying to help them...joke of the day...haha...to help ppl...the 1st ting is to help urself...just like wad miss shanta say...if want to be a Psychotherapist(isi this e correct spelling??eh...i duno also...aniway is sort of a mental doctor), you have to know how to treat urself...like tt den u can treat ppl...i tink tt's true...mani tings are beyond our control...n it is easier to say den to do...words are bigger den action wad...lol...mani mani times...i have been tinking,why really e defination of LOVE...to mani ppl...love is a....happy??betta den happy...is a word tt i will nvr noe how to describe...haha...bt y muz love be good n bad at the same time...love give happiness to ppl...n also hurt other ppl in another way...ya...say truthfully...every1 wants to be in loved n want ppl to love them as well...bt once get hurt...its veri diff to believe in love...cause we humans are animals too...n we are sensitve...n we also know how to protect ourself from being hurt...once get hurt... our subconcious will tell us nt to get ani further...hai...aniway...time will heal the wounds in the heart...bt it cant heal the wounds in the mind...so...we cant push it too hard...just let the time pass...n slowly forget the pain..like tt..den can start a new life bah...mani tings we cant realli control...especially feelings...no matter how clever or how clear minded...when it comes to feelings...they just have to face it...n let fate handle the problem...aniwayz...i realli hope my frens...especially those who are lost...try to find ur door,no matter wads behind the door,just open it,its betta to lock urself in e maze n finding a door that will nvr open for you...waiting a door which will nvr open for u..will make urslef lost in e maze...so...just be brave enough to open a new door...which will open for u...if u have the courage la...haha...if nt..will just end up like mi...nth betta to do...running ard e maze..n plying hide n seek wif myself...which i call it escaping la...haha...hai...just hope tt u guys can realli be happy..is nt those fake fake de la...must be realli veri happy de...i realli hope u all can be happy...dun keep tinking of the past...hai...tt's all bah...

hmm...like this song now adays...haha...keep changeing..bt realli veri nice...

lOSt DAiRY ChPt 43:

hmm...e next day i came back from taiwan,i went to my klaz bbq...hmm...quite a no of them came veri late...den july,cindy,matt n mi play e "fireworks"...den e cheng teck say mi childish...keep saying...keep saying...bt he also gt go out n see us play...haha...den i help them barbeque e chicken wings...e guys nvr help de leh...all sit down der plying their guitar...hai...den at night they den start to help...help to barbeque for themselves to eat...den miss shanta also gt come..den vicky veri stupid ar...ask miss shanta if e 1st day of the school gt spot check nt...haha...den mr sehkar gt stay overnite at tt day...n i heard tt...there's some1 who snores veri loud...making gloria n jeron cant get to sleep...haha...veri funni...

cindy,july n me..see e necklace??tt's given by e two of them...ty...















cindy,july,matt n me















cindy n me















matt,ciny,july n me..matt is holding farhan's new hp..

lOSt daIRy ChpT 42:

WOOTS!!!!im back...from tai wan...n for e lpast 7 days..i have travelled ard taiwan abt 2000km...cool rite??haha...1st day...reach taiwan at ard 5 plus...den went to shi lin ye shi...after tt...of coz...we went back to e hotel...5 star hotel...hehe...is a golf club...duno call taoyuan yaward ar??taiwan trip if ok la...jus tt...e hoetl yucks...onli 3 days of e hotel is 5star...others...is so yucks...haha...eh...say truthfully...taiwan have mani hadsome guys...unlike singapore...haha...no comments abt it...haha....i tink i will kana wack by u guys le...haha...hai...took quite mani pic..but most of them cannot publish on e blog...haha...e tour guide also bought bd cake n celebrate with mi..my tour gt 4 ppl also dec bd...so we celebrate together...haha....want to have a look at more pics...can go see my sis blog...haha...

this is my bd cake...haha..i onli 10 years old...cause gt 5 ppl bd...den gt 5 big candles..lol















guess wad's e tempertaure out der??lol...is 14 degree celcius...















e guy looking back is e onli guy in my tour grp which look nice...bt for ur info...e main focus is e pillar n e building behind it...ok??














ai zi chuan














ai zi chuan..mi n my sis..






























ah mei zhu















duno wad's tis place call...lol...



























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