.Tuesday, February 06, 2007 ' 2/06/2007 08:58:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOSt DaiRy cHpT 67:
herm...wad to say...duno why...although have been tinking n found e ans tt my feelings wanted..bt duno why...there are times tt..i will still be bck to e starting point...hating myself...for alot of things...hate myself for being so indecisive...ya...maybe im just so used to be so ndecisive...tt's y i keep going bck to e starting point...nvr to reach my goal...everyday...putting down everything...n e next day...i will pick it up again...except to those which im just so tired to pick it up again..n nw...it was left behind mi...n...i tink tt i will nt want to pick it up again...becoz...it is veri tiring for mi to do it...if i do it...i just feel myself stupid...n hate myself to e core...ya...n e whole stupid feeling comes bck...ya...i have open e door tt i have mention in e previous post...bt...although i open e door..i get out of e room...bt i nvr close e door...n...mayb im used to b in e room...sometimes..i will walk bck to e room unconciously...ya...involuntary actions...lol...bio again...haiz...although i have been reminding myself nt to get bck to e room...it is still veri diff for mi to get used to e environment outside e room...hai...tmr gt dadm khoo workshop..until 9...haiz...good lucks to mi...