.Sunday, July 29, 2007 ' 7/29/2007 01:48:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOsT dairY ChPt 119:
herm...a advice frm my fren...dun stop writing blog bcz of some1...haha...ok..i head to that fren's advice...
duno wad to say..feel like leaving...throwing everything that bothers mi away...y cant i just throw away all my responsibilities...all...jus...everything...i just simply hate myself for everything...everything...i realli feel like leaving...y must i keep on doing all this things??told myself to stop...bt...i just cant stop myself...i just duno wad to do...
i just simply myself in a maze...i tot i have came to the end of the maze..i open the door...saw e light that is right infrot of mi...i tot tt..it is jus e end of e maze..my courage made mi walk right into the door..i find myself in a different world...however...tis world that i slowly getting used to is nt e world i want...am i doing the right thing to walk into this door??in e begining..i hope that..at the other side of the door..is the place where i want to go..and..i would like to stay forever in it..bt...everything ard mi..changes me...suiting into this environment that i dun wish to be..bt..i have no choice...slowly...i cant remember what i was like in the pass...when im in e maze...and what i was like..before entering the maze...time fades my memory...all i rmb nw...is nt e things i want to remember...maybe...it is wrong for me to leave e maze...at least..in e maze..i rmb wad i used to be...is just tt..it is veri diff for mi to get bck to e past..nw..i can even rmb...how???who can help mi??
how i wish..i could leave this place...throwing away my troubles....