lOst dAirY cHpt 151:

hoping that nothing change..but..seems that..i'm the one who changes everything around me...haha..and now,hoping that nothing change..or maybe..nothing realli change..wad changes is wad i see and feel from my point of view...ya..

saw quek's blog..haha..suddenly,feels that..maybe i'm wrong...wrong to escape..haha...escape e facts that i know..maybe i've reacted in a wrong way...there's bad and good side of human being..is just that..i know them as a good side..and suddenly..in just 1 days..or maybe 1 month...i've known too many..haha..started to do something that i wouldn't do..in the past,i can still tolerate and try not to show my unhappiness towards the people i dun like...bt..seems that..i cant cont to treat like nothing ever happen and i don't know anything...haha...thinking over and over again...may be i shouldn't react in that way..that's wad someone confront me on that day...he claim that...e peilin that he knows will not react such badly by confronting other people and looping the hole...but..e actual fact is that..i NEVER loop the hole..ok...i jus vent my anger on that idiot...cz..i know is wrong looping hole..so..i did not say anything...maybe i'm e one who reacted badly to e case...

4 months..doing things and stuff which is not my duty...haha..maybe i have enough of it..and wanted to have a break from all e nonesense from that i'll get from him...haha...too harsh ar my words...haha...1st time realli talking abt the case on my blog...haha...feel much more relieve..and i backstabbing him??

lost dAiRY CHPt 150:

yesterday went bck to school with jjiayi,hong yao,jeffrey and kwang hui...went back to see mr tan...haha...we meet for lunch...and e guys are late!!!veri late...haha...when every1 is here...we went to buy our food...den e uncle ask hong yao to pay for mi and jiayi...lol...bt..at e end..we still pay him back e money..haha...ya...bt y out of sudden they all bcum so gentleman??i wonder y...haha...den went back to school..haha...cz of kwang hui hair...e guard dun wan let us in..bt...haha...he still let us in la...den saw mrs mani and mr foo...mr foo keep on psycho mi go ITE...haha...den keep saying i fail my subjects...haha...everytime bully mi...den went up...saw mr tan...den talk and talk and talk....den kwang hui and hong yao keep on di siao mi...so bad sia..den i so angry..i keep on punching kwang hui cz he beside mi..haha...den after tt...ard 4 plus..we went home...haha...mr tan says he wants to treat us eat..so...maybe tis fri we going out again...haiz...extending my last day again...

lOsT daiRy ChPt 149:

HAHA...I duno wad happen to mi...tears just fall down..lol...cant control it...duno wad's e reason..anyway...said goodbye to all my beloved frens...ya..maybe tt's e reason i'm sad...i'm nt sure..jus feel so bad..or maybe it's late..and i nvr receive ani of ur message..haha...bt when i finally receive..i jus cant get rid of e feeling inside mi...i'm alright..dun need to worry for mi cindy...haha...cz..u are e onli person will b reading tis entry...nobody from our school knows tis new site...maybe i've done wrong...bt wad can i do??wad is done cant b undone..

lOSt dairY CHpT 148:

sob sob...my leg veri pain!!!!!yesterday...went to ngee ann poly with ct and grace...haha...go out with me always need to wake up veri early..haha...so..i meet ct in e train at 1030..haha...den meet grace in kembangan...haha..bt..grace enter e wrong cabin of e train..so..mi n ct walk to e cabin she is to find her...wad can i say abt ct?idiot...anyhow walk...haha...den e ppl sitting and standing keep on looking at us...den after city hall..which alot of ppl will alight,we quickly walk to e cabin grace is in...den ard 20 mins like tt bah...we reach clementi..den took e bus to ngee ann...my leg already veri pain le..den ct still walk veri fast....so tired...so pain...den we still need to walk up e slope...='(i wan cry ar..haha...den we walk in and out e same building 3 times...den e same ppl keep asking us if we want to take e tour bus...haha...den after staying there for 1 hr plus...we went to eat mac..cz...ct says he want..haha...den after eating...we went to marina square kbox...haha...den as usual..ct dun wanna sing...haha...den mi n grace keep on asking him to sing...and at least..he sing!!!yea!!!den after singing...we went back...and e journey back home is more tiring...omg...so tired...



好讨厌自己。。。现在的我，没有人懂，我也不想让人懂。。想找个人来依赖，却找不到。。。累了。。越来越讨厌自己。。。或许，当我讨厌自己到了一个极限的时候，我会做出很多恐怖的事。。。哈哈，我也不知道我会做什么。。

小煜-MAKE ME A FOOL(my fav song in their new album..haha..nice song...)


小煜-人生海海


毛弟- 我們之間(haha...2nd fav song from lollipop new album)


王子- 大豬頭


小傑- 幸福就好


小傑 - 我已經長大(this song veri cute...haha...)


小祿- 你不在(小祿 is so awesome...haha..he sing veri good..=DD)


張韶涵- 親愛的，那不是愛情MV

lOSt daIrY ChPt 148:

when can i leave this place and live happily ever after without any regrets and burden??haha...i once heard someone say that..there's nothing in this earth that's ends everything with "happily ever after"..every "happily ever after" will still continue...and most of it with end up with a veri bad ending...haha...i'm not sure if it is true..but,at least...i wanted to live happily ever after...maybe it's just a dream..haha..actually..i've straighten up many many thoughts in my mind..and i know what to do...sometimes...i just wanted to make a wonderful memory...haha...that's all i want...haha...i can say that...i've changed alot since pri6...ya..and i wanted to change again..3 years down e road...when i graduate from poly(which i hope i can..)...i wanted to say that...i've changed alot since sec4...maybe the change is bad..but..i just wanted to change...i'm just too tired of what i've live this 4 years and sick and irritated by what i've gone through this 4 years...cause everything seems to be repeating...whenever....
just so sick,tired and irritated by myself...haha...i just wanted to change my life...and from now on...if anything repeats...i'll choose to HACK CARE...cause...i know...that's not e life i want...in e past..haha...i realli wanted to know..wad's my extent...haha...bt...now,i realli dun wanna know...lol...e timing is just not so right...haha...

每次，当有人说愿意当我的“垃圾桶”，我不知道为什么，我会开始怕。。或许是害怕依赖。。害怕让我依赖的人开始讨厌我。。害怕让我依赖的人离我而去。。应为，了解自己是一个依赖性很强的人。当有人愿意让我依赖，我往往都回避开。。或许，在他说出口的当下，我是开心的，但，害怕却掩盖了所有的快乐。。因此，每当想找个人听我说话，都不知道该找谁。。人生啊。。咳。。

lOsT DAiRy cHpT 147:

ok...i'm not in a good mood today...cause...haiz....dun wanna talk abt it...just dun feel like sleeping...cause...haha..realli dun have e mood....=((haiz...let's talk abt something happy happen this few days...

me and felicia...


felicia,karyee,pearlyn,mi,berlinda and felicity...


a random pic..haha...e 4 of us are chit chatting...


e 4 of us...=DDok..i'm e shortest...haha...cz..all of them are tall...veri tall..i think felicia is taller than kaijing...lol...realli veri tall...or mayb same height...


random pic number 2.....


e 4 of us again...haha...they have to bend their body to suit my height...lol...so sorry...haha...


HApPy BIRtHDAY 17th felICia!


4 of us..lol...felicia should cry...haha...cz..it suppose to b surprise...lol...


another pic...oh ya..e cake is yummy..lol..


pearlyn,me,karyee,felicia,berlinda and felicity...
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herm...last fri we have our klaz chalet at aloha changi...haha...e chalet is quite big..there's a big kitchen at e back,1 dinning room,1 living room,3 bedrooms and 4 toilets...haha...big right???haha...ok...erm...there's almost half of e klaz there...haha...in e morn..i went to tm and meet grace in popula..after tt meet matt and grace went off to meet huiyi...den..mi and matt went back to EVSS...den it's CCA fair...saw gl..den gl accompany us back to school again..while matt went to sac to "scold" his juniors...mi n gl sit in canteen and chit chat...mr foo came and talk to us...as usual..mr foo likes to suan mi..den gl is jus there laughing...and i laugh until my face turn veri red...ya..had a veri long talk with mr foo...den after kaili came...mi n matt went to "tour" evss again..haha...saw mrs lee and talk to her a while...went to library and find mr tan and msm azizzah...den i saw this junior...sooooooo irritatin..haha..tt's my opinion onli la...haha...she keep asking mr tan who i am...hai...cant see that i'm talking to mr tan??y interupt..den went to coffee shop to have lunch...oh ya...tt day..duno how many ppl say mi n matt are lovers...DOTS~~!!!tt's sososo impossible...right matt??haha...den after lunch..we decide to take bus..bt e bus is so long tt we walk from tampines to pasir ris...wanted to walk to changi..haha...we must b crazy..haha...when we are walking which is going to reach my hse...there's a big fat rat run pass mi..OMG!!!den matt still play with that stupid rat....argh~!den walk to loyang point...matt wanted to buy some drink...so..we went to mac....haha...den we decide to take taxi to e chalet...lol...cz raining la...haha...den when we reach e chalet...so many of them already reach...haha...erm..let's see some pics...


our chalet


our chalet looks like a house right??


starting fire...bt...it's raining...


aw...so sad...they are setting e fire while it's raining..lol..and wad am i doing??lol...inside e house taking lots and lots of pics...haha...and play...


mi and my jie mei quek~...


omg...we have a veri good cook call jeevan...haha...all e food are chao ta...uncook...haha...cant blame la...cz..i also nvr do aniting..waiting to b served...opps..=x...cz..playing wad...haha...


see our cheif's hand....so dirty...


rainning!!!and quek wants to get wet...


vicky...wad are u doing??


lol...mi acting cute...haha...


mi acting cute picture 2...lol...


mi and azzilah....


whao..matt..jiayou...ACJC rox!!!haha...


wad am i doing??oh..looking at jeevan's camera...


lol..we have nothing to do after playing truth or dare...so..let's take some pics...lol...1,2,3 SMILE


again..let's SMILE


SMILE one more time...haha..


oh..we are playing truth or dare halfway..and jeevan is peeping us from e window...haha...and what's cheng teck doing??
ans:dun wan to b in e picture..haha...


let's smiel again..lol...


whao...i know wei jie for 4 years and tis is my 1st picture with him...lol...cool...


want to know how our jeevan cook??let mi tell u...he's so afraid that there's no fire...he DRIP oil on it..lol..and our food is veri oily...


so...we went to changi village and have our dinner...lol...and farhan looks so hungry...


another pic with matt...and matt is wearing sheikh's hat...


let's smile...bt..i can onli see jeevan's face and half of my face...and sheikh's face is totally gone...lol..


it's midnight..and it's time to pack..so...e boys are clearing up e mess and washing uo everything...


omg...OIL!!!


haha...jeevan took a long time...bt..s.till e black stuffs cant get out of e frying pan...


farhan playing sheikh's guitar...


marvin is playing too...haha...

LoSt daiRY chpT 146:

guess wad??haha...finally i have to admit that i'm USELESS...lol...haha...jus useless...i remember telling one of my friend that few days back...in other ppl's eyes, i'm like someone who can solve alot of things...haha...ya..i can help my friends...bt..i cant help myself and......haiz...just feel so pathetic...and duno who to talk to..cz..dun wanna interupt anyone..either they are studying or working...so busy....haha...at least found some1 to talk to that day...actually...i dun need anyone to tell mi to do wad...i just need someone to distract me by telling mi some lame things...after that...i can sort up all my thought myself...haha...sometimes..i feel that a friend that doesn't talk much understand this more than some of my friend...haha...所谓，知心朋友，不一定是最好的朋友。。anyway...realli have to thank him alot la...eh...like gt alot of unknown him in my post..haha...bt...all of them know who they are...right??=DD

Lost daiRy ChPT 145:

alot of things has been running in my mind...haha...i'm so lost myself..hai...oh ya..forgotten to tnx my PANDA KOR KOR..*VOMIT*..i can never say this out..onli can type it out...stupid guy...everytime ask mi to call him tis...i jus cant say it out frm my mouth...idiot guy...haha...bt..he's e 1st one that says something tt i realli veri touched for a guy la..haha...will always remember this guy...helpful guy i can say...haha..although everytime we will bicker over small matters...bt...we will know when each of us is angry...haha...thus,everytime when he want act as if he's angry..is veri easy for mi to expose him..haha...realli tnx to him alot...oh ya...i still owe him a outing...haha...must remember to come and claim from mi hor..if u forget..den forget it...haha...this "kor kor" veri funni...when i owe him a favour...guess wad...he wants mi to stay happy...haha...realli...thanks to him...that day actually is a awful day..bt..it turns better...at least some1 cares if i'm happy anot...thanks...=DD

想要伪装自己的不开心，但你，却那么容易看出我的不开心，我真的好没有用啊！！！！真得谢谢。。对一个那么没有用的人那么好=DD

LoSt daiRY ChPt 144:

thanks to u..haha...rtealli..veri thank you...at least i find some1 to talk to when i dun feel good....u know who u are...thanks alot...if not for you...i realli duno what i will do..=D

累了，想要找个人依赖，但却找不到。。好累。。找个人依赖，依靠，真的有那么难吗？？好累！！！谁能让我依赖？

LOST daiRY CHPt 143:

Peilin

[#] SiS
[#] MinZ
[#] pInG YInG
[PRPS] ChE YeE
[PRPS] FelIcIa
[PRPS] KAr yEe
[PRPS]JiaN LE
[EV] ciNDY
[EV]grace
[EV] jEss
[EV] maTtHew
[EV] MaRvIn
[EV] JOnATHan QUeck~jie mEi
[EV] NELsoN
[EV] YaN
[EV] jeFfRey
[EV] JiA yI
[EV] JOEy
[EV] peI jUaN
[EV] Si qIn/SI qi
[EV] GLoRIa
[EV] kITty
[EV] PrISciLLA
[EV] Yi XiN
[EV]cHeVaLyn
[EV]PRIsCIlla foO
[EV]DaRryL loW
[EV]vICKy
[EV]JEeVan
[EV]juLy
[EV]JoNAtHan OnG
[EV]FeDeRIck
[EV]wI cHen
[EV]amIRa
[NP]AVT07
[NP]AVT08
[NP]AVT-V21
[NP]sOnG keAt
[NP]rONnEy
[NP]fiOna
[NP]hAI XIn
[NP]wArdah
[NP]CheNg zHIA
[NP]GiNa[NP] FLORENCE
[NP] gaRy
[NP] NiCoLe
[NP] kieN ChyE