.Wednesday, February 27, 2008 ' 2/27/2008 09:01:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
losT DAIry cHpt 156:
herm..today..went out to ws for lunch with my mum and sis...den when going home..my mum lazy to walk home..so,we took e bus...when e bus drove pass coral sec..watching e students coming out from e school with friends..made me think of e past 4 yrs in ev again..wad can i say??missing them...missing e days..
thinking back..sec1..1st day in school..i know nobody..haha...ya..den slowly started to know peijun..den sinee and jess..and finally a few months ltr..everyone in e class are playing together...guys making fun of mi..and blah blah blah...after school..we will walk out of school in groups..haha...during sec1..seeing things tt are new..veri curious...sec2..getting used to everything and everyone in school...sec3..whenever walking out of school..nvr tried to notice anything..cz..getting so used to e environment...sec4..haha...习惯成自然..jus walk in and out the school as usual...
everything jus flash back...slowly,started to notice that..i realli duno anything...if u ask mi e blk of e school coffee shop..my ans will b dunno..cz..everything get used to it le..nvr tried to notice all e tiny tiny matter...cz know how to walk there...nvr even tried to notice..even now u ask mi wad's e add of my school..haha...i also duno...haha...
thinking back..i am back to square one...=(sec1..in a new environment..although in EV there's also ppl from prps...bt..duno y..just cant get along..maybe..i'm e onli girl...and now..from wad i know...no1 is going ngee ann with mi...back to square one..alone...need to get used to e new environment again...maybe is good also...like wad marvin says...is a brand new chpt of my life...new ppl..but i'm still SCARED!cz..since i'm in engineering course...which i realli hope i'm jus dreaming...haha..i scared there's no girl in e course...den e "back to square one" is a bad one...haiz...
oh ya...need to thanks quek and sheikh to comfort mi...maybe they know...i'm scared and alone..keep on reminding me that my course is cool and fun...haha...ya..i must admit that..i tink my course is fun..but..i'm still WORRIED!!anyone know who going ngee ann poly??e most i expect is to know some1 going to e school with me..i dun expect to b in e same course..realli..i jus need to know that..i have a friend in tt school..which realli will minimize my "worried-ness"..
.Tuesday, February 26, 2008 ' 2/26/2008 06:58:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOST daiRy Chpt 155:
herm..seems that my life is e same..everyday morn wake up..watch online drama...den eat..den watch again..den eat...bath...den watch again..den sleep...BORING!!haha...have been watching jap drama...is nice!!!ya..life is all e same...whao...guess wad??e show i jus watch finish "attention please" is having another special..and e broadcast date is on april..hopefully i can watch it e next day...herm..going to watch movie with jeffrey they all on fri...bt..still cant decide on a movie yet
cz tt stupid kwang hui...wanna kill him!!!everyone is ok..onli him cannot...kill him ar...
movies that i wanna watch:
-P.S. i love you
-L changes the world
-#rule number one!!!!
坦然地接受所有的事情。。不是接受命运,而是因为想要改变命运之前,我必须先接受命运,然后,才慢慢的改变我该有的命运。。。了解吗?想要掌握命运之前,要先了解命运。。
.Saturday, February 23, 2008 ' 2/23/2008 06:52:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LOsT dAiry 154:
hai...get so irritated by so many things now adays.haiz..herm....finally solved all my problems...该放弃的,我放弃了,该原谅的,我也原谅了,该释怀的,我也都释怀了,不该拖拖拉拉的事情,也解决了。。真的相通了,或许是想太多的缘故。。哈哈,白头发越来越多了。。看起来好老气阿!该怎么说呢?have been tinking abt my future...cause..i'm not sure wad am i going to do in future..e course i get in..erm..how to say...i realli have no idea wad tt course is about...however...like wad i told gl..since i'm in tt course..i will sure work hard..bt..i'm scared tt,wad if i work hard,i still dun get a job??hai...*wonder*
朋友是一辈子的,所以,我不应该为了一个小小的事,而放弃这几年来,陪着我的朋友。。虽然之前又跟cindy,grace,july,matt,shazie,azzilah,ct,gl,federick,hy,jiayi,sinee,jeffrey and kwang hui.哈哈,怎么说呢。。这些应该都是我信任的。。除了kwang hui。。哈哈。不管怎样,我今天想开了。。现在,我不想再骗任何人。。因为,谎言不止伤害了对方,无形中,也伤害了自己。。不管如何,这是我的选择,我不会后悔!=))
.Tuesday, February 19, 2008 ' 2/19/2008 08:32:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
泪,划过你的心
我的泪,会划过你的心……
很久以前,在一个小镇,有一个快乐的男孩,他的家庭在小镇中还可以说穿了,就是“比上不足,比下有余”男孩很快乐,他有平凡男孩的”幻想、希望、还有对 未来的憧憬!谁不想自己的未来更好,男孩也一样!直到有一天男孩遇见了她,从此他的爱情故事开始了,故事很无奈,故事很悲哀很凄凉,很落寞……
男孩在小镇的中学上学,他很聪明,学习成绩很好,升到初三,他默默的提醒自己,要用自己的努力回报他的妈妈,刚刚开学,男孩 很无聊,在学校里漫无目的的走……刚刚开学的学校里很多人,男孩走过了一棵白杨树下忽然有一种不知名的感觉,白杨树下站者一个“小女孩”,淡淡的秋风,吹 着她白色的裙带,一头中发,好似不带一丝人间烟火的女神!那时在男孩的心里,被自己的幻想狠狠的撞击了一下,男孩不懂那是不是爱,但是他不想错过认识她的 机会,毕竟女孩很吸引她。他走过去,在近处看清了女孩的容貌,女孩很美……特别是女孩眼中的那份“无奈”或许是“无助”或是??男孩整理一下心头的犹豫, 走到她身边,轻声说“您好,我叫静心,认识您很高兴,但愿您一样!女孩把眼中的视线收回,好象对男孩的自我介绍很惊讶!脸,羞红了……呢喃着“很高兴,我 叫齐凤英。”男孩深深的在记忆里刻下了她的名字——齐凤英!男孩说“您是新生?假如有什麽可以帮忙的话请您说话,记住,我叫静心!”女孩低下头,“我会 的。”男孩仔细的看了看女孩,黯然的走了……但,男孩的心里一片空白!就从那一天,男孩失落了自我,他的灵魂悄然而逝!在男孩的心里,有一个名字,每天的 困扰他。
半个学期转眼而过,男孩没有去找女孩,可是他从没有忘记她!男孩的班级和女孩紧挨着,男孩只要每天从窗子里向外望,就会看到 他魂牵梦盈的女孩,他可以感觉到女孩默默的眼神!校园里并不是风平浪静的,一些校外的混混酒后来到了学校,他们发现了美丽的女孩,调戏纯洁的女孩……男孩 被班级外的噪音吵醒,看到他心爱的女孩,被三个流氓侮辱,没有任何犹豫的,他拿着姐姐送给他的护身刀,冲了出去!跑到女孩的旁边,护住女孩,三个流氓是小 镇的地痞,男孩认识,其中一个地痞说“靠,我认识你的哥哥我给你 哥面子,走远点!”男孩的手被女孩握的很紧……男孩回过头,看到了女孩的无助的目光……他的心,一瞬间很充实!男孩回过头,笑着说“不好意思,你们欺负的 女孩,很不巧,是我的女朋友,我呢不会让我的女朋友受一点点委屈!怎么办呢?几位大哥陪个礼,怎么样?”地痞喷着酒气“靠,给脸不要。”抬脚踢了男孩一 下!男孩笑了,抽出刀想都没想刺了过去……地痞倒了,血很快的流了一地。其他两个地痞见状,转身就跑……学校的校长知道男孩惹了祸,打电话找来了男孩的父 母。男孩把事情的经过说了(他省略了女孩在里的经过!)男孩的爸爸在小镇很有名气,校长听男孩说的话在第二天学校广播里,表扬了男孩……男孩的爸爸去医院 看看被男孩刺伤的地痞,地痞陪着笑脸,男孩的爸爸不想闹的太大,草草了结了……从此校园里流传了男孩和女孩的故事!女孩呢!也默默的注视男孩。但,他们俩 没有说感情,甚至没有在接触,只是默默的相互注视……
直到有一天,女孩连续几天没有上学,男孩忍不住了,骑着摩托车去了女孩的家。女孩病了,男孩很心疼!看着女孩憔悴的脸…男孩 伤心极了,女孩的父亲很保守,但,他没说什麽…男孩骑着摩托车回到了小镇,在医药商店买了很多的补品,送到女孩的家里,告诉女孩好好养病!快点回到学校, 他会很期盼她…
第二天,女孩回到了学校很憔悴,但是男孩很欣慰!男孩不想保留心底的秘密。每天和女孩在一起的日子是他最快乐的时光!
但是,所有悲伤的故事都有一个浪漫的开始,上天已经安排好你的命运,平凡的人又怎么能改变她的命运?直到有一天……
女孩的父亲找到了男孩,告诉他女孩现在在医院里,就在那一刻男孩疯了,他发狂似的跑到医院,看到了正在输血的女孩,他握紧了女孩的手,感觉到了女孩的体温,在此同时,女孩的父亲讲诉了所发生的事……
原来,在女孩九岁的时候,他的父亲就给她定了“娃娃亲”,在两位亲家的酒桌上,女孩不同意那门婚事,打碎了酒瓶,割断了手上的动脉…女孩说过,她最喜欢的男孩在她最需要他的时候,他没能在她的身边,如果离开这个世界是她的唯一结果,她多想看到他呀!可是不能……
男孩无微不至的护理女孩,他想用他的关怀挽回他曾有的过失…女孩的身体慢慢康复了,她看到了男孩的悔过,她还是用她多情的目光,望着男孩不高的身影!男 孩每天会挽着女孩的手,讲述他的爱!讲述他的不舍,讲述他未来的憧憬……女孩出院了,告诉男孩,她想用自己的手挣钱,来还她父亲曾经的“彩礼”男孩没说什 麽,只是告诉女孩,要保护好她自己……
男孩辍学了,他去了北京,他的姐姐在北京开了一家旅行公司,男孩想在遥远的北京挣一大比钱,用它来为以后奠定基础!女孩在吉林省九台市一家酒店当服务员!男孩一走就是两年……
回来后,男孩来到了酒店,一位服务小姐问他,你是不是凤英的男朋友,凤英在两个月前走了,她走的时候很失望!因为她的男孩没能履行他的义务,她说,假如 男孩回来,告诉他,凤英在两个月前,死了……男孩很心痛。他不想失去她。男孩来到分别以久的小镇,来到了女孩的家,女孩的父亲看到男孩,头,垂的很低很 低…在男孩一再的恳求下,女孩的父亲告诉男孩“她在吉林的舒兰,她……”男孩不语,狂飙到吉林舒兰的一家酒店,开门进去…女孩坐在一个略发福的中年人怀 里,很疯的笑着,男孩默默的注视着女孩…女孩终于看到了男孩,她的笑容慢慢的凝结了…男孩苦涩的笑了笑说“我回来看你了,我没有忘记我曾说过的话!” “……”“如果这是你想要的结果,我不会说太多,只能说我没有能力保留我的缘分,”“……” “爱一个人,我想让她快乐,可是,我没有!对不起,让你失望了……”“我还是我,可惜你不是你,我寻寻觅觅的、真诚面对的、朝思慕想的人会如此的…样子! 是我的错,是我的错,愿你快乐……”男孩回头走了,她不想让女孩看到他眼角的……他不敢去看曾是她生命的女孩的容颜!
天空为何那么——暗?
爱情为何那么——难?
从此。男孩的世界没有了欢笑……
女孩给男孩打了一个电话,她说“我就要结婚了,祝福我么”“……”“我的命是我自己选的,后悔来不及,如果有来生,我会用我一生等候。”男孩无声的低 泣…男孩的母亲看着日渐消瘦的儿子,讲了一个故事: 汪洋的海世界有一条龙,很想看看外面的世界,他呼风唤雨的去了人世间,他爱上了一个女孩,可是女孩是 人,她怎么会选择一个不是同类的“人”呢?他彷徨,他无助……可是,是龙——终究会归回大海的…”男孩楼着妈妈,哭了……
日子就这样不好不坏的慢慢流逝!男孩深深的封锁了他的记忆!他不敢去想过去,不敢去回忆…但是,男孩活了,虽然他不开心!
男孩拥有了另一份感情,女孩是另一个女孩的影子,世间就是这样,男孩慢慢的开心起来,因为她…直到有一天女孩又给男孩打了一个电话…“静心么?我生了一 个男孩,很漂亮,祝福我么?”“是的,漂亮么?可惜,不是我的,假如是我的,假如没有意外,我是世界上最快乐的人……可惜,不是…”“……”“过好你的生 活吧!凤英!”“……”
两天之后,她的母亲在电话里说“静心,我的外孙死了,我很喜欢他,可是,我们无缘啊!”男孩说“怎么死的?”女孩的母亲说“意外,没想到的意外!”“为什么不抢救呢?”“救不了了,救不了了……”男孩无言的放下电话…
男孩无语的忘着天,看到他的泪划过天国 ̄!
天堂是什么颜色 ,他,很想看看……
男孩无语的低首,看到了他的泪渗落苍茫大地 ̄!
地狱是什么规模,他很想知道……
慢慢的走过红尘,男孩不知道,他的红尘中,是否还有一次凄凉的邂逅是否还会有一个女孩,拥有那份无助的眼神…拥有过去的快乐!
人生不像梦,因为它太——真实!
人生不像酒,因为它太——无味!
人生不像棋,因为它不会从新来过!
人生不像迷,因为它太通俗易懂了!
人生不等于人生!命运不会把握人生,而人生就是在无法悔过的时候——悔过!无法忘记的时候——忘记!
想忘记,可是,会么?
.Friday, February 15, 2008 ' 2/15/2008 04:01:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
LOSt daiRY ChPt 153:
herm...yesterday is valentines day...haha...yesterday...all the memories in east view become a movie...haha...so drama..valentines day is also known as friendship day...haha...last year...is so fun...everyone is exchanging present...and most of it is chocolates..haha...
想念的。。missing the days in class...everyone was making fun of each other..e guys craking jokes...and e whole class just laugh..
missing the corridor outside e class...from e corridor outside 407 classroom..u can see people in e canteen...looking at all e "hungry ghost"..lol...
missing the library where me,hong yao ,jiayi and kwang hui will always be..talking to e library staffs...gossiping....
missing e PA system room...where everytime hong yao,kwang hui and mi will be to "escape" from assembly...lol...a place with full of memory...
missing the school canteen where every morning,e group of people meet each other...and sometimes,gl and federick will drop by and di siao us...
missing the school basketball court where we usually do PE exercise there...and when jess and me will look down from e 4th floor to see people playing basketball..haha..sometime gl and federick will be there playing and saw us will shout my name...haha...
missing the science lab where we can slack..haha...everytime practical is e time for us to play..haha...and remember that day bio prac...kah beng lighted e bunsun burner...den his whole table get into fire..luckily before mrs tan nvr saw...cause she's talking to some people...haha...
missing e study area where i will study with kaijing...
missing the school carpark...every morning when we assemble there...will sure have many funny things to hear..not from the teachers or vp or p...but..from other klass...or when james,kah beng,sheikh,ming sheng,cheng teck sitting infront or behind..the whole assembly period will be full of laughter...haha...
seems that there's realli alot of things that i miss...missing the people,things in ev...
.Wednesday, February 06, 2008 ' 2/06/2008 09:36:00 AM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lOST DAirY cHPT 152:
haha...tmr CNY le...but...cant celebrate...sad....haiz...cause grandmother pass away few days ago...hai..need to go attend her funeral le...