.Thursday, May 15, 2008 ' 5/15/2008 08:30:00 PM Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
lost dairy chpt 194:
haha...i'm impressed by someone today..haha...he's my idol nw..haha...kana influence by fiona..haha..he so cool..yea...the way he write his blog is so cool..haha..ya...了解到很多东西。。有些是我讲过但没有做到的。。是乎,他都能做到。。。哈哈。。。也想通了很多事。。希望明天的我。。能跟今天的我不同。。
ya..erm...tmr going for AVT karaok..haha..go get some cca pts..LOL...i need cca pts...cz..i dun have cca..LOL..ok...tt's nt e main pt...yea...e main pt is..frec today bully me...haha..no la..how to say...disturb??lol..duno..cz..he jus use fiona acct to say me..LOL..actually i already 4gt wad he say..bt..i rmb ronney nvr help me...haha...and ronney ask frec nt to bully me wait for him to come back..den dey bully me together..LOL..so idiot lor..den when ronney came back from his interview...i ask him get out of klaz...haha...so funny...i find myslef crazy..LOL..ya..bt at e end..they nvr bully me...LOL...if to ask me why i cry in BK last yr...actually i have no idea..today..when i took bus to my piano school..e bus drive past nazreen hse...and i ask myself why i cry in BK last yr b4 going nazreen hse?..ya..bt is like..i duno how to say..maybe everything jus happen in 1 week..and expect me to laugh, play and celebrate nazreen bd..i really cant do it..ya...so..maybe the atmosphere at BK is nt gd too..duno why la..jus cried out..and followed by matt..haha..no1 knows why we cry...haha..i cant stop myself from crying...is like..i really know is embarassed to cry in public..haha..bt..really cant stop it..ya..and matt keep on saying stuff that will make me cry..haiz...haha..den i reach nazreen's hse..i emo like hell lor...haha...den azzilah,shazana and matt accompanied me to e staircase to let myself cool down..LOL...i remember tt time e 3 of them also wanna cry...cz..realli..many things happen..nt only my problem..is like..every1 related to me have problem and...........anyway...things have passed..and through that 'crying session'..i really know who are my true frens...haha..they accompanied my tru everything...and 'some' ppl is der happily tking pics..haha...ya..i cant blame la..cz..they don't know anything...haiz...dun feel like saying le..jus..wanted to write it down..and let myself rmb how i feel when i was writing this...
i shall move on with my life...since i cant changed the past..haha..how many time s have i said this..and i'm still looking back..HATE myself...when can i stop acting like this!!!
i find myself selfish...cz..i do everything i can do stop contacting ppl...dun let ppl have a chance to contact me..i onli gave my contact to ppl who i trust wun betray me...bt..i still go to their blog and see how their life is...and they cant find mine...HAHA..wad a big joke...and when i go online to e old acct..they will ask me' how cum seldom see u online...' or 'wad happen to ur blog?'..wad can i say?i can onli tell lies...just bcz i dun wan myself to rmb anything..bt..everything and everywhere i'll still tink of e past..even ngee ann poly have memories of them...e way to canteen 3...e lecture theatre that i went for EE camp...all reminds of them...how can i possibly 4gt everything by stop contacting them??haha..i sux...