lost dairy chpt 334:

刚刚。。
从新读了朋友给我的卡片和信。。
读着读着。。。
我才发现。。
原来。。
我忘了很多事情。。。
是选着性失意吗？？

把痛苦的回忆给忘掉。。
用愤怒和埋怨掩盖了以前的好。。
把责任推给了别人。。

有个朋友，她在信里叫我不可以放弃。。
也有人写，以我的性格，我一定会做到我想要做的事。。
但，我现在在干吗？？
我可以说是找到新的目标。。
可是，也是因为放弃了理想。。
才会做这个决定的。。

最近，发生了些不开心的事。。
如果是以前的我，会怎么解决呢？？
还是第一次怀念以前的我。。
我一直认为，
现在的我，比以前的我还好。。
可是看完了那些卡和信。。
是乎。。
觉得，以前的我比较好。。
做出判断是，不会有任何偏见。。
以前的我，是个理智的人。。（我可以这么说吧）
无可否认，我现在也可能是个理智的人。。。
可是，有了偏见。。
偏见。。。

迷惘。。
找不到答案。。。
或许，我真的应该静下来。。
好好地想，
什么是对，什么是错。。。


又想起你了。。
想起了好多事。。。
不知道该怎么办。。
如果你在我身边那该有多好。。
你应该，会给我一些意见吧。。。=（

lost dairy chpt 333:

came back from esplanade...
hmm...okok...
quite fun...
haha...


突然想起你。。
多希望一切能和我想像中那么完美。。

lost dairy chpt 332:

你在心里嘲笑的自己，
才是最真实的自己。。
没有任何的掩饰。。
才会让自己觉得可笑。。
记得，不要忘记当时的感觉和感受。。
不然，即使是自己迷失了自己，
也再也找不回了。。。

很多人，喜欢带着面具与人相处。。
但，也有些人，是为了符合这个社会，而戴上面具。。

用了真心对待人，
却让人觉得那是面具。。
这样的人生，只有两个字可以形容。。
可悲。。。

用了真心，
却让别人说你笨，单纯。。
我能说什么？？
算了。。
或许，带着面具，
给人冷漠的感觉。。
未尝不是一件坏事。。
不是吗？？

lost dairy chpt 331:


yea!!!
gt back my results...
hmm...ok la...
at least i;ve improved..;)
i'm satisfied...
HAHA...

whao...
today is a tiring day...
went to school at 12 to meet gina and hafiz...
den met the grads at 1...
den start filming....
haha...quite funny la...
no matter the girls or the boys side...
the girls they are nt very open...
the boys...they are too open...
haha...maybe because they are all SL...
haha...
wad can i say??
block is the smart 1...
haha...wear normal t and short...
haha...
nt like stephen and jun run...
haha...wear shirt and pants...
is damn humid la today...
den still go to blk 5 for filming...
no air-con somemore...
haha...
the grads and helpers and us are perspiring like hell...

yea...
at least done half of the filming...
the rest..have to count on gina they all...
cause...
this coming mon i'll be going for attachment....
haha...
looking forward...
HAPPY~~
BT DEN...
i cant go for the F.O.P camp...
sad...
even stephen ask y...
haiz...too bad la...
attachment and camp...
hmm...i'll choose attachment...
camp...i'll be there next yr...
so, i guess it's no diff...
i just miss 1 yr's camp...
haha...there still lots of it...
i hope~
LOL...
AH!!!
i really wanna go for camp!!!
but, wad can i do???
haiz...
emo~...
LOL...
ok...tt's all for today...

i want watch coming soon!!!
any1 intrested???
HAHA...


我宁可把一切归零。。。

lost dairy chpt 330:

just got back...
went out with grace and wc...
went to eat billy bombers...
purpose:to spend te voucher...
LOL...
and in the end...
they gave us another voucher...
dots...
HAHA...
cute right??
den..i gave it to grace...
haha...grace shld spend it...
LOL...

den walk ard...aimlessly...
HAHA...
den went to suntec...
look for some books to buy...
HAHA....
mirical..
cause too long nvr read any books...
bt den..cant find a book that really seems nice to me...
HAHA...very difficult...
haha...den was chit chatting...
haha...wad can i say??
with wc ard...i always gt LOTS of things to say...
especially when his chimalogy is away...
haha..like wad i say...
haha...i side matt for that...
if that's the person u've been in the past 1 yr...
u shld cont with that...
and i have to say...
i'll jue jiao with u...
HAHA!!!
so bad sia me...
ask u where ur chimalogy...
den later ur chimalogy come back..
i jue jiao with u!!!
LOL...evil Peilin
LOL!!!

den finally...
we went to watch the movie...at eng wah....
haha...
wad can i say??
the theatre is small...
like sci centre theatre...
and grace says it looks like the haunted cinema in the horror movie...

i want watch "coming soon"!!!!
any1 wanna watch??
hmmm...shld ask gl if he wanna watch...
haha...like tt...counted going out with him le...HAHA...
so fu yan...ok...
forget it...see when free 1st bah...
tmr have to go back to school...
cause gt the briefing for the attachment...
hmm...
hope it can ends early...
haha...
i wan go home watch tv...hehe...x)

lost dairy chpt 329:

ok...
update of the F.O.P camp...
haha...
meet yen ting and yuan xin outside wattsup...
yea...
while waiting i saw frec...
haha...so shock...
den after tt...went in...
den i suan frec...haha...
yea..

after that..
we are divided into 2 groups to tink of a performace that we'll be performing for the old folks..
yup...
den blah blah blah...
went for lunch...
haha...
after that...waited for the bus to come at atrium...
and we waited for the bus for 30min...
-_-...
ok...off to the old folks home...
den played with them...
den perform...
den...de-brief by mr lee...
back to school..
whao...wad can i say??
is tiring..haha
kneeling up and down...
walking here and there...
can really kill me...
den when we're back to wattsup...
we are told that we're going to stay over night at LOFT!!!
omg!!!
let's see our apartment...that is shared by only yuan xin,yenting and me...=)


the 2nd bed room...

3rd bed room

toilet in master bedroom..

balcony at master bedroom

master bedroom...

public toilet

kitchen

living room...

haha...nice right???
lol..
yenting and me are so happy...haha...
the apartment is so big...haha
den here comes the angry part...

we're suppose to divide...
4 girls in 1 apartment...
den another 5 in another...
bt...the girls are 3 in a grp...
so,they dun wanna break...
i suggest that they can either join us or join the other girls at the next apartment...
den guess wad??
we overheard that the girls at the next apartment...
complain something to shawn...
den when we get back down to shawn's apartment...
his face is like super black...
den i went to "confront"(that's wad yenting says) the girls at the next apartment...
den one of them give me a attitude face...
i'm super duper pissed off!!!
den my face is like super black..
yenting and yuanxin still ask me not to bother...
bt den, is like...hello??
how old are you???
if u dare to complain...
den admit...
-_-

den after that...
SL are late again...
den...i'm double pissed off...
because of some reason...

yup....den after that...
went for amazing race...
haha...
we run like siao..
den in the end...
yuanxin and yenting get pissed off...
den block came and ask us how is the game at the SL's apartment...
den yuan xin jus walk off...
haha...
ANGRY...

after the de-brief..
yenting accompany yuan xin back home to get something...
haha...left me alone in the apartment...
whao...i dun even know i can be so brave...
haha...
bath alone in a apartment...
haha...
after that...they came back...
we sit in the room and chatted for like 2 hrs like tt...
den nicholas called yenting tell them tt...
SL is making spot-check...
so,we're waiting for them to come up...
den chatted for another 1plus hr..
super long...
haha...den finally they came...
HAHA...
den we told stephen and block that we know wad happen downstairs...
haha...
they so shock...
haha...we gt spies every where...x)
den have a small talk with them...
wha end up..yuanxin and yenting bath at ard 2 plus...
haha..
den when they bath finish...
we went down to the guys apartment...
haha...
1st went to mart(hope i spell it correctly)'s their apartment...
because i get to see something i dun wanna see...
den my face turn black again...
haha...
den yenting ask me to go over to frec's apartment...
so,we went there...
and they waited for us for like 3 hrs...keep on play cards...
haha...den went there and play "old maid" with them...
haha...super funny la...
together played 8 rounds...
and nicholas lose 8 rounds!!!
LOL...we're laughing all the way...haha...

den played for like 20min...
den we went back to our apartment...
den ton the whole night...
cause we're chatting
LOL...nvr even sleep...
terror of my life...
when we get down the next morn without any slp...
shawn said that our morn exercise is campus run...
i feel like killing myself...
den run a little bit...
den walk the whole journey...
HAHA...
feel like vominting sia..
den...angry again...
some1 so irritating...
keep on cathing every1's attention...
den down there ask us run faster...
ok...maybe nvr slp...
get a little bit frustrated...
den we just hack...
cont walk and chat...
haha...
den went for the dance class for the performace thingy...
SUPER TIRED!!!
my muscle ache like hell...

after the dance lesson...
we're divided into 3 grps...
to prepare our lunch...
BBQ at the loft...
haha...
and it RAINS!!!
LOL...
we have to wait for the rain to stop...
den when the rain stops...
we went to prepare...
HAHA...
den my grp gt professional..
so,we dun need to do anything...
just watch..
haha...den i found out that...
jeevan cant be a cook...
his bbq skill is bad...
qing hui said that the way he bbq can lead the food poisoning...
HAHA...
so,i'm considering not to go for 407 chalet...
haha...den we start bbq when the food is here...
den we eat while we bbq...
haha...save the best for ourselves...
den also for some "good" ppl...

den this is one of our conversation
yenting: "they actually jus now wanna come and take food leh...bt dey dun dare"
peilin:"who cares!they come here i also dun wan give them..ask them go the other side...i dun wan give them"

LOL..
can see how angry i am right??haha
den after that...jiajun they all came down...
den we pass them the "nice" food...
haha...den went to chat with priscilla and serene a while and get back to the bbq work...
haha...with food inside my mouth...
HAHA...
before bbq ends...
i have to leave...
cz..next morn gt piano lesson..
have to go home...
so..only went for the camp for 2day 1 night...
haha...

on the 2day 1night camp...
i keep on hearing ppl saying i look like guai kia...-_-
i dun like to hear that...
haha...duno why...
haha...den yuanxin keep on hearing "lang fei"
LOL!!!!
inside joke...haha...

anyway...
is fun..
hope i can really go for the real F.O.P camp...=)

lost dairy chpt 328:


YEA!!!
back from EE FOP trial camp...
haha...
super tired...
muscle ache like hell...
shall update more next time...=)

lost dairy chpt 327:

guess wad??
i'm totally pissed off by some1's act...
i've said this a thousand times in my blog...
and i dun mind saying it again...

i HATE those ppl who used other people to get what they want...
so wad if u get wad u want??
u lose more than wad u expected during the procedure...
if that makes u happy...
i wonder why u're still living in this world...
tell u wad...
maybe u think u've win...
bt..in actual fact...u lose...
u lose ur friend...
u lose the trust other ppl gave it to u...
and in the end...
when u even lose wad u win in the 1st place...
u left with NTH!!!
u'll be alone...
maybe YOU think that it's ok..
u can always find new friends..
find new thrust...
HAHA...
for your information...
no matter how many new friends u have...
how many thrust u've gain from the others...
u are NOT the winner...
yea...so...in conclusion:YOU ARE NOT THE WINNER!!!
DON'T BE TO HAPPY....


maybe some of u are wondering...
why get so upset??
if you've ever been betrayed by your frens...
u'll know how it feels...
wad's so difficult to say the truth???
u wan to used ppl to get something...
can't you jus ask??
isn't that more polite??
arghh....
i'm just sick and tired being used or seeing ppl being used...
do YOU know that...
being betrayed by the friends that u really trust...really...really depend on...
once the truth is out...
i can only say...
i tink that i'm so stupid...
stupid to believe that everything is true...
okay..maybe some part is true...
but den...the trust is nvr there...
i can smile at u..
crack jokes with you...
talking to u nicely...
but..it does not mean that wad ever you did will be forgiven by YOURSELF...
treating ppl in such a nice way...
sooner or later...
you understand that...
even the victim itself can forgive u...
u CANT forgive yourself...
THINK ABOUT IT YOURSELF...

lost dairy chpt 326:

yea...
“最美丽的爱情是错过和失去”
how much do u agree with this statement??
LOL...
ok..maybe it sounds stupid...haha...
bt den...
to someone is quite true...

today...
i was reading the things that i've wrote the down the past few years...
whenever i read it...
i find myself stupid...HAHA...
yea..that's why...
to me, i'm very stupid..
ok..that's not the point...
the point is...
writing down things that happen and how you feel at that very moment...
after the things have been solved or remain unsolved...
u'll still find it stupid...
maybe it's because our mentality change after sometime...
maybe i would have handled the problems better back than...

anyway..
i'm quite satisfied with the life i'm living with..
at least at this moment...
i don't hate the life i'm having now...
i can't say i love it...
but,i also dun hate it...
so...i guess...
that's wad life is...
neither here nor there...
HAHA...

and,counting the days that i've live without u...
maybe...it's really ok for me...
...to live a life without you...

我会好好的 （王心凌）

我会好好的 花还香香的
时间一直去 回忆真美丽
我是想着你 一直想着你
你在我心底 变成了秘密
不要说你爱我 你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受
我要你默默走 不回头
我会清楚明白你要的是什么
不许勉强的安慰我 说奇怪的理由
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福 我知道他苦苦的
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福 不知道它苦苦的
不要说你爱我 你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受
我要你默默走 不回头
我会清楚明白你要的是什么
不许勉强的安慰我 说奇怪的理由
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福 我知道它苦苦的
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福 不知道它苦苦的
我会好好地 花还香香的
时间一直去 回忆真美丽
我是想着你 一直想着你
你在我心底 变成了秘密
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福 我知道它苦苦的
要给你远方的祝福我知道它苦苦的

SAND ART!!!
COOL!!!


if you guys rmb the sichuan earthquake...
u shld understand the art...=)


very cool..haha...

lost dairy chpt 325:

hmmm...
esplanade send us the e-mail already...
and...gd news...
i'm still going for my attachment...
bad news...
i dun tink i can go for my camp=(
feel so bad...
promise yenting that i can go..
bt den nw..
haiz...see 1st bah...
sad..

lost dairy chpt 324:

hmmm...
i duno wad to say...
find myself quite heartless...
before everything happen...
i can tell u everything..
bt...after that...
hmm...
i just wan myself to shut up...
stop telling u things...
so..i'm sorry...
haha...u'll nvr come to this blog...
because u dun even know it's presence...

ok...
hmmm...attachment still no news...
hmmm...still need to wait for the schedule to be out...
haiz...

hmmm...
post some pics...=)

pic taken ay topone with grace...
haha...went there to celebrate her bd..=))

SLEEPLESS TOWN!!!
haha...pic took from fiona's blog...
hmmm...quite nice...
haha...the songs are nice...
and the 1st song that the little girl sing...
really very nice...
haha...
yea...i'm talking on the phone while taking pics...
haha..."multi-tasking"...
hehe....

Was tagged by Fiona to do this survey.

1: besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
- hmmm...duno...

2: how did you feel when you woke up this morning?
- happy???

3: who was the last person you took a photo with?
- Fiona and Ronney

4: would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- yup...somehow...

5: would you ever donate blood?
- yup...

6: have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
- yea of course...haha...

7: do you want someone dead?
- hmmm...ya cz...haha...bt nt really dead...jus "dead"...haha...

8: what does your last text message say?
- "oh.i see.ok...thanks=)"

9: what are you thinking of right now?
- nothing?

Peilin

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