suddenly, there's this urge to write down something..

haha...oh wells~..

yesterday dad mention his name...

and somehow...

i just change the topic and don't want to hear what's going to cont...

i regret introducing him to my dad...

even to my family...

although my mum and sis stop talking abt him for ages...

but my dad....

haiz....

i'm a aimless person now...

i had no idea what i want to do...

all this while i only wanted to do one thing...

but, now, it's hard for me to fulfill..

last sat was chatting with my uncle...

he mention that studying overseas is actually not a bad idea..

which i totally agree with him...

is a kind of training...

i'm not those kind of ppl that have to cling to my parents...

cling to my country because my country is safer den others...

my grandpa just walk past and i can sense that he's upset abt it...

maybe partly to my uncle too..

as no one dares to mention this topic infront of my grandpa...

everyone knows that grandpa don't like me going overseas and study..

he even told me a story abt his friend's grandson not coming back to singapore after his studies..

i know and understand from my grandpa's point of view...

and i promise him i won't go anywhere else..

and my grandpa is so afraid that i'll brea my promise that he keep on asking me to go apply for a uni...

that's very stress as i have no idea what i want to do...

ppl may think why must i listen to my grandpa??

because..he's the one that brought me up...

he's the one that accompanied me when my parents are working...

after my mum stop working because of me...

he stopped coming to my hse and look after me..

but in my memories, is all about him...

talking abt this...i'm also quite sorry towards my mum...

she gave up her job because of me...

if not, maybe she'll be like my aunt??

become her boss best helper??

haha!!! gina they all say that i'm not rebellious enough..

but guess what??

i'm quite rebellious when i'm young..haha...

when ever my mum wants to bring me to school...

i'll keep crying and crying...because i don't want my mum to go to work...

i'll not eat during breaks until my mum came back and ask me eat...hahaha!!!

den i'll pon school during k2...haha! cause i don't like school...

LOL!!! because my kindergarden is just 5 stories away from my house...

haha...den i went to hide inside my neighbour house...

cause i know if i went home my mum will hit me...haha...

i had all my dramas when i'm young...

that's why no more dramas for me now...

old already ar....haha....

life is full of dramas...