looking through the pictures....

people do change....

don't you think so???

picture do speak a thousand words...

but,what's the story behind every picture?

only the people inside the picture know..

but some pictures are taken so long ago that i totally don't remember...

and grandpa is so young and energetic...

the thing that i regret now is that...

i didn't apply for uni for this year...

all i think about is myself and what i want...

may be i've said that i'll forfeit the thinking of going overseas to study...

i still hope that there's a small percentage of chance that i can i go...

but now, to think of it....

it's kinda selfish in a way...

grandpa wanted to see me to get into uni so badly...

and i just keep pushing and pushing...

even now, he's getting weaker and weaker...

he's getting skinner and skinner...

all he left is bones....

the first thing that he spoke to me is to remind me to go and study uni...

heart wrenching.....

the pain that he's going through now is making him so weak..

but all he can think of is my studies...

i still remember how happy he is when i gave him one of my grad pic...

he's so happy that he walked to the living room and find a place to put the photo frame...

he even ask lele if she can recognize who's the person in the photo...

that's the last time i saw him smile until so happy...

after that...the pain is so unbearable that we have to send him to the hospital...

while everyone is panicking taking out wheelchair...

getting the car ready...

grandpa told me that the pain is so unbearable that he's going to die...

my heart sink and went out to see if they are ready to get grandpa to the hospital..

on the way to the hospital...

everyone was so quiet...

after he came back from the hospital...

he seldom come out from his room anymore...

he comes out only for lunch,dinner and his medication...

other than that...he'll be lying on the bed...

yesterday...he look at me...

asking me to remember to apply for uni...

even though he cant see me attending uni...

i was so stunt at that moment...

i have no idea how to i console him...