舍得舍得，不舍不得。。。

in the midst of looking for my "path"....

i cant remember if i've mention that i went to look for this so call "fortune teller"...

haha... superstitious? i have no idea at all...

but what i know is that...

whatever she say about my cousins and sister are all so accurate...

only mine....is not accurate at all....

haha..maybe it's just the decision that i've made at every moment...

with different decision you've made, you'll be able to receive different outcome...

that's what i always believe...

but sometimes, decision aren't so easily made...

to make a choice between "give up" or "i believe that i can do it. i just have to go through this. challenge accepted."

do you have this kind of pressure??

things will come out differently if you push yourself to the max.

however, there are times whereby i just want to slack at one corner.

give up and unwilling to put in more effort...

and whenever this thought comes in...

another thought will follow...

"how can i give up so easily? without putting in any effort?? i'm a loser if i did that"

denial in progress...

and...i'm stuck...

no improvement....nothing i can do....

unless i get myself out of this thinking process...